Chapter III : "Point of View: Jim"

Jim's POV

I was walking to the writers room and suddenly

*bumps*

"I'm so sorry miss, are you o---"

As I gaze upon her beautiful green eyes my heart starts to pump much faster. I don't know why I am feeling this such things. Her Lips are like cherry blossoms, so soft that I want to kiss. What is wrong with me?

"Jim Auditions are starting" Amanda pulled me in the room

As I am far from her inch by inch, her image is sketching through my brain. As the auditions went by I can't stop thinking about her. It was like I am cursed, trapped in cage that the only way to escape is to get her out of my head. A lot of people that auditioned are real good but I cant focus enough because of the lady, the lady that made me distracted throughout the 3 hours of auditions.

In some point I cant think straight and got frustrated of myself. I stood up told Chuck to let them all finish the audition and whomever they pic, I would be ok with it. As I start to turn back, there is this scent and aura that made me look in front again. And there I see the beautiful lady who has been stuck in my head throughout the audition. The one who cursed me and trapped me in the cage, that the only way to escape is to get rid of her.

I don't know why I am feeling this. She began talking about her name and what is she. Her voice has a tone of a princess, so pure and so gentle. And her hair is shiny as the stars twinkle in the night sky, her curly Waves is like an Ocean wave pulling my head around her.

Why Am I like this, and why is my heart beating faster like a race car. As she finished her screen test, she immediately said goodbye and walked out the room. I begin to gain my consciousness back to the real world.

"So Jim, who do you think will be the potential lover of Sheldon?" Chuck asked

"I want Mayim Bialik to play the role" I answered

"So Mayim Bialik it is" Chuck replied

I got off my chair and head out to my dressing room, having a big smile in my face. I don't know why I am feeling like this. But all I know is that is new for me, and never felt it in my 30 years of existence. Is this what they call love? Is this what Love supposed to feel like?

A Few days had passed by and I still cant stop thinking about her. Then its finally Sunday night, when I got to sleep, she appeared again. In my dreams, and watching her beside me in my dreams, made me more and more eager to see her. Then its finally Monday, I got off to bed frustrated because my alarm clock rang at the wrong moment. I took a shower still feeling good because of the last episode and I get to see her again. Got off shower, dried myself off, and enter my Walk in Closet, picked out a nice outfit for the day and then got out my room and greeted Otis and Rufus. I pulled out my car from the garage and drove myself off to the studio.

My Day was bright. I parked my car in my Spot, then got off it. Greeted some staffs and crews along the way to my dressing room and I am 10 minutes early before the table read. As I enter my dressing room, I greeted my P.A/manager Amanda.

"Good Morning Amanda!"

"Good Morning Jim!!" she greeted back

"Is there any ocassion??" she asked

"No, theres no ocassion" I replied, with a grin in my face

"ok if you say so" she replied

She was surprised of my outfit, I got out of the dressing room and walked my way to the table read. I met Johnny and Simon along the way, they both were so surprised why Am I so dressed in such a normal work day. I sat on my seat.

Then Chuck Lorre begin to introduce the new cast members. As Mayim stood there, my world just stopped. My eyes was glue to her, I began to sweat of nervousness and I don't even know why? Then she sat in her seat across mine's. 

When the table read finished we all stood up, formed a circle and welcomed Mayim and Melissa. As I stood inches away from her, I felt like the only person I see is only her, only Mayim. I don't understand why am I feeling like this, but whenever I see her its just like my body just became lightweight and very comfortable around her. The few cast members began to introduce themselves. Then its my turn, I was so nervous but I played it cool

"Hi I am Jim, I played the role Sheldon Cooper" I said and offered my hand to her

"Hi Jim, I'm Mayim, Nice to finally meet you" she said in a very gentle tone

as our hands touched each other I felt butterflies in my stomach and at the same time I don't want to let go. Its like a moment I don't want to go on and just want to hold her hand for the rest of my life. Then I began to gain consciousness as she said "Um you can let go now". I was so embarrassed and laughed awkwardly and said sorry. Then the guys became sketchy about how I acts towards Mayim, but still denied all theories they said.  I don't know why I felt like this, all I know is that this feeling is new to me and cant explain why is this happening to me, and don't know how to fix this. As the rehearsals finished I immediately go home and schedule for an appointment to Dr. Hanover (My Psychiatrist).