Bruised

I have read books and stories about how I feel.

I want to know that there is something wrong with me.

I want to be stuck in between life and death it seems.

I want to lose sight but not completely.

I want to get beaten so badly

I should bruise and I should bleed.

Time should stop and I shall see.

Shoot me once and shoot me twice,

I want to hear my screams

Louder than reality, louder than any fantasy.

Don't kill me please.

I don't want to see the eyes that left me free.

The consequences of what I believed.

Leave me in a time of need.

Leave me be so I can breath without being under six feet.

Break every bone you feel.

I want to get beaten so badly,

My vision should get blurry.

Oh lord! Don't let me see,

There is nothing left for me.

Cut me twice and cut me thrice

Let everyone know how it can be.

I want to feel weak.

I want the ones with rage to be at peace.

I want the time to lose the speed.

I want my voice to mute my heart beat.