I need to think

I'm already in the living room. I'm processing what happened with Cecilia's brother, I have no head. The worst thing is that my friend was with my ex and I saw it in HD, 3D, and live. I'm sure they'll give me an explanation. Diego approaches and tells me:

-Are you okay? - He says worriedly

Wait, do I look that bad?

-No, the truth not - I say without thinking

-Why did, what happen? Insists

So cute, but I don't want to tell you the truth

-My sister called me saying that she is very ill, it seems that she has disliked eating something from the street so she told me and you know if she has something and if she is ill, I get very bad.

Well, it is the truth but that she is not ill, but I do not want to hear and know that my friend is at home with my ex, also her brother. I need to go home to think. Being here makes me nervous, angry, and confused. If I stay, I think I will do nonsense.

-I'm very sorry and why don't you go home? - She says

- My cousin will come to pick me up but it will take time - I say

-And if I take you? - He says worriedly

- Okay- I mumble

Without having anything ashamed and without being able to hide it, my suffering begins through my eyes, falling drops, thin threads of tears as if I were shedding blood, for such suffering that I feel. Hugs me. I need it. I want to vent to someone, but not to him. The boys, seeing my state of vulnerability that I have, immediately come to me worried. Diego tells them and they are very sorry that my sister is sick and they ask me to calm down, but she is not my sister, she is my friend. Santiago offers me water. They will be heavy with me, but when I am sad they are always there with me as I am with them. Once they told me that they don't like to see me sad and I am surprised by such confection. I always give them help, advice, and encouragement as Mom says so they do not derail. I always let them know that I don't like their immature behavior at all, they laugh to make it clear. They always tell me all their things, with hair and details, and sometimes I think like them. They are my friends but sometimes they don't deserve to be called that. I think I overdo it, but they must realize that I am not just any friend and treating me as I deserve.

-Let's go? - says Diego

-Yes, come on - I say

But when I open I see my friend with Falabella bags, very radiant and with a smile from ear to ear. I'm super stunned but how is it here? Only ten minutes passed. Confused seeing me, he immediately throws the bags on the floor and hugs me. She accepted them, I need her. Then I let go of her and explain that I have to go home to see my sister. I lie. She hugs me but doesn't quite believe what I say. You know me so well but now I won't tell the truth, just for now. He gestures to me when I get on the linear motorcycle with Diego and I see myself forced to touch his marked abdomen and smell his delicious perfume, everyone knows that Diego likes me and they do everything possible so that he is with him but I don and more now. The fact that I met my friend's brother left me intrigued, restless, and speechless. I feel frustrated just thinking about it. Get home. Diego insists on accompanying me to the third floor. In the end, I win. I always get my way. For now. He starts caressing the oval of my face, attaching his forehead to mine and he tells me:

-I'm really sorry, I don't like to see you sad, my heart breaks ... you know I would like to get a beautiful smile from your lips- he murmurs

- You don't need to apologize; you haven't done anything wrong, have you? - He raised an eyebrow. I continue: you know I thank you with all my heart for caring about me and for bringing me to my house.

- I love you very much, you know it and I would do everything possible to make it good and never see you sad or hurt. He says

Waouh! How beautiful but I don't want to have anything with him, how do I make him understand it? And telling him it is difficult for me, I would not like to be in his place of not being reciprocated. It hurts.

He hugs me and we look into each other's eyes very closely. Whoosh! He steals a kiss from me. I accept it and the strangest thing is that I think of Ceci's brother, but what is wrong with me or what is he doing to me? After being aware I withdraw. Pulling his body away from mine.

-Sorry ... sorry ... sorry - I stutter

- Why? - He says surprised

- For kissing you ... I didn't want to, I don't want you to get confused, I don't want anything with you and I don't want to hurt you, you know? I do not reciprocate and the good of all is that I love you but as friends, I would not like to be more than friends, I do not want it and ... forgive me. I feel relieved but bad at the same time with myself for saying what I didn't mean.

- Do you know something? I do not care, I will not give up and I think I already took a big step with you, even if you do not believe me, I will continue until you are a girlfriend and thank you for allowing me a kiss from you - he says

Waouh if he is in love with me, but what I told him took a long time and I won't say anything else.

I smile

After the confessions we said goodbye. My cell phone is bursting in my wallet I don't feel like answering. Upon entering my house, my sister lets me know to arrive at six-fifty. My Chester puppy starts barking like crazy and very excited when he sees me. I bend over, I caress him, I get licks, drool, and above all a lot of love and affection. My sister Valeria informs me that mom will be late and my dad will work until the next day. I'm tired. My sister does not even know that she is ill. Valeria looks at me and doesn't stop looking at me. I decide to go to my room. I need to take a bath, if Valeria is here in the middle of this disorder it will give her vertigo, so I decide to order. Valeria comes over and says:

-Sister, I feel very bad, you can prepare dinner - He says and laughs.

Well, I think you already found out. I laugh

-Valeria who told you- I say

- Well, who else? Ceci, Diego, Sebas, and Nicolás, because since I know you well if you have said that it is because something has happened, do not worry, I said yes and I no longer answered their questions and calls because if not they will already know what lie - says

I laugh. That's our code. If it happens, just accept. After seeing the very messy room I remembered my mother in who taught us that we must be orderly clean and above all responsible. My mother is to be admired as well as my father, they strive to give the best to my sister and me. I love them. I take my clothes off. I leave my room and head to the bathroom with towels. I put music on my cell phone. I decided to put my favorite playlist I don't want the others. If I put it into law I will remember someone, well in a song they always have a name and a surname of beautiful memories, and unfortunately sad as I am that masochistic person who likes to suffer. I laugh. When I enter the shower the water falls on my skin. It is delicious and very relaxing. I'm in the shower humming, but my sister tells me that she's recording, threatens me saying that when I decide to be with someone, she will teach them, ... but as my mom says about my life, if someone decides to, they should love me as I am and not pretend. Suddenly I think of him. Curse. But why did I think of him? yes, I am very bad in the head. I scolded. Suddenly I hear the voice of my favorite singer Rauw Alejandro and his song "My fantasies with you." I love it. I sigh in relief, I feel like fresh lettuce, but again he abounds in my thoughts and my hands eager to play with my body. But I don't allow it, I only think of his tempting mouth, my heart pumping. In how he crossed my lips and how his lips joined mine and before that they responded desires of wanting more, his eyes, his body next to mine and everything about him I love it! And it makes me very HOT!

The water keeps falling on me, it's hot, but I think this time It´s me. For the love of God he's doing me, just thinking about him exerts this rowdy behavior. My hands restless from playing but I don't allow them, just thinking that he is here with me and hearing a part of the lyrics that continue to say: "whispering in your ear you begin to warm up." That part-oh ... oh ... it reminds me of when he spoke to me or rather whispered to me so they don't realize we were there. Unconsciously I bite my lower lip. I close my eyes. Uff ... how hot!

I think of him, him and only him. Do not know him. I do not know anything about him. But I do know that when I'm around him I get nervous and vulnerable to him. A moan comes out of my mouth. I decided to finish my bath and I get out of the shower. I go straight to my room, my sister stares at me as if saying something has happened that you have to tell me and I tell her:

-Wait for me a moment, yes? I'm going to tell you everything with hair and signs, but don't screw me - he exclaimed

-Yeah, yeah, yeah ... and why that humor? Don't hold on to me, I'm your little sister ... r- makes a baby girls face - I laugh

-It's okay, excuse me- I say

Fighting with her is a case!

-Mmm ... let me think about it- he says

-Valeri ...a don't screw me - I say

- But don't bother - he says

- Valeria for the love of God, for now, I don't want your drama, okay?

-Wow ...and because you have that bad temper has happened to you something? You're not like that; I better not say anything because if you don't kill me, but can I sleep with you so you can tell me the gossip?

Of course, I'm not like that. Seat.

She laughs out loud and so do I. Sometimes it drives me crazy but she is the only one how to relax and make me smile or laugh.

I put on my unicorn pajamas. My sister made dinner this time. It was delicious. Mom came in late at night. I attend her. She looks very tired, my heart breaks to see her like this, but she tells me not to worry. how Wouldn't a daughter worry about her mother and the worst to see her badly? Honestly, I feel terrible seeing her like this and being nothing for her. I accompany her. Will Valeria be doing homework or talking to her boyfriend? I opt for the second. My mom tells me that Dad won't come because he can't afford the money, and that's why he's doing extra work at dawn. Yes, I understand. I feel sad. We are rarely together as a family, but when we are we make the most of it. My mom is going to rest and so am I. Valeria is talking with my fool brother-in-law. At the end of their loving conversation, however, it seems eternal to me. She scolds me for speaking badly. I am sincere, it is my nature to speak like that, but when have I spoken so badly? she's crazy but I don't want to argue anymore. When she puts on her unicorn pajamas the same as mine, only that it is distinguished in color and by name, mine is called crazy and hers happy. It represents us a lot. When we are already in bed to tell the "gossip" my sister tells me:

-Angie before starting is something ... you know? - she says- I laugh and shake my head

I already know what you mean and it is if I will give Pedro Montero a chance but I shake my head

-Ok ... then let go- she says nervously

I laugh slowly and so does she. So that mama won't get up

-Do you remember that Cecilia made me promise not to have anything to do with her brother, but at the end I did not get to know him - loose?

- Aja - he says: and what does that have to do with it, what do you have to tell me? - she says confused

- Well - he cuts me off and says: wait ... don't tell me you met him and kissed him and everything - he says

I laugh. My sister and her fantasies. But she's right, not entirely. Clarifying.

-Well I'll tell you from the beginning so you can understand, yes? And the last thing I will say to you, you will be left with your mouth open, you will not believe it yourself and if I'm honest, I don't believe it myself - I say

- Now, now tell me quickly that he will give me something also you have me with the creeps - he says

-Well, since we had a job to do, I went to Cecilia's house, but she was shopping and I had to wait for her because the other fools of my friends only did stupid things and much more, I had a fight with Nicolas and Sebastian, but in the end Diego He defended me and told me to go to the bathroom and relax, I listened to him and left but the bad thing is that I couldn't find the bathroom without

However, I saw one on the second floor and I took a breath: when suddenly I felt someone enter and I saw him - my stomach churned just to mention it - I continue - first I had an altercation, he got very smug and that attitude did not seem right - he nods - I came out of the bathroom and later when I was walking down the hall I heard laughter, but the boy in the bathroom - raised a confused eyebrow - and I emphasize that he was saying that because I don't know his name but I know very well that he is his brother from Cecilia - nods - was behind me and led me to the side of a bathroom where all the laughter came from and when I saw it was Cecilia with Brayan my ex and she was sitting wanting to kiss him and they could not hide and they kissed - my sister covers her mouth and exclaims: oh my God, Brayan was needy and he laughs - I continue: and when I see them the serial killer himself enters me and I wanted to kill them and become Jason voorhees with my chainsaw, but Cecilia's brother stopped me and we started looking at them or as you say spy - he nods - and we began to warm up and we kissed ... Valeria was wonderful, I even threw myself on top of him and held on tight, leading me to his room, our approaches were very hearty I wanted to continue Valeriaaa - I say it in a sad tone, she laughs,

- Well I stopped everything ... okay I think I fell in love or I don't know. I laugh

-Ñañita, well I do not know what influences you in you, but Cecilia surprises me they have to clarify everything, one about your ex and another about what you promised and did not fulfill it, he says

- Better tomorrow I tell him or when it is be convenient - I say

- Aha ... well and was he a real daddy? - He says

I laugh

-If you saw it, you would change it for your boyfriend - I tell him

- so much so? - surprised

- Aha, just imagine because I won't tell you, besides I think you'll meet him very soon - I say

We finished chatting everything, she told me about her boyfriend and that she dedicated a song to him and was moved. In the end, we fell asleep listening to the song dedicated by the singing brothers Adexe and Nau "Andas en mi Cabeza". We like those songs a lot since my sister decided that Nau is her platonic love and I Adexe. My sister wants to learn that song very well.