#4

Damn being woke up by an actual alarm and not your mother's yell is worse. My mother has gone to her home South Africa and were left alone. You see my father isn't dead he's alive and kicking but his name is a taboo in our home. My father moved out 3 years ago to his home in Japan but he still supports us sends money and promises to come home to see us. My mother left because she had some things to sort out and didn't drag us because we have school.

"How long does it take you to actually shower and dress? Hurry up fuck face." Kyle yelled irritated. I rolled my eyes and got dressed in my black skater skirt and black oversized shirt I tucked it in on the front and left it at the back. "Hey chill I'm here let's go." I took an apple and Kyle followed suit. We never make ourselves breakfast or dinner if mom isn't here we know how to cook but that's how spoiler we are. I pulled up at school. "Love you little sis." Kyle said as he hugged me. "Go to hell fucker!" he really believes I'm younger? or he says that to get a reaction out of me the fucker!

Lilah jumped on me. "Look don't go apeshit but look to your left." I did as told and guess what I saw Paige and Brittany laughing like old friends. OMG! She moved on fast. "Let's go in." I took her hand we chatted all the way we stopped at our lockers and got our books and went to English class.

"Hey class again pair up and be quiet I'm working on a survey." Mr Bennett said. Chairs scraping and shuffles resounded in the class. "Hey Ryannie the rock star." I said happily. Ryan groaned but didn't greet me back. "Are you okay?" I asked him. He started hyperventilating. "Ryan are you okay? Do you want water." I was scared shitless at this point but I pushed my anxiety down. Ryan shot out of his seat and ran out. "Excuse me Sir he's my partner I have to follow him." I said breathlessly. Mr Bennett nodded and I ran out. Ryan ran outside towards the stairs going to the rooftop. I ran after him of course if this is a plot to kill me and get my insides he will succeed trust me.

He ran up the stairs I didn't believe how fast he was but nonetheless I followed. He stopped at the rooftop and started breathing really fast. "Ryan Ryan what is it are you okay?" I looked at him and he was having a panic attack. "Okay Uhm Ryan listen to me listen to my voice only..." I decided to give the thing they always showed I. the movies a try. "...try naming things that you see whilst taking deep breaths." I told him stepping near him."Flowers... Clouds...Pretty Girl..." OHH he called me pretty. Okay Xaé not the time."...bench...metal scraps... parking lot....cars." with each word he was calming down and I got near him and hugged him.

"I'm sorry Xaé I really am sorry you had to see me like this. I'm sorry...I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." he sobbed in my arms and my heart shattered. He was crying sobbing. "Hey heyy shhh don't be sorry I'm sorry you had to go through that. Look at me Ryan..." he glanced at me and looked down I chuckled. "I'm sorry okay I'm glad I followed you if not it would have longated and that isn't nice right?" he nodded. "So I'm sorry you have to go through that. Let's go to the sick bay you need to rest." I said and he shook his head. "Oh hell no boy we aren't arguing over this. We're going to the nurse that way I get to skip classes also." I said smiling sheepishly."Glad to know my predicament is an excuse for your bad behaviour Ms Adams." he said in a rapsy voice. I laughed and he smiled shaking his head.

We got to the nurse and she gave Ryan some pills and left I offered to take care of him. "Hey Ryan McBlack Hearl...i love your name you know. Anyway who do you live with?" I asked him. He chuckled. "Xaé Xaé Adams...you're pretty you know? Pretty name pretty face and of course smart i want to be your friend but I can't..." he replied but at the same time disregarding my question. "But you deserve better Sweetheart you really do I can't give you..." his last words became gibberish as he passed out. What was he given that made him blab like that? I left him and went to drink water. I looked at the sleeping boy on the bed he was cute while sleeping he pouted his lips and furrowed his eyebrows he stirred before relaxing again.

The bell to lunch rang I went to get lunch I bumped into a person. "Oh god Xaé stop being klutz you're messing up our outfits!" a nasal voice cried. "Brittany... if I thought your outfits are the best I wouldn't be messing them up now would I be?" I sneered back. What a nerve she looked at with distate I waved at her mockingly and went to the cafeteria. I was immediately welcomed by Lilah. "Where were you? Is that boy okay? Did you take him home?" she asked under one breath. "Whoa there tiger," I chuckled. "Ryan is fine and I was with him in the sick bay." I answered her questions she looked me jaw dropped. "But...but.. you...you... YOU HATE THE NURSE'S OFFICE." she shouted grabbing attention to almost all the cafeteria. I dragged her to an empty table. "Yes I do but I had to stay with him because I was kind enough and wanted to and also wanted to ditch." she nodded we went to line up and got pasta for me which is my favourite and chicken Alfredo for Ryan. He doesn't like it he'll have to it. "Bye Lilah come over later yeah?" I said to her she frowned. "You say it as if we're meeting for the first time and you're trying to be nice. Of course I'll come babe bye." she blew me a kiss but like the dramatic fuckers we are I catched the imaginary kiss and out in my pocket and threw her an imaginary heart she caught it and threw it away I gasped. "Le gasp.. you heartless motherfucker." I fake cried but burst out laughing and went to Ryan.

I found him putting on his shirt. "Where are you going?" I asked him "Home the nurse said I can go. I asked for you and she agreed as well so let's go and maybe keyword being maybe we'll do that project." he said and I didn't even argue I took the food gave him his which was one of his favourite food like the food addicted fucker he was. And off we went to that cute coffee shop.

"Welcome to Lucy's can I get... hey you didn't call me."