Chapter Thirty-Three

It was the day before the guys were moving to the trainee dorms and most of their stuff that they were bringing was already there and you could feel the nerves in the room being really high as they were one step closer to achieving their dreams. We spent the day together playing games and having a picnic outside at the park laughing and taking photos and enjoying the day. We got ice cream and went out to dinner to celebrate. At the end of the night nobody wanted to go to their rooms, so we all got our mats, pillows, and blankets and made a circle to sleep in, but it ended up being us talking. "Are you guys scared or worried?" I ask breaking the silence. "I am worried I will not be good enough" Hong Joong said almost sounding like he was going to cry. I was in between San and Yunho. "Hang on you guys I will be back. I say getting up going to my room and grabbing the scrapbook I was working on even though it was not complete yet. It was not too late yet so it should be fine to stay up a little while longer. I also grabbed all the supplies I needed to finish it including the rest of the photos. Coming in the living room my arms full the youngest and Hwa take it upon themselves to help me with the supplies and put them down all eyeing the big book in my hands. "What is that?" they ask me. "Close your eyes and no peeking and I will show you after you all sit up." I say and they all comply, and I place it right in the middle but in front of Hong Joong. "So, it isn't finished yet and I figured that since you guys are feeling super nervous right now and I need help with it that you guys might want to help. Hopefully. Okay open your eyes" I say, and they all do immediately look at the book. The front said, "8 makes one team but plus one makes a family" Some of the boys start tearing up immediately. There is also a photo of all of us on the first outing we went to together. Hong Joong opens to the first page and it's a time line of our friendships and outings including selfies of everyone and everyone doing random things including Hong Joong working on stuff in his studio, Yeosang doing different things including some from his birthday, Seonghwa cooking and cleaning, Jongho breaking fruits and singing, Wooyoung and San being their destructive selves, Yunho and Mingi dancing. Me and San dancing, photos they had taken of me while I was being tickled, all the photos I have taken over the collection of our friendship, I just needed to put the ones from the trip to Busan in there. Seonghwa grabs the rest of the photos "There are so many extra pages why?" he asks me. "Because this is only the beginning of our journey. I even got one for you guys to make for me when you leave so it will be like we never got separated." I said tearing up a bit thinking about them leaving me tomorrow. I laugh a little "I was trying to be strong for you guys and here I am crying." They all engulf me in a hug. "We will never be too far away for you Hirami" Everyone says. "I wipe my face with tissue, and we get to work on the book. San looked surprised with the book maybe he will talk to me. When we have finished putting the book together with what we have we all sit and look at it. It is not a big book but there is room for more. "don't forget me when you are all famous and stuff okay?" I said sniffling at them. "Sweet girl we could never forget you" Hwa said hugging me. "But you will have to take care of yourself now and that means no skipping meals and pick up my calls if you are not in school. He sternly says to me. I of course agree to his rules knowing I am cared for so much by all of them really does make me feel so warm and loved. I really want to talk to San, but he has been avoiding me for some time now. They leave tomorrow hopefully he will say something. I keep looking up at him catching eye contact with him once and he looked like he wanted to say something, but he quickly looked away. After we got done with the book and talking a bit everyone was feeling better, we laid down for sleep. "hey you guys?" I ask and everyone says" yes?" "would you sing me to sleep?" I ask and it makes Hong Joong laugh and they all even San sing me to sleep with a smile on my face.

The next morning, I wake up before everyone else making breakfast again since they are leaving by noon. It just so happened that San was the next one awake. "hey" I said to him smiling hoping it would prompt him to talk to me "hey" he says back. "I am going to miss you all including you." I say finishing up breakfast. "yea" he says sadly looking down. After I get the food done, I go and wake up everyone though I feel like crying because of San and me. Everyone eats and gets showers and gets their stuff ready to go and I go to my room and grab the letter and photos I made just for San, I had thought we would still be friends by now but maybe the letter will make him talk to me. I quickly sneak by slipping the envelope and photos in Sans bag and wait for them all by the door. They all look so sad about leaving me. Holding back my own tears "I am only a phone call and a not so long ride away. You can call me anytime day or night okay? I believe in you all and cannot wait to see you on your debut day! FIGHTING" I say making finger hearts at them as we all hug goodbyes some of them sniffling. After they leave, I sink against the door crying because I am all alone in this big apartment and I know it is for the better for them but I am going to miss my family.

San POV

After we get the tour of the building and get our dorm which is big, we get a chance to unpack and have a relaxed first day. I am sharing a room with Yeosang and as I am unpacking an envelope and photos fall out of my bag. Weird I do not remember putting that there. I open it up start to read.

Dear Sannie,

I do not know why things have been weird with us. You are my best friend right next to Yunho. You make even the worst days bright for me like a ray of sunshine peeking through the littles crack of a dark room. When I woke up in the hospital right after the stuff with my uncle you were the one I first saw and you made me feel so safe and cared for right off the bat with your adorable dimpled smile that makes my heart flutter every time I see it. I have not been seeing it as of late which makes me sad. I am hoping that it is because you are nervous about becoming an idol trainee. I really do believe in you all. I know that if you guys put in even half the patience and effort you all put in with me that you all will make it. I have no doubt one day that we will be seeing you guys all over the world. No matter what I am always here for you. Forever and always yours.

Rami <3

P.S. this means you must stop ignoring me after you see the photos and the surprise.

I laugh at the last bit of course Rami would be so silly. I look at the photos and it's the ones we took at the park where I kissed her cheek and she was smiling brightly with her cheeks flushed and the other ones we took where we were being silly then behind the note was a piece of paper as I looked at it I was amazed at the detail. I smile at them such detail in the drawing of me, it was the day we were in the park my eyes were closed and I was smiling, this must be what she wouldn't let me see. I think I am in love with her. One day if she will have me, I will show her how much I love her. We just need to be patient Rami, and I promise I will stop ignoring you.

End of San POV