The Last Time I Saw You

The Last Time I Saw You

"I don't have to believe you anymore. If you have any pride left. Then, leave and never show me that annoying face of yours!"

~Hans Seigfreed Robinson

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After two days, Diamond went back to the mansion and she felt the atmosphere in the mansion was so dark and heavy. Something strange really happened. She went to her room and changed her clothes in a maid's gown.

She prepared his boss' breakfast at the dining area and when she saw his boss after her two days off. She saw that it really looked sad and down. It seemed that his boss was not in his usual self.

"Good morning Sir Hans". She greeted his boss and released a bright smile.

His boss ignored her and went to school without eating the breakfast she prepared. Really! What happened when she was in her days off? She prepared a buttered chicken and a soup that was his favorite. It was made by his Mom yet he never had to eat it. What was really wrong?

All day, she was asking for questions without an answers because no one was telling her. She asked Tina and Beth but they didn't make comments about it. She asked Mrs. Howard but she didn't get any reply. What's wrong? What did really happen here? Her big interrogatives!

After school, his boss went home and she welcomed it with her usual greeting but then again she was ignored. His boss didn't say any word nor looking at her. He was just ignoring her at all.

She followed his boss in its room and she took courage to ask his boss because it felt like something was off. But no one told her about it.

"Did something bad happen Sir Hans?" She directly asked.

His boss didn't reply her or looked at her. It was all quiet sitting in the corner of its room.

She came nearer to his boss and seated next to him.

"I won't insist you to talk it about but I will be next to you Sir Hans. And I'm willing to listen to your story". She calmly said but her heart was like scratching her inside.

His boss stood up in front of her. He fiercely glared at her and was restraining himself to burst out. His hand drank and he tightly holding Diamond in its shoulder.

Diamond can feel the pain of how his boss held him like that. In one of a sudden, tears fell from her eyes as she was feeling the sadness drawn from his boss face.

"You're just like them". His boss talked to her but his voice was trembling and the rage of its anger was restraining.

It was like his boss was controlling himself not to gone wild.

"Did I do something wrong Sir Hans? Please tell me so that I know what I had to do". She was still crying because this time, her emotions were letting her to feel sad.

"You're just like them and you break my trust. I don't need you, not ever. Get lost and get out of my sight. Disappear in front me and forget about me. Your just a maid and I'm your boss. Can you see the difference between us? Leave and never show that face to me!" Hurtful words that rang in Diamond's ears.

"I don't get it Sir Hans. What did I do wrong?" She was really confused and she was wiping her tears using her fingers.

"Cornella Simmons was my Mom but you keep it to me. You're a liar!".

Cornella Simmons? Oh! The one from those letters. His Mom?

"B-But Mr. Robinson told me to keep it from you and I didn't know that she's your Mom Sir Hans. I really don't know". She defended herself because she was following orders.

"I don't want to see you ever again! Liar! ANNOYING MAID! " And that was when his voice became louder because of the wrath of his anger.

Diamond let herself to cry. She was torn between her boss and its grandfather. But she was doing what just told her. Did she has a choice? Can she make an option? No! Because she was just a maid.

"It's odd Sir Hans but I am not just your house maid, your chamber maid or your house cleaner. Can't you see, I am here for you. I am MADE FOR YOU, made to be with you". She wholeheartedly uttered because it was her heart that let her to speak those words.

Hans suddenly stopped in awhile. What was that all about? Made for me yet she lied to me. Made to be with me but she kept these lies all the time. That was all useless now.

"I don't have to believe you anymore. If you have any pride left. Then, leave and never show me that annoying face of yours!" That was his last words and he went outside his room.

Diamond was left crying and she kneeled down in her feet because she didn't have any power to stand up. The pains were really painful and it was so hard to handle. It was like thorns from her heart was causing her to hardly breathe.

Pride? I didn't know that anymore since I started working here, since I started to work as a maid in this mansion. I didn't have that so called PRIDE!

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I was lost and not in myself. I was all thinking about yesterday. She was made for me, she said but she was just my maid that was why she made for me to bring these doubts, questions and uncertainties in my mind. My heart beats these indescribable feelings and these I cannot even explain.

Regarding with my relationship with Cross. I was not still talking to him after that and it was not easy to forgive him by lying to me. I still didn't get a chance to meet my mother because I was not still ready to face her after a long time.

The class ended, Thomas and I went to this bake shop near New Heights University and he bought a chocolate cake for his little sister. I was choosing a bread with cheese and I saw this Yema cake and it has so much cheese toppings. It really caught my attention and I ordered it right away. I can't lost this chance. My cheese!

Afterwards, I directly marched home and I didn't see my annoying maid welcomed me like the way she always did. I put the Yema cake I bought in that bake shop in the fridge and then went directly to my room.

I entered my room and I saw that it was clean and orderly. My annoying maid was really good in keeping it clean all the time. She was particular with the cleanliness in my room that everytime I went home it felt like a hotel room.

I'm about to finish my term paper and Cross suggestions and comments really did help me. I was typing at my laptop then in one of a sudden my annoying maid knocked at my door.

I didn't respond to her, I was just focusing on what I'm doing and I didn't want to face her right now.

"I will be coming inside Sir Hans". She said in her low voice and opened the door.

She was just standing in the doorway and didn't come near me. Silence filled my room and I didn't mind her presence. Like I really cared about her. She's just annoying and a liar! But-

"U-Uhmm...I-I... I'm sorry about the other day Sir Hans and I-I was at fault for not considering what you might feel and about yesterday. I-I'm truly sorry for what I had done". She sincerely said while I'm still doing my course requirement.

"You're annoying! I don't want to see you". My only replied without taking a glance at her.

She was bowing her head and lost for words after hearing that from me.

"Can't you see, I'm busy. Get out!. I don't want to talk to you". I irrirably uttered because she's getting in my concentration to lost focus.

She was still standing in the doorway of my room until she spoke out.

"Please be well and don't skip your meal Sir Hans". She paused for awhile and then- "I'm sorry for everything and I'm sorry for disturbing your life Sir Hans. I will be leaving now". She heartily said and I was not without even paying attention to her.

She forced a smile and restrained herself to cry in front of me. She headed in my room's door and all I can see was how she turned her back from me.

That was also the moment when a memory from the past flashed back at me. It was the same when my Mom turned her back from me. After that, I didn't see her anymore. But my annoying maid was different, whenever I had to do bad to her, she was still coming back. Even I had to insult her, she was still coming back and even I treated her worstly, she was still coming back.

That was the difference betweeen her and my Mom.

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"Please be well and don't skip your meal Sir Hans. I'm sorry for everything and I'm sorry for disturbing your life. I will be leaving now".

That was the last words I've heard from my maid. I didn't pay attention to her that day because I'm not still forgiving her for what she had done to me. She lied like my grand father did. Also, I knew she loved her job so much and even how many times I will kick her out or spoke ill to her she will be coming and returning back.

But-

That was not the case anymore. She left the mansion that day and she really did leave me. Just like my Mom how she turned her back from me.

And that was the last time, she worked as maid in the mansion. After that, I didn't see her anymore.

I was heartless and inconsiderate at that time when I didn't think of what others may feel but after she left. I began to understand that not all things will go well as you planned. Not everything will be given to you and not everything will be provided to you.

And I spent my eighteen year old self with the memories she left.