Rejected eloquently

I've been sitting on the floor for I don't know how long and didn't realize tears were rolling down my cheeks. How could this happen to me? What wrong have I ever done to this world to deserve all this?

Yazz gets on her knees and hugs me tightly telling me it's going to be okay. Is that true or is she trying to comfort me? I wonder how my parents would have reacted, my dad wouldn't be so proud of me because he wanted me to become successful and a highly sophisticated woman whereas my mum always said everything happens for a reason.

"Yazz I don't know what to do, I'm scared. What is mum going to say? And Luca?"

"Tell mum because it's the right thing to do. As for Luca, it will depend on his response because at the end of the day, he's the one responsible."

I start laughing at my situation. If someone told me I would be pregnant at nineteen, I would have laughed in their face. I remember looking at girls who got pregnant at a very early age and wonder what they were thinking and the kind of situation they were in. Here I am wearing the same shoes as theirs.

As far as I'm concerned, in a country like Zambia, early age pregnancies are condemned. One thing I'm sure of is that I'm going to keep my pregnancy no matter what. I have a life in me, a little me and Luca and I'm a life giver.

Touching my tummy, I smile and this is when I'm noticing it isn't as soft as it used to be.

"Shay, I'm not going to force you to do anything. If you are not ready to tell any of them as well as Martin then I'll stand by you. Always know that I love you and care for you wholeheartedly."

"I love you more" I hug her tightly for dear life. She's my day one, my ride or die. "Let's go tell her, will you accompany me?"

"Baby, I'm going with you even to your grave" with that , we burst into fits of laughter. She stretches her hand for me to grab and wipes my tears with the other.

We are about to knock on my mum's door when we hear the television downstairs. I approach her with Yazz trailing behind and I put on my straight face but truth is I'm shivering.

Im scared to death , I don't know what she is going to say or how she'll react. We both take our seats and the black plush carpet suddenly becomes interesting. I take the time to admire everything in this living room which are all black.

"Mum" here comes the part where I play with my fingers and nails.

"Yes baby, what's wrong? You sound scared and your eyes, have you been crying?" She asks frantically. I keep on looking at her and don't know where to start from. I just can't find the right words to use.

"Shay I'm getting worried" gaining a little confidence and clearing my throat, I decide to get this over with.

"Mum I'm pregnant" she looks at me like I've grown two heads.

"Are you been serious right now?" Nodding my head while looking at the ground, my mouth opens and closes like a fish. At this point, I can't talk anymore because I might break down, I want to become young again with no care in the world.

"Awww come here my baby" she says as she hugs me like I might evaporate ino thin air. I don't hold back my tears as I sob like a little kid.

"Everything is going to be fine" she wipes my tears and lifts my chin as she looks into my eyes, her eyes becoming watery. " Oh my baby is going to have a baby. I can't wait to see my grandchild. You are going to be the best mum."

Honestly , I'm lost for words. I thought she's going to scream my name and cuss at me but here she is acting so calm looking at me lovingly.

"Im sorry mum"

"It's fine baby"

"Aren't you mad at me?" I ask greatly astounded .

"I already knew you were pregnant. You had all the symptoms. We need to concentrate on my grandchild who's on the way."

" I love you mum" we hug each other "group hug" and Yazz joins in. We laugh while crying "I'm going to be a mother" I say in disbelief.

"Who's responsible?"

Clenching my jaw to her question, I look at her " Luca, he's someone I don't want to remember"

" Why baby? He needs to know"

"It was a one night stand and like I said, I don't want to talk about him please"

"Are you sure you are going to be fine doing this without your baby daddy?"

"I can do it without him, all I need is your support and everything will be fine." I look at Yazz and she starts laughing making me wonder why she's laughing.

"Im going to spoil my godchild. Just wait and see, I can't wait for that little munchkin, so when are you going to see a gynaecologist?"

"I'll call Coptic Hospital to set up an appointment for Monday morning and I'll ask for some time from work but go bath for the rest of the day. Do you guys want to come with me?"

"We wouldn't miss it for the world" they both say at the same time.

We talk about random stuff, after been bothered by the two women I love, I decide to prepare myself for my night out with Martin. That reminds me, I have to tell him about my pregnancy.

"Mum, I'll be going to work with Martin to catch up and" I'm cut mid sentence by Yazz.

" Giiirrrrrl how can you not tell me? I'm also coming whether you like it or not."

" You are free to come your majesty" I joke as I bow and we both laugh like crazy maniacs.

"I'm fine with you going out as long as you don't drink alcohol and take care of my little baby. I might as well go out and have some fun."

"Ooooooooh mummy has a boyfriend" Yazz and I sing to her while wiggling our eyebrows. She just shakes her head laughing and walks away . Minutes later, Yazz and I go to my room to prepare ourselves. I put on grey male sweats and a black hoodie because they are so comfortable, especially with my pregnancy.

An hour later, we are in Yazz's car waiting for Martin to arrive so we can go in together. Five minutes later, he texts telling us to meet him at the entrance. We get down and double check everything before making our way to the entrance and we see him in his sexy casual attire. I run and jump on his back hugging his neck.

"Baby you are going to choke me to death." He says as he pretends to be getting choked. I get down and hug him properly.

"How's my little sister been?"

"I've been good thanks"

He hugs Yazz and we all get inside and find ourselves a table. The lights are so amazing, the music is buzzing and there are a lot of people today. I look around and see Luca in shorts and a t-shirt with sneakers. Never in a million years did I think I would see him dressed like that, I'm used to seeing him in his suits all the time. I tell Yazz I've decided to tell him the news and excuse myself.

As I'm walking towards him, I see a skinny blonde lady walk up to him and they hug as they share a lingering kiss on the lips.

"Mr Castillo, can I have a minute of your time?" He looks me up and down clenching his jaw.

" You don't even deserve a millisecond of my time" he says and starts sucking blondies neck while looking at me.

"Please hear me out" the blonde turns to look at me with a sinister smirk. " Didn't she hear a word you said or is she just a vapid girl?" I stand there speechless.

"Are you deaf or do you want me to kick you out?" He seethes with anger.

" Am sorry for disturbing you" I apologise but both of them scoff at me. I turn on my heels going back to our table putting on a fake smile.

"Baby how did it go?" Yazz asks. I shake my head at her and turn to look at Martin.

" Bro" Martin looks at me with concern "I'm pregnant"

He stands up from his seat and twirls me around with so much excitement while laughing causing everyone to look at us.

"Martin put her down , you are going to hurt her." Yazz says getting all protective and we settle down making people turn back to whatever they were doing.

After several drinks and celebrations, we decide to leave not before ordering some food because I'm hungry. The night goes on with us chatting, laughing, singing, dancing and as for me it's more of food. Thinking back, especially about these two friends. They are amazing, unique and I would never trade them for anything.

I have a feeling everything will be okay even without Luca. These are the days to never forget and regret. They are memories we've made together with all sorts of emotions, tears and joy.

These are my day ones, ride or dies, partners in crime and they will always hold a special place in my heart. One thing I'm certain is I will protect my unborn baby with every blood in my veins, with all the tissues in my body even if it means me protecting the baby from his/her father and his whores .