Misery

I immediately stood up and fix my clothes, his eyes were bloodshot, he looks like he was crying, he looks very drained, physically, mentally and emotionally. I pity him and I don't wanna see him like that. He was about to walk away but I called out his name that makes him stop.

"jax...are you okay?"

he turn to look at me but he looks at me like a nuisance, I bowed my head because of his terrifying stare like he wanted to kill me. "Please get out" he said in a low dark voice. But because I'm a hard headed girl, I didn't leave and I just stayed in my place "talk to me, are you okay?" I asked again.

"haven't I told you to stop getting into other peoples business?"

I don't know why but I got mad "Just please tell me if you're okay or not?!" I shouted at him, I couldn't force myself anymore, he faced me and slowly came closer to me. As I stepped back he stepped in closer, until I felt the cold wall on my back, I was trapped and I don't know where to run. His stare was very dark that makes me nervous, my legs were trembling, my hands were getting cold. As he came closer I thought he would hit me, shout at me, but I was surprise when he rested his head on my shoulder. then I felt my shirt was slowly soaked, I can feel his tears, I can feel his pain. 

And so I pat his back, trying to calm him. I heard him sob, so I continued to pat him. He raise his head and look at me straight from the eyes, his eyes tells how very tired he is, then suddenly he fell on the ground. I tried to wake him but I think he fainted. Because I cant lift him, I drag him towards his apartment, I opened the door and slowly put him on his bed. I took his shoes off and I place more pillows on him and cover him in blanket. 

I put aside his long hair at the back of his ear and his face revealed in closer view. His lashes were thick and long, so as his small nose, his pinkish lips and dark brows. He's very attractive and I cant help myself to admire his beauty. I looked over his room, and his room feels empty and sad, just like mine. I saw trashes on his desk, broken glasses and shattered mirror, so I decided to clean it up for him. After I clean his room, I saw a photo, and I cant help myself to took and look at it. It was a family picture, a happy family picture, suddenly someone took the photo out of my hands. 

It was jax, he look so mad, his face were burning red and veins were showing on his neck. "Get out" he ordered, but I didn't move, and so he shouted at me "I said get out!" I got frighten so I panicked to go outside. when I left he slam the door in my face. "What a jerk, he didn't even say thank you, uhh!" I complain, stomping my feet towards my apartment. 

For the whole 4 days, I'm just in my room watching movies, taking a nap, read a book, paint and play music. The next day my mom called me to come home to have dinner, because I don't have anything else to do, I agreed with it. Now I just arrived at home, my mom welcomed me as she hugged me, but I tried to avoid it. she smiled at me and told me to sit. as I sit on the kitchen, I looked over to see where, is her guy "No ones here honey, just you and me" she said. 

she served food on the table and sit in front of me. we were silent and didn't even speak a word. "when will you come home sweetie" she asked while her gaze is in her food "I'm not coming home mom" she looked at me with confusion "why?" she asked in concern.

"mom, to be honest, since father died, I hate going home, I hate being with you, I hate you" I said it right in front of her face, she smiled bitterly and a tear fell down on her cheeks, she continued eating while tears are keep on falling down. " I understand" she said. suddenly I felt guilty on saying those words, I feel pain every time her tears fell down.

I slam the table and I bit myself not to cry "stop crying!" I yelled at her but, she really burst into tears, and so am I. I couldn't help myself anymore. 

"Athena, I'm sorry for being like this, I also suffered sweetie, every night I saw you crying on your room and as a mother it hurts me so bad. I'm really sorry, you suffered a lot because of me. I also miss your father, I cant forget your father up until now, I dated many guys thinking I could forget him, but no. I even missed him more" she said and start crying louder. My heart ache again, remembering how everything was so happy and nice. I miss those days, and I wish to bring those moments back.

The place was full of weeping, full of sadness and loneliness. And we both suffered it. "Athena, I know you won't forgive me and I know you don't want me anymore, I understand sweetie, I'll let you do what ever you want, but remember what everything happens, you're welcome to come back home with me." and then she stood up wiping her tears away and went upstairs, I was left alone feeling guilty, she wont felt that way if I was nice to her and we found comfort in each others arms, I clench my fist from anger and pain at the same time.

I'm so tired of this pain and sadness, I left home without telling my mom, I run away while my tears are still falling, suddenly I felt a liquid fell above, then the rain burst. Crying under the rain hurts so much, I sat on the road crying louder. I don't care what people thinks, I just wanna let my feelings out, to free my sadness and pain. Getting wet with my clothes on makes me feel better. 

I felt my eyes were getting tired, and my tears run out. I heavily breathe and tried to calm myself down. I walked going through my apartment in drench clothes. I opened the door and emptiness greet me. I smiled bitterly as I take my clothes off. I submerged myself on the tub with cold water. "this cold is not enough for me" I took ice on my fridge and put it on the tub, when I already got satisfied by the amount of ice I went back to tub. And take a moment of silence. 

Dash Point of view

My phone rings and I answered it without looking who's the caller was. 

"Dash! Don't you wanna visit your uncle?" my eyes widened from surprise.

"uncle Benj? Yes of course! I'm coming!" and so I hang up the phone. I quickly went to my motorcycle going straight to my uncle's place. 

As I arrive, my uncle greeted me and gave me a fists bump, uncle Benj and I were very close, we're more like bestfriends before. As I came in to his apartment, there are few tattooed and muscular guys on his place, playing gambling. Smokes are everywhere and deadly weapons are there. 

"uncle Benj, I thought you already stop this" i whispered to him.

"cant help it, this is what kills my boredom" he said as he pat my back and came to his friends. He light his cigarette and start drinking. Loud music filled the place and with prostitutes too. 

I tried to call Athena, but her phone only keeps on ringing. So I hang up and went to a quiet room. Unfortunately I came in a wrong room. The place was filled with papers, weeds and deadly weapons, this includes guns and more, but what really catches my attention was a photo on the wall where it was circled in red marker. Someone came up with my mind, and it resembles everything, my eyes widened when I guess who it was, this was the guy Athena mention with me, the guy named jax. 

-End of Chapter 3-