Chapter 7

I tried to run away from myself, but it's not always so easy ... I try not to get hurt, but now it's impossible ... I tried not to fall in love, but my heart can't take it anymore .. I wanted to say that I won't get over it , but I'm not thinking clearly anymore ... I know what my heart wants, but my brain is afraid of making mistakes.

My day off was over and I started training again. The training got a little lighter. "Thank God!"

- No more kidding today, don't you think? How about if you transform and ...

- Sure ... Because this is the easiest thing in the world - I say rolling my eyes.

He takes a bag of blood again to try to stimulate me.

- Come on, I know you want to.

- I still don't understand why I don't drink that blood.

- Because you were not created, you were born with this gene. So, we just have to make you release it.

- What if I drink just a little ...? - I can't believe I'm asking you to drink this ... "Blood".

- You can even try, we have achieved nothing so far.

- Okay, give it to me.

He hands me the bag and I take a small sip ... "How am I going to get used to this taste?"

- Enough, July.

I didn't understand, I barely drank half ... Ok ... I almost drink all the blood. I only stopped when I realized that my teeth were sharper ... I did it!

- To watch? We could have done this before, but the: "you know everything" didn't want me to hear ...

Oh! My head! What is it?! It's all dark ... Douglas! I tried to scream, but my voice didn't come out. What's happening to me?!

- Hi, are you okay?

I woke up in a strange place, it looked like a cliff. It was night, it was a full moon. There was a woman on my side.

- No ... Where am I ...? Who are you?

- I'm Tracy, your vampire.

- My ... Vampire? Too...?

- Your vampire side, actually. It's usually a werewolf thing, but you're a hybrid, so I don't think that's strange.

- Ok ... Where are we?

- In your head, where else would we be?

- I don't remember that place. But if you're my vampire side, then my werewolf and witch side are missing, don't you think?

- And they're here. Only you need to break the other barriers first.

- What barriers?

- Oh my holy Dracula ... - she whispers.

- I'm still here, you know?

- And it will continue until you discover everything you need to know.

- Then start.

- You have three barriers that make your transformation impossible. Every time you break a barrier, you come to this place so that we can explain everything to you. When we're done, you come back, but your connection with us is permanent and there's nothing you can do to remove it.

- Okay ... So why haven't I come back yet?

- Because, obviously, I'm not finished yet!

- Then finish. I want to go back!

- It's not that simple. First I want you to see some things ...

She takes me to a dark place. I can hear someone's heart beating and it's not mine ...

- And his mother.

- How is this possible?

- For Dracula, what do you still not believe in? You are changing and these are your memories. To get back, you will need to remember everything from the moment it was generated to ... Now.

- So ... How long will this last?

- About ... about three days, but the time here is slower so you relive everything that happened, and don't think it won't hurt, because you will feel everything and more ...

I watched my entire pregnancy, it was a good thing. Cozy. I could hear my mom and dad talking to me. I felt loved. At least until I was born ...

The bag burst, I was choking. Everything was spinning. Suddenly, I felt myself being pushed. I felt like I was being thrown away ... I had my first contact with the air and I could only cry and ... Cry. It was cold, stuck together and I couldn't see anything. I felt someone taking me, but it wasn't my parents, I don't know who they were. I was delivered into someone else's arms and then I heard a voice. "That voice. It was my mother. I finally stopped crying and felt a strange liquid come into my mouth. I don't know what it was, but I know I liked it. I got more and more sleepy, until I fell asleep.

I relived everything. I remembered every detail, every sensation, every pain (no matter how small). I saw myself grow and mature. I felt every hurt, every loss and, worse, I felt the pain of betrayal again. But I also felt good things, like the time I spent with my parents. How I was received by Sônia after they "died". The time I spent with my friends (oh, how I miss them) ...

When I finally remembered everything, a terrible pain hit me. My throat was burning, my head throbbed with pain, my eyes felt like they were going to explode. I can not take it anymore!

- Calm down, July, you are going through your first transformation, it is normal to feel pain. Shortly ... -

I was sweating a lot. I felt my teeth rip through my gums and grow ... Everything hurt ...

Tracy started singing for me. It sounded like a song that my mother sang when I put it to sleep ... I miss her so much ... The pain passed, I returned to normal ... ah ... it came back again, the burning, the choking, my torn gums . I have gone through this cycle countless times. The pain passed and came back. Weaker and weaker, until it stopped hurting ...

- Ended. Now you can change whenever you want, but be careful. You will still be attracted to the blood. You will have to learn to control yourself if you want to be around other people.

- Thanks Tracy, but couldn't it hurt less? That was distressing!

- I know, I felt it too. But pain is part of our transformation. It's what you get for being the result of unusual love ... Now you can wake up, baby, they're waiting for you ...

With that I woke up. At first I couldn't open my eyes, I was very tired. I made a tremendous effort to open my eyes.

- She woke up! - I think it was Luci - Robert, Douglas; she woke up!

Oh ... Don't yell. My head is exploding ...

- Excuse me. I was worried, Douglas said you passed out after drinking blood and ... Is it true that you changed?

- Yes ... I managed to activate my vampire side ... Where is my father?

- It's coming, he didn't want to leave your side. He and Douglas stayed here all night, but I asked to be alone with you and then you woke up!

- Douglas was here? What did he want?

- I'm right here, July. You can talk.

He appeared at my bedroom door. Only now did I realize I was wearing pajamas. I felt myself blush because he was seeing me like this.

- Hi ... I didn't see you there ...

- Just arrived. How are you feeling?

- Tired ... I didn't think I would be in so much pain.

- I know ... I should have warned you.

- What a pain? When I changed I don't remember feeling anything ...

- It's different for them Luci. Their species is rare.

"His kind? What does he mean ... Oh, it doesn't matter."

- Daddy !!! Glad you're here!

- Hi little one - he entered the room and hugged me. - I would never leave you at that moment.

- I think I'd better let you sleep. After what happened these days, she'll need a lot of rest.

- Well, you heard the doctor kkkk.

- I see you still have a sense of humor. So I think we can go back to training ...

- Actually, I'm exhausted. Do you mind if I go back to sleep?

My father laughed a little and said - Of course not, daughter. Rest, you will need it.

"I don't know why, but if they did, it's said. Who am I to refuse a good night's rest?"