As I look at Nai Nai's gentle gaze, I finally found some courage to talk.
Maybe I could finally tell her that I want to divorce An Yi Wei.
"Nai nai I-"
I stopped, it's this feeling again.
This feeling of my body being controlled, my mouth was numb and my head was tingling.
"Nai nai, it's fine, he's just-"
"Tell me" with her soothing voice, I was compelled to say the words I knew that I don't really want to say.
"He's always away"
It's fine for me if he's away, it's much better in my situation but the script needs it.
I really can't do anything.
"My dear, I'm sorry for that. Don't worry, I'll teach that brat a lesson the moment I see him!"
She was fearless, and I wanted her words to be different. I wanted Nai nai to teach that man a lesson, and tell him that we should separate and that she'll let me be free of him.
Of this world.
"Nai nai" I sighed and looked at her before continuing "I know Nai nai treats me the best" I smiled but my gaze was empty.
It's gone.
I can finally control myself again, but even if I can control myself now, the damage has been done.
I can't tell her.
It's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't.
"Now, tell me, how's your life?"
With her words, I was encourage to tell her a lot of things. From the places that I visited in my past lives, to the food that I ate and the reason I came here.
"Is that so, you want to work?"
I nodded at her probing glance, she smiled at me and I knew that she's thinking about it.
The two of us finished our talk and lunch came pretty soon, now I see myself eating with the An family.
"Caia, how are you?"
"I'm fine father"
A lot of greetings were passed and some questions probing about my life which I answered calmly. Soon, I felt that the atmosphere had become comfortable and I immediately sought the chance to ask them.
"Mother?"
She was about to drink when I called. She looked at me and smiled, implying for me to continue.
"I was wondering... if I could work?"
Father in law looked at me with his eagle like eyes, in the past my back would have sweated in fear but now I can look at him without fear.
That's just some advantages when seeing your in laws for the last hundred lives, it's all the same.
"Of course you can!" He said with a smile, he's always like that.
Father An is a good man, in fact all of them are good. I couldn't say a lot of bad things to them since I know that we're all just trying to survive in this world, though I'm the only one who is aware of it.
I know that their family treats me well unlike other family, but it doesn't mean that they treated me as their real daughter.
I know I'm just their son's wife.
And I hated that.