Chapter 10 - alone and sad

Narrators POV

When the doors were closed, Kendys mother looked up.

" Daughter "

Kendy was so stunned, but actually managed to say something. Nothing grand, but at least something.

" M...mother "

" You are late. Care to explain why? "

Malinda, Kendys mother, asked her daughter in a tone with void of emotions.

" I...I was with a t...teacher after c...classes. I...I didn't understand s...something, so I...I needed some e...explanations with that s...subject. "

" You have been not understanding them too often. And it's only been two days. Study harder child. "

The teens mother said the whole thing in such a monotone voice and it made it sound even scarier than with anger in a voice.

" Yes, Mother! "

Kendy said to her mother, this whole time too scared to look her in the eyes.

Malinda took her eyes away from her daughter, back to her computers screen.

She has not gotten over her husbands case even till now. Seven years and she still misses that monster.

Kendy didn't make a sound while going up her room and sobbing as quietly as she could.

What's even weirder is that Kendy hasn't seen her dog since she came home. It is so unusual of him.

' Anyways, another evening will be spent crying till I can't keep my eyes open. Ugh! I can't believe my mother is always so emotionless! She doesn't even consider that it may be hard for me to live so lonely with, literally, no emotional support. Well, my doggo ' Sniff ' He is such an emotional pillar for me, but...where is he? ' Sniff.

' He probably is out on a walk, or in the yard, or who knows where! Ugh, okay, he'll be back soon...hopefully my mother didn't do anything to him. '

Kendy plopped down on her bed, not even bothering to turn the lights on.

When she decided that she has done enough laying on the bed, the girl took her notes of the past. Turned on her table lamp and started reading the, already, forgotten memorys.

Entry one, 14.10.2023

I have started to forget things. It's weird, to be honest. It's like, since dad...uhm, you see, it's like I'm forgetting dad. My mom is also getting more and more emotionless by the minute and when i try talking to her, she just brushes me off or changes the subject. I think something bad happened to dad. But he isn't dead because we haven't had a funeral, so that's at least something. Whats more is that i started seeing weird things. I guess it's, maybe, related to my dad somehow. I can see in peoples minds. I can see theyr thoughts, but not like text messages, but like exactly what they imagine. I guess you could call it me seeing peoples imagination. I have no idea how far i can see or even how to turn this off! And i'm scared. I'm scared of what will happen if i don't get my eyes under control.

Entry two, 23.10.2023

Nothings, mostly, changed. My mom keeps getting more and more emotionless, i still keep forgetting about dad more and more. And i still don't know how to get my eyes under control. It's scary. I'm scared. We are, also, getting out of this house and moving into some other house in another city. I asked the reason to my mom, she said it's because, i'll go to a better school and these teachers aren't very good influence on me. When i asked what about my friends, she just said i'll make new ones. It's starting to feel like she just wants to get me away from something, no. More like she doesn't want me to keep talking to the people i currently am in contact with. Like she is scared of something. Also, side note, i can't see my moms head, it just looks like a normal head, and she isn't the only one. I can see mostly all of peoples imaginations, but there are a few exceptions. And they give off almost the same vibe as my mother - That they are better than everybody else, probably because they have a ton of money or something like that.

Entry three, 04.12.2023

I forgot to write in here. And, honestly, I feel dead inside. I have forgotten most of my memorys about dad. I have a picture of us together. We look very happy. Happiness. Something i also am starting to forget. How it feels. I am forgetting. Me and my mom have gotten very distant, recently. I think it's because dad is gone, but i can't be sure, because i don't remember much. My mom got a dog though. It's a weimaraner. He is so adorable. But i don't know. Even tho he is such a cute, little, adorable puppy, it feels like he is monitoring me and my movements, but i, usually don't take it seriously. Like, what could a dog do? Lol. I am starting to get my eyes under control, finally. Now i can almost turn my eyes on and off like a switch. And i'm getting used to the feeling of my eyes seeing more. I think once i finally will be able to control my vision completely, i'll try and see how far i can go with this vision, and no pun intended.

Entry four, 16.05.2024

Man, i totally thought that writing these entrys would be way more easier, but heh, look at me. Forgot to write one for half a year. Anyhow, I have completely lost my memorys of dad. I feel like the title 'mom' doesn't belong to my mother anymore. It's more like mother. I always have a feeling that i should be on my best behaviour around her. We also moved again. I had to leave my friends behind, again. Sadly, that wasn't easy. I feel like crying pretty often. It just feels like i am alone. But what good will crying do? Nothing. So, i just keep my emotions in check and keep a strong face, that is, around anyone who isn't my mother. I can't show her attitude. I'm even scared to do that. She has gotten a new job, i think. She doesn't talk to me about anything other than school. My lovely doggo is growing tho. He is such a cutie pie. I just love him the most. But he, sometimes, give me the creeps. It feels like he is way smarter than he leads on. But nope. He's just a dog. To test this theory I tried my powers( I now call them that way, because it just feels like i have superpowers that is seeing thoughts) but it didn't work on him. It doesn't work on animals. I am now in complete control of my powers. I can turn it off and on like a switch. Though, i am scared of what would happen if i tried my powers to theyr max. I'm going to do it, just a bit later.

Entry five, 29.02.2025

Welp, i forgot these entrys existed. We have moved once again. I stopped asking why and just went with it. My mother just feels like a robot. I'm scared. I have a picture of a man and me together. But i'm pretty sure it's my dad. I miss that. I miss feeling happy, but i mostly have forgotten what it's like feeling happy. Oh, and i went max with my powers, well, as far as i could with my energy levels, but i think i could've gone further if i had more energy. But, back to my point. I saw the girls past, and i think a little glimpse of her future. And i think, but i'm not sure, i could've controlled her body if i had just a tiny bit more energy, but right at that moment, i fell in bed unconscious. I also feel alone and sad, and scared. I made a couple of friends at my current school, but i couldn't be very close with them, because, i have no doubts that we are moving soon. And i don't want to leave close people behind ever again. And i also can't not cry from time to time, although i think t's getting more and more often.

Kendy finished reading the entrys at two in the morning.

She was still laying in bed, table lamp on, eyes puffy and red, and thoughts wondering.

Until she remembered that tomorrow is the day with the test that will take place in The Wild forest.

She placed some extra clothes in her bag and went to bed again.

It was more like a sleeping ritual by now, that she couldn't go to sleep any other way than crying.