Kenma and Kei

I feel cold. Not only with Kenma's cold stare. But to the fact that someone other than me put a mark on my Kenma, making me shiver with madness. It looks new as if it's just happened a moment ago before I came here. His wet hair seems like proof that he did something with someone and it feels like hell when I saw him act like it was nothing.

Who is it? Do I know him too? Is it someone he met at work? Another youtuber who has their eyes on him? Who the fuck is it?!

Those questions clouded my mind, making me wants to go berserk. Just the thought of some faceless guy embracing my Kenma is driving me insane.

"Who is it? Who fu- Put a mark on you?!" I asked trying not to raise my voice but Kenma just smirked at me with a blank look on his face before shoving my hands from holding him.

"Why? Is it painful? Does it make you want to kill the other person who dared to mark what's yours? Does it feel like hell?" His cold voice didn't bother me that much, but his golden cat-like eyes that shows no remorse while looking at me. It's chilling me up to my bones.

This is not the Kenma I know. Since that night that he held me captive and made me experience heaven and hell, I couldn't recognize him anymore. Or maybe I'm just so damn stupid and made him someone unrecognizable.

I'm used to his coldness, that's how he has been since back then. Kenma is just like a cat. There are moments that he will cling on you, and there are also moments that he doesn't want to be disturb. He's shy and withdrawn to people but so clingy when it comes to Hinata-kun.

Growing up with Kenma, I get to learn what type of person he really is. Kenma doesn't easily get excited or fired up except if it's about video games, - and Hinata-kun when they met. He dislikes pointless authority, and doesn't expect that his juniors will respect and obey him blindly like what others expect, just like what he experienced when he was in first year that almost made him quit volleyball.

He might act apathetic but he cares a lot about his friends. He never voiced out his opinion cause he's afraid to know what people will think of him. And most of all, he hates standing out that's why he ends up coloring his hair when Yamamoto told him that he's standing out more. But what I really like about him is that he never gives up on something he loves or enjoys to do. It's his perks of being a gamer and an analytical person.

I realized my feelings for Kenma when all of my previous girlfriends broke up with me because of him. They always say that they don't want to compete with Kenma anymore because for me, he will always be my priority. At first, I thought that they're ridiculous. I'm a guy and so is Kenma. But because of their accusations, I end up seeing Kenma in different way or rather say, made me realize my true feelings for him.

I didn't know I could swing both ways until I end up fucking a guy who resembles Kenma and that's the start of sleeping with random guys who resembles him to take my hands off of him. I know it's bad to use other people but what can I do? I can't just let my Id to overpower me and jump him every time I found him cute.

I told him about me being okay with guys too because of two things, one is to make him feel disgusted so I'll have a reason to avoid him. And two, to know if he will avoid my slight passes at him when he's okay to know that I swing both ways. But none of the two happened. He remained the same and on top of it all, he nonchalantly clings to me sometimes just like how a cat purring on its master. And God knows how much restrained I needed to exert for me to not push him down and fuck him 'til he passed out.

I was the one who introduced him to volleyball and the one who persuade him to be a setter by telling a lie that it's the position where you don't have to move a lot. On my last year in High school where I became the Captain of Nekoma team, whenever I hear people talk about how short and skinny Kenma is compared to us to Yaku's exception, I always brag to them how he is the 'backbone, heart and brain' of Nekoma, and of course, I make sure that I'm not all talk about it.

Then there's Kei Tsukishima.

When I first met Kei, he got me interested. He's like Kenma in a way. They both have clear vision in the court, both eat little and hates extra practices. We don't particularly get along or dislike each other. I'd rather say, I just like teasing him about his blocks, being outshined by Chibi-chan and whatnots. In short, I get to do to him what I couldn't do to Kenma because of his lack of interest.

At first, I thought that it'll be like that. Not until Kei see right through me that started our convenient relationship.