Waiting on the next death...

I woke up startled as I was lying in someone's arms, last nights recurrences hit me and then I seen his face, it put me at ease. It made me smile-the way he looked so peaceful. I didn't want to wake him up so I slowly got up and went to look for a bathroom.

When I got back he was gone I felt a little down not seeing him sleeping. I just wanted to get one last peek of it, the way his eyelashes fluttered a little in his sleep or the black curls of hair coming down on his face. It's not that he wasn't attractive he was, it's just he was such a cold person and I guess we both never really understood each other.

"Good morning" he gave me a light smile he was in the kitchen making eggs..I think.

"Morning" I say back with a smile

"So umm how'd you sleep last night"

"Well I don't really ever sleep and it's weird because I don't ever need sleep or feel tired actually, I don't know.."

"Oh, okay. You hungry ?"

"Hmm it smells so good, I'm starving actually."

"Good, come sit down and taste my famous eggs." He gave a light smirk and I laughed

"Who calls them famous though?"

"Oh I do, I feel they are because they made by me"

"Still cocky as always I see." I rolled my eyes and he chuckled

"Hey it's not cockiness, it's charm and you should be flattered I cooked for you at all."

He never made me laugh like this before. He changed a lot...I like the change but I don't like us, it's just scary and I don't want to fall.

"Hmm these eggs are good, I'll certify these eggs as famous." He held his head high.

"Hey I want a proper title giving, you need to bestow the honour of best eggs in the world on me."

"Fair enough." I looked around and found a paper towel rod, I yanked it and stood on the counter, I stared at him and blushed. I was loosing focus, I didn't like the feeling.

"Ahem, please stand on one knee." And he did I couldn't take the situation seriously we both burst out laughing. " okay okay for real this time. Ahem, I hereby dub thee, Elliot James the honour of being the best egg maker in the world, let it be known from this day on." I then took the paper towel rod and placed it on each shoulder like some cheesy knight movie I seen once.

He stood up and looked me in the eyes, he was close too close. His yellow green eyes looked into mines, the air was thick and this time it didn't feel like it was thick because of awkwardness. We stood in silence until he cleared his throat and moved away.

"I umm am going to have a shower, where are  we going today again?"

"First to my place I kinda need clothes you see and the woods we need to look for clues and maybe if the girl really did die there."

"Oh yea clothes, you know you might be needing a few clothes to bring here."

His words shocked me, why would I need clothes at his house?

"Why?"

"We need to see what's going on and I don't know if you will be okay on your own so yea."

My heart melted, he actually cares about me.

"Oh okay yea."

He gets out of the shower and I can't take my eyes off him he doesn't notice me as he slips away into the bedroom. God dammit I'm red in my face again, I can feel it but I can't help it.

He slips on a T-shirt and comes out. He stares at me with sympathy.

"Shall we go?" I ask

"Yea."

So we left. I had this weird feeling but I couldn't say really what it was I just ignored it and eventually it died down. I had so much going on and everything was so overwhelming for me but him being here really made a difference.we didn't say much in the car, I wondered why.

"Are you okay?" I asked

"Yea I am." And he gave me a small don't worry about me smile, it worried me more. We stopped past my house and I took a shower when I realised how bad I needed one, he waited for me in the lounge, I was hoping he doesn't snoop around it makes me anxious just thinking about it. I looked around the bathroom and took my bare essentials. I got into my room and was about to remove my towel, I looked in the mirror and he was sitting on my bed! I was shocked and jumped. "Umm I umm why are you in here?"

"I just wandered here I guess." He shrugged his shoulders like it was nothing.

"Well could you please go out into the hall so I can change."

"Oh please Mia, it's not like I haven't seen you before." He smirked and again I went red and looked at my feet

"But that was a long time ago and you need your space I suppose, I'll leave."

"Thank you." I let out a breath that I didn't even know I was keeping. Why was he acting like that it annoyed me but I brushed it aside.

I changed into something simple and dumped some clothes in a bag with other stuff I might need and we got in the car.

He was cold again and it confused me, I honestly thought he might be bipolar at this point. I wanted to ask what's wrong but I was scared, so I decided to at least make conversation of some sort.

"What do you think we will find in the woods?"

"Oh I don't know a dead body perhaps?"

"Yea I know that I just mean like what exactly as In what clues."

"How do you expect me to know that Mia."

His tone was so hurtful, it sort of pissed me off and I hadto ask what was wrong, deep breath in. Here goes...

"What is your problem? Because I clearly remember doing nothing to hurt you!"

"Ha, you did nothing. I lost the love of my life Mia don't think that's just swept under the rug! I'm hurting okay, I look like I'm fine but I'm not I need to find out what's going on what really happened to Jane."

He began tearing up, it broke me and for some selfish reason I had a pain in my chest when he called her the love of his life but he is right he loved her, he was about to marry her, I abrupted their marriage, their whole life together. I began to cry too.

How could I be so selfish? Thinking everything's about me, he doesn't believe I didn't do it because he can't fathom any of it, Jane actually being gone. His cold because his hurting inside and well I'm not even taking him into consideration.

We arrived at the woods and he continued driving slowly until we seen something...

We got out of the car and it was her. My heart broke into a million pieces, she's lying there just the way I saw her. She was so beautiful. She must've had so much plans left in her life, everything ripped away from her forever just like Jane.

"Look her throat is cut open just like I saw it."

"Huh, what are you talking about Mia?"

"Her throat."

"No Mia her head is injured she must've fell hard and look at this rock full of blood she must've hit it."

"What no what do you mean that's not how she died I seen it happen! I seen how she died I swear!"

"But it doesn't make sense Mia because look at it."

I didn't understand it how could he not see what I could. I needed him to believe me and he isn't.

"Look for clues, do you see anything around?"

I began to search but there was nothing no footprints no trace of anything it's like the thing that killed her...was not human.

"See anything?"

"No"

He looked disappointed like he really had hope.it really broke me, everything that happened today.

The drive home was depressing and dull. It didn't make sense, her death.

"What now?"

"Well we go to the next death you dream of."

"But I dream of a lot."

"The first one you see, we will go right there, right then."

"Okay."

When we arrived I took my bags and headed to the bathroom, I needed to wash my face and just breath. He knocked on the door.

"Umm occupied."

"Yea I know that we literally the only two people in this house."

Oh yea I smacked my forehead I couldn't be so dumb.

"I'll be out in just a second."

"No I just wanted to say I'm ..."

"You're what?"

It sounded like he wanted to apologise but I wouldn't believe he'd do that

"I umm." He cleared his throat and his voice sounded deep and cold again

"I'm going to buy takeout , I'll be back in 20 minutes."

"Oh ok."

I felt disappointed for him acting this way but now that I knew the reason I couldn't blame him he lost Jane, if I lost my fiancé I would've been the same, to be honest I feel like his taking this quite well and I'm proud of Him for doing so.

He took really long and I was getting tired. I was hungry and how could I not be I hadn't eaten anything since this morning when he made those good eggs. I began digging around in the pantry and found some ready-made mac and cheese that just had to be put into hot water, I boiled it and added whatever the instructions told me to and laughed as I pretended I was in a miniature cooking show I know it's immature of me but I am childish in many ways , "who wants to grow up anyway?" I always tell myself to justify my actions.

I sat on the couch watched some tv and ate my mac and cheese and before I knew it I was out like a light.