Chapter 18

A couple of weeks have passed since the incident happened at my school, and I can't stop having these nightmares. End on end I dream of the pain that I had caused to people at the school, I was a growing monster. Something that should be kept in the dark. I even started ignoring my family, any meal, even Lucas. I couldn't forgive myself for what I had done.

I'm the one that was always blamed for peoples problems and I see why now, I can see the true me, I am a monster that almost killed one of my classmates for just screaming in my ear, I mean she shouldn't have done it but it was wrong of me to act that way.

I even question why I was brought onto this earth, I am different from the rest, and show signs of being a dangerous creature. Nobody believes in aliens but people do believe in the existence of Half-Animals. Some people have claimed they had seen one or even helped them.

My psychiatrist even mentioned that I have signs of being a half-animal, but how could that be. How can an animal be infused with a human? I've learned from one of their books that if the animal's symbiotic enters the human body the human would die immediately because it can't handle all of the power that it holds. So even if I had a chance of having an animal form, why would it choose me out of all of the better people in this world, why was it making me hurt these people.

I slowly get out of my bed and hed to my desk where all of my art supplies had been, I had relied on my art skills whenever I was having a rough day at school, which was every day. I opened one of the drawers and grabbed my journal, I usually wrote all of my thoughts down in here. I'm a person who feels a lot of emotions and I have a lot to me, so I'm hard to deal with, or as some people say that to me.

I flipped through the pages looking at the essays of me talking about a lot of the bullying that had started ever since I had started school. I never knew why I had been bullied so early, but I guess I understand now. Some tears had fallen from my eyes, I never wanted this. I guess I deserved it, I mean I never tried to stop the bullying either. Lucas was always there for me, of course, he had to help a teacher at that exact moment.

My eyes went wide when I stopped at an empty page, or what should have been an empty page. There were words written in the journal, but it wasn't English. I've seen this language before, it's one of the hardest languages to comprehend, and I've never got the chance to study different languages either.

I didn't notice that I had screamed from the sudden message as I saw my parents rush in, I quickly scooted away from them, I didn't want to accidentally hurt them as I had done to everyone else.

They looked over in my direction as I had pointed over to my journal, they looked shocked. " Have you changed your handwriting, this doesn't look like yours." my dad had spoken down to me, I quickly shook my head no. something was making me go crazy, and those words had to be in its language.

My parents saw how terrified I was, as I was visibly shaking in the corner. My mother had kneeled in front of me in an attempt to calm me down, the same thing happened right now that happened in school as well, something clicked in me. My nails extended as I had scratched at her pretty bad. My dad was trying to look up what this language was as well, a part of me felt rage as I punched him, I never spoke but words had come out.

"You Humans are not worthy of understanding our language!"

I couldn't control myself, but my body was still moving. I was violently shaking my father before scratching him up pretty bad as well. Both of my parents were crying out in pain, I heard sirens so they must've called the cops on the situation. I quickly reacted as I grabbed my journal since it would be counted as evidence.

I braced myself as I jumped through my window and into the forest, I kept running and I never looked back. I thought I had forgotten my phone but it was just in my back pocket at the time.

I stumbled upon a river not too far away as I quickly made my way to it, at this point I couldn't hear the police sirens anymore. I looked at my reflection, I looked disgusting. I had starved myself for so long and I made myself look so dead, suddenly the water started to turn into rapids for a while until it stopped, I looked down once more but I didn't see myself. I saw an animal, something that looked distressed and looked like it didn't want any of this either.

I could hear it softly speaking to me, but I could hear the animal perfectly.

"We are one, for this to stop we need to learn how to control ourselves, I need to take the form to your body so I can control myself."

I immediately shook my head, I have to be dreaming right? Why would I ever just let an animal I don't know just take control of me? I don't even know how that process works.

I didn't know what to do anymore. I took out my journal and opened up to the page that had the different language in it, I hovered it over the river to show the animal before speaking up.

"Did you write this? What language is this? And what does it say?"

The animal looked closely at the journal and nodded at me, confirming that it was indeed her handwriting, what is this animal? how can it speak most of all how can it understand me?

"This is the language us half-animals use to communicate with one another unless we are speaking. We chose the Arabic language because it is one of the hardest languages to comprehend. It read we are one, I am the inheritance of the true king, Okami. He is the animal who had saved our kind back then." The animal had softly spoken to me, she didn't seem vicious at all, then what was the thing that was making me attack people.

All of this didn't make sense to me, not one bit. I decided to call up Lucas because he knew more about the half animal kind than I did.

The phone had rung a total of 3 times before he had picked up the phone, and even when he was in there was silence.

"Maya, where have you been? Why have you been ignoring me? Where are you right now?... Maya?"

Lucas was calling for me but I felt weak, maybe all of this pain I was feeling was finally coming to me. I simply mumbled that I was in the forest behind my house, after that everything around me turned black as I collapsed to the ground.