Alex0024

"I don't want to love you anymore"

It's true.

I'm tired of loving him.

But I was held by an invisible chain, binding me into this inescapable world.

I tried to leave and ended up killing myself.

By the time I lost my breath, I will breathe another one.

A new life again, and again and again.

Like a broken stereo that's been repeating the same old song.

I wanted to die peacefully this time.

And I don't wanna love him anymore.

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It's a new reincarnation story and is also inspired towards the drama "Extraordinarily you" which I extremely love.

Anyways, I really hope that you would like it all. All names, places and events are fiction and forgive me for my lack of English skills. I'm not fluent in that language and I hope you can understand, thank you.

Please enjoy reading!

Red Strings (RS)

"Happy fifth anniversary" I silently murmured into the cold, lonely place.


Looking at the words that were placed in the wall, I couldn't help but roll my eyes at the celebratory designs plastered in the room. I look at the table and take all the cold dishes that we're exquisitely made just for him and throw it into the trash can.


Those fake feelings deserve to be in the trash, just like him.


I died again, for the hundred and forty ninth time.


My memories from the earliest times I was born was vague and my last life all I could remember was just me laying there in my own pool of blood. As the night turn deeper and the wind lulling me to sleep, I close my eyes for the forty ninth time and died.


Everytime I go back into the past, it would always be in our fifth anniversary. I didn't know why but I didn't ask anymore.


I'm tired of asking questions that won't be answered.


Taking off my red plunge dress, I wore a white oversized sweater and some baggy sweat pants. I knew that he won't be coming home since he was busy with his job and he have someone along with the name of Shaoyan accompanying him.


I took my wallet with me, thinking that another night with MC Donald's would happen when a sudden sound of the door bell ringing brought me back.


"Just a second!" I shouted as I hurriedly put on my slippers.


I was always alone in this day and would always go to some fast food restaurant to eat. I don't want to be alone in this suffocating house.


I'm now in front of the door, my hands trembling and my mind in a daze.


I woke up from my daze and opened up the door with trembling hands until I saw a familiar eyes.


Now that I've already resolved on living plainly without any hope to be unshackled by their chains, this happens.


Why now that I've given up and not when I'm still fighting?


Chapter 3