Chapter 15

I am so sick of my marriage. I am, that I wake up with no purpose and no smile on my face. It's like I am dead on the inside. I remember being in my twenties, so positive and enthusiastic about everything. The sky was really the limit for me and it still is but I just seem to have lost my purpose. Being trapped in my loveless marriage, makes me lose myself every day. Yesterday at the beach, I was thinking about everything and nothing and most importantly, the fastest way to get myself out of my marriage. And here I was in my office, lost in my thoughts again.

I started feeling pain in my lower abdomen. The doctor told me it's normal during the second trimester of pregnancy but it doesn't make the pain any less. I decided to go home so I lie down because it's not getting better even after half an hour. It was midday and Laura had gone to see her mother so I will be home all alone and I liked the idea. I parked my car in the driveway, didn't have time to put it in the garage.