Doctor Grey informed us that the surgery will take 4-6 hours and we should go home and freshen up. I was on my way home, I needed to see Elle right now. I needed her to feel like everything would be alright, see London in her eyes, and make sure I was taking care of her as London would expect me to.
"Is everything ok?" asked Maria.
"Yes thank you, Maria, I'm going to take her to see London in a few hours", I replied taking Elle and hugging her so tight placing kisses on her cheeks.
Want to go and see mommy? I smiled tickling her as she laughed. I know I was trying to distract myself from the real issue at hand but it was too much to think about all the possibilities or the fact that I may never see my wife again.
I handed Arielle to Maria as I went upstairs to the shower and that's when I lost it.
Fuck! Fuck! I yelled punching the wall. I was pacing back and forth, running my hands through my hair multiple times. I was losing it.