“Yes doctor.”

I blew the car horn and saw Rita came out to open the gate for me to drive in. I parked my car and went in the house with Rita.

I came in and asked Rita about Nadia.

"She has slept without eating her dinner."- she replied.

"Why? I have always forbade you not to send her to sleep without eating."- I told her in scolding kind of way while taking out my shoes.

"I told her but she said she'll eat only after her mom comes because she wanted to show you something."

"Ah! Stubborn!"- with this word we two entered into the kitchen.

I sat on a chair and started to took off my socks.

"Mommy!"- I heard Nadia and I looked up to the 2nd door of the kitchen. There I found Nadia was peering behind the door.

"Found you!"- I said this and she came to me running from behind the kitchen door.

"How was your day darling?"- I asked her after I took her on my lap.

"Ask her later. At first, go and get fresh and I'm serving the dinner."- Rita told me right after taking something out from the fridge.

"Well I'm coming back in some minutes."- I put her down from my lap and stood up.

While going towards my room I asked to Nadia,

"By the way, why did you fall asleep without eating?"

"I didn't fall asleep. I was waiting for you to come by lying on bed. "- when she said that, I smiled at her and went out from the room.

"Maybe you were excited to tell me something when I called you."- I took a sip on my soup glass and asked this to Nadia.

"Oh! Yea, wait."- after this word she climbed down from the dining table and ran out from the kitchen.

"Hey! Wait! Where are you going?"- I asked her but she didn't listen to my question.

"What she want to do?"- I asked Rita but she just shrugged to me.

After two minutes I saw Nadia came back to the kitchen with a piece of paper. She handed me the paper and told me to open it. And I did what she said.

I saw she had drawn us. Us meant me, Nadia and Rita. I also saw a big star under her drawing.

"You got a star on this drawing, honey?"- I asked her excitedly and she nodded shyly. I smiled and bent down to her to place a kiss on her forehead.

"Well I got something to show you two as well."- I said with a smile and then brought out the brooch from my pocket.

"WOW!"- I heard them two saying this. I gave this to Nadia and she placed it on her cotton frock.

"You're looking more beautiful on you."- I said this and both of them smiled.

After dinner, Nadia went to sleep. I helped Rita to get ready to go home. Then I started to replace the plates from the dish washer to the racks. I washed up all large dishes which were not gonna fit in the washer and put them all in their places. I saw the bottom side of my dress got wet while washing those dishes.

"Shit!"- the wet part of my dress touched my skin which made me shiver a little. I went to my room and changed my wet dress. I put the wet dress in a bucket of my bathroom.

Then I took a can of beer and headed to my room. I sat on my bed with my files and started checking them for the last time.

Suddenly, I found my phone started ringing. I answered the call quickly.

"Yes doctor."

"Sorry for calling you on this time Hannah."- doctor said to me very quickly and that made me feel a little nervous.

"No doctor, it's okay. By the way any problem?"

"Yea. Actually, the MRI tells that your daughter's brain tumor has recurred again. Please come one day in this week."- while she was talking, I got lost in my thoughts for a while.

'While being in this little time good moments I forgot that my baby had a brain tumor. Dr. Sharon was the in charge of the operation and the remedial group. After the operation, Dr. Sharon gave me a hope that it might won't recurred again. But she did a MRI scan last week and then…'

"Hello? Hannah? Are you there?"- I didn't listen further what my doctor said to me because I was so lost in thoughts.

"Yes doctor."

"I can understand, Hannah. It's really tough for a mother to…. I can understand."- she didn't say further but I did understand what she wanted to say. So I didn't say anything as well.

"Well have a good night."

"You too doctor."- I cut the call and put my face in plums.

After sometimes, I stood up and head to Nadia's room. I really wanted to see her at this moment.

I opened the door of her room and saw she was sleeping but, with a rubic cube in her hand and specs on her eyes as well. That means she was solving rubic cube before sleeping. I smiled and went closer to her. I took her specs out and placed it on table. But when I went to take the rubic cube out of her hand, then it reminded me of someone else. Someone used to solve rubic cubes before sleeping as well. I felt bad and didn't take the cube from her hand. After that I came back to my room.

I opened my slippers and slid myself in the bed with my side pillow. I opened the fold of the bed sheet and covered my whole body with it. I took out my hand from the bed sheet and turned off the light. Then I fell down into a deep thought in the darkness. Some sprinkles of thoughts were coming all over my mind about me and a man that I used to love before. Before?

….