chapter 30: shut up! can't you see I miss Her! I miss being in balance.

"actually no...I like this, okay just stay like this and I won't have any kay" she wrapped her arms around me and used me as a body pillow while playing with my hair, I guess I can finally get some good sleep tonight.

but why dose she keep sniffing me, do I smell funny or something, I haven't been playing with anyone today either so whats up?? is It my shampoo??? I don't get it?

' he smells like a flower, yummy' she says as she gets a wife of his scent.

***next day***

I'm going to take some time off after cultivation and I usually only eat dinner served here or I just consume SE, but today I guess I'll stop by and grab a bite.

as I walked and entered a huge tent, the place was filled with steam and good smells causing through the air as I saw dozens of people sitting at tables enjoying themselves.

I walked upto the surver and he greeted me "welcome Rin, I usually don't see you around here at this time, what would you like" I looked up at what they had and ordered "can I have some udon" "want some chicken or pork with it" "pork please" "eggs or no eggs" "egg" "anything else" "no thanks" "okay go sit down and I'll brink you it, its my treat" there's usually two servers, one with the school and one from the locals tring to get opinions from the students while hoping their rank in the food industry would go up.

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so when we first met he's saw me cultivating my flames and he offered me a deal, I would light something to generate my black and green flames which he would be able to use for cooking good food,

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and the bonus affect it gives the food I don't know, but he offered me 50% off so I just agreed and set a little camp fire behind the huge tent every day. and that's how we became business partners and friends

"hey Rin, mind if I join you" a sort silhouette with ocean blue hair and goat horns asked "sure" it was the halfling-garu girl.

If remember correctly her name was sophy, no makatakanowao, no thats not right, I don't remember, I'll just stick with the first one and hope its close enough.

"hey sophy, whatcha been up to" nailed it. (speaking 100)

"I finished listing to a nurses lecture and I'm about to go to and study soon, what about you?" wait did I get her name right?

"oh, I'm finished for today do imma just fool around/explore again" her smile faded "imma come with you then, remember what happened last time?" "not really?" "that's my point" "fine" he agreed and she patted his head "good boy"

she got a sandwich and started to eating without me, my food finally arrived and Mr.singazus left back to the counter, the food was good and the flavor was all around an grate balanced, 10/10 that's what I'd rate it.

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as we left we were walking around the woods and I found a cool looking stick I used as a staff and cane for fun "so Rin if you saw someone getting beat up in an alleyways what would you do?" she said asking more questions.

"I wouldn't want to fight them, so I'd try to reason with him and if he attacks me I'll give him a warning" I said as I used the long stick as a staff and avatar style it making it spin in circles.

"what if he continues?" "no second chances thats what sorta person I am, and I will not be responsible for the outcome" this was a principle this side of Rin lived by, normally this Rin is also a pacifist but when pushed enough he might hesitate but in the end they end up seing his wrath.

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as Rin was walking and humming some PATD songs he was asked another weird question, "have you ever thought about or would you ever kill in cold blood?" whats with these questions.

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"your a weird person soap??? no I wouldn't and why would I want to hurt others, expecally if they didn't do anything to me?" soap your too weird.

"my names Sophia not soap, where'd that even come from? and these are just little questions I wanted to know" she said suspiciously as she adjusted the microphone she was secretly hiding.

she's wearing a wire, snitched get...I can't say but all I can say is KILL HER JERRY, DO IT!!!

"Rin what if you did kill someone? why would you do it?" are you a cop soapy "dunno the only thing that pops in my head is that they deserve it" if she keeps asking weird questions imma ditch her. he thought as he continued to hum some tunes.

actually he was starting feeling like he wanted to use infuse his demonic mana into his voice and hum a demonic melody which would tearn the area into his domain.

(demonic lullaby, you ever see in those movies were the humans or creature is running from somthing scary thats humming or literally singing, well yeah its all based off of the famous hunting style of the Demon race, there demonic lullaby is somthing no one should triful with, not even other demon's)

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"sniff-sniff" there's something wrong here, I though it was her but now I'm smelling multiple garu and one powerful one near by, the powerful one reminds me of that monster I slayed a while ago.

"hey soap- I mean Sophia, I gotta go, I promised I would visit my friend Olivia and I think I'm a little late now" as we walked off I couldn't smell them anymore, and as I was infront of Olivia's tent I waved goodbye as I entered.

"Olivia you here???" she sat up from her futon "R-rin? what are you doing 'ach-ooo' h-here?" she sneezed again and she had a runny nose with little a little red on her cheeks.

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"I came to check on you, are you feelings okay? whats wrong? what happened?" I said as I ran to her side.

"nothing I think I just cought a little cold 'achoo!' " she said as she laughed it off, but I could tell she didn't like it, she hated being sick.

I crawled next to her and lowered her head on my lap "Rin you can't, you might get sick too!" she said tring to sit up, but then I put my hand on her forehead and pressed her down.

"don't worry about me, just get some rest" "but-" no excuses my dear.

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"i heard that if someone were to drink the blood of a noble or higher Demon they would be able to recover faster plus their lifespan would extend, so here please accept this" I said as I raised a pin and slit my own wrist,

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Olivia i love you and your worth this, don't worry I'll never corrupt you no matter what, use me as much as you can, thats the least I can do for you, after all you've always been there for me and I love you so much for that.

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blood started to leak out of there and I lowered it close to her mouth "please accept, this is for you always being there for me, so let this pathetic demon be useful to you for once" she blushed as agreed to it.

"only this one time, but after this don't ever do somthing as stupid as that again, hurting yourself in any form no matter who you do it for is not okay" she said scolding me and then blushing deeply as she opened wide and put her mouth onto my wrist to drink my blood fresh from the source.

as her lips pressed against my arm and my body became super sensitive, I felt the warmth of her mouth and the occasional licks on my cut.

"nyahhh~" I softly moaned, this continued for a while before she finally let go and the cut stoped bleeding.

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"okay time to rest now, you should be feeling the after effect soon so I suggest you rest quickly before it kicks in" she nodded her head.

"can you hum me a melody like you used to" she said with a purr as she rubbed her head gains me.

"anything for you" and so just like she requested he did it. . .and as she was asleeping he made sure she wouldn't wake up doing the effects after all she drank the blood of an incubus even if he's not as strong as her it didn't matter. [dream walker] blue smoke sunk into both of them as he didn't feel like being alone.

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after that night Olivia made a full recovery and clinged to Rin for the following day's, Rin didn't seem to care he just continued as he usually did and she wasn't their in his mind for most of it.

sally didn't mind eather, she was Rin's class rep and getting to know people was one of her many skills, they talked also and when it came time to sleep Rin was in between a cute fluffy soft furry with semi big jugs and warm fur, and also a flat chested goddess figure who was springy warm and soft but supper clingy.

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the next three days continued to be normal somewhat except for now he felt like there's been more eyeing him and with the intent to kill.

as for the crafting of the weapons they were finished and Rin needed to wait for the rest to as well.

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3 three 'somewhat' days till present time

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"knock-knock" as I woke next to two people next to me, my gaze then shifted to Elaine who knocked and entered, I was already dressed and so I got up

"goodmorning Elaine...I mean sensai" "was I interupting something" she blushed tilting her head to look to the two girls, sally and Olivia.

"no your not, so whats up?" "I heared from sally you finished your craft so I wanted to know of you wanted to hang out, mabey sneak out and head to town if you'd like?" Rin's eyes lit up with little sparks radiating off if him.

"yes! I would love! let's go explore! haha okay well let's start are date then" "d-d-date?" she reddened he grabbed her hand and they left the tent.

"so were to?" "oh umm it's this way, follow me" and so they snuck out of the area but were seen by a sertain horned creature and were followed.

as they entered a small town they headed to a Cafe to gather intel. as we ordered coffee she needed to 'powder her nose' and so as I was alone I asked a waiter and maid that were next to eachother oddly.

"hey there I was wondering somthing and since were from somewhere close by were would be some places to explore- I mean go to for a date"

they both knew I said explore and held back a their laughs as they looked at this confused student.

"you see that cliff behind the Cafe well its a torest spot to see the local area you can explore there" the girl said

"but before you go there, let me write down some locations to take that date of yours, I assume this is your first time so I'll tell you that she'll be happy you thought of these instead of a pure adventure lil bro" he said giving Rin a sincere smile.

"thank you both very much I appreciate this" his sweat smile warmed their hearts a little and you could visibly see the blush on their face.

"students these days so wild hahaha" she said out loud "wait? how'd you know that?" "the boy then laughed before answering "your girlfriend could of fooled us from the cute and innocent dress, but your in uniform so I guess your both high schoolers traveling"

"oh?" Rin just relised he was in uniform, as Elaine came back and sat down she looked at them in confusion, wondering what they were talking about.

"have fun you two" they said as they walked away and continued to work "thank you very much" Rin waved bye.

"lets go Elaine, I found some fun stuff for us to do!" he said excited "you did, what about exploring?" she was curious now "we can do that on the way" he said as he placed a 5 coppers on the table and grabbed her hand "wait what about the coffie!?" "well get some later" I said as we rushed out of their and my visible smile shined.

as we were walking I could see people look at Elaine with disgust, she noticed it too and lowered her head in shame

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Angel and demons outside of the underworld heaven or their respected territory are despised, feared, sometimes but rarely respected, and just disliked, but I have reasons, I could care less if they massacred a village in cold blood or was a Saint, I just dislike them because if a bad history I have with them, but that just makes me weary, I don't actually hate them, like look at Elaine, she's a demon I warmed up to pretty quick, it that may be because she's not a bad person and nice but not my point.

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as I saw that, I don't know what happened but the ground started to form frost around me and it got really cold, subconsciously I was sending signals at them to fuck off because I was getting unset and my core mana was more attached to the ice element so it attached to my emotions.

"brrr" she was getting cold and her body trembled a little with the sudden decrease in temperate, oh no what have I done, come on you can't lose your temper, okay Rin, you can do this, lighten up the mood, come on you got it.

I grabbed both her hands and brung her close up to me, I swiftly moved and now she was up against the wall, as I looked down to meet her eyes, I let out a soft chuckle as how movie-like this was.

she got flustered and blushed while she was embarrassed as those same people looked at her, then your boy Rin surprised my man's evey thoughts.

"dear you look really pretty today, you don't know how excited I was when you asked me out today" I said loud enough for them to hear as I then pressed my lips against hers and she squeezed my hands and she held on to it.

they all stoped moving and just looked at the public display, especially those who looked at my Elaine with disgust, they looked at me with pity, and thought that, that cute little boy was being manipulated or somthing.

she turned her head and shyly said "Rin people are looking" she looked down "let them look, after all there just jealous that they can't have someone as cute and tasty as you!" I said passionately "tasty?" she mumbled

I continued and those people slowly walked away and as soon as they were gone I released out kiss and continuing holding her hand "okay now that the annoyance is gone, lets have fun" I said with a childish tone "what do you have in mind?" she moved in closer to me

"lets go to the park" "wha?" she was speechless

as Rin held her hand and led her to the park he saw a track, "Elaine! Elaine lets make a bet! okay so whoever finishes a lap last pays for lunch!" she just laughed before saying "you're on, my little student thinks they can beat me I'll have to show you my power"

the two lined up on the track and when as soon as Rin said start they sprinted to the finish line. they were running at the same speed at first but then Elaine looked at Rin and poked her tongue out and bolted, going over ten times faster, in seconds she appeared at the finish line.

Rin was left in the dust and it took him a half a min to finish. "i went easy on you, but it still looks like your paying hehe" "you did???" I want to know, what her being serious was now.

they raced two more times while increasing the laps, and in all three Elaine was victorious while Rin was dusted.

the last one was before he got his foot out she was already three quarters finished and then a second later she finished a km run.

Elaine laughed as she watched Rin catch his breath "you need to work on this more, I guess when we go back home I'll have to whip you into shape" she joked around "I'll be waiting then" I can't wait.

they left and headed to where Elaine picked and on their way they saw a ufo "looks like NASA has been busy again?" "yea i heard they successfully colonized another planet, I think its name was "argent mural". . .I think"

"so were are we going?" "you'll see" she said looking forward and pulling him deeper into the forest. "hey Rin, are you okay?" "what do you mean?"

"well normally everyone has emotion and other stuff, usually its all complex and yours is the most complex I've ever seen and or tasted, but when I'm around you now I can only feel less than 5 major ones" I guess I've been figured out, this is exciting but I can't get overwhelmed yet.

"don't worry about it, im normal" "your a good at lieing since you can't feel guilt am I right" she said has she turned serious

"your right I don't and it's impossible for me to right now" "why is that?" she says as she pins me to a tree and gets ready to hurt me if I don't give information to her.

"ooh I love it when you play rough" he said passionately "answer my question, who and what are you and were's Rin" she gave me look backed by killing intent

"you see Rin's mind is easy to brake under sertain surconstances

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so he was split in two, currently you are speaking to one of Rin's true self, although he hids it and acts like he's not, this is truly who he is, a playful, kind and passive person, who's just wanting to play games and go on a adventure, but his sexual desiree is not apart of me thats just him on general.

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well im half of it atleast tho. . .as for the other one well he's was broken pretty bad and mentally tramatized so he needs to rest and stabiliz with the other half, or else...well I can't tell you that.

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but if you wanna know I'll tell you somthing important here this

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I am the one called lust and the other is blood lust although I'm a pacifist who frowns opon violence and lives to live in peace, she's the opposite but more of a complex mix actually, and together we make Rin Ito" followed by

"but thats not are true names, thats an alternative I just thought of, because you can't know our true names, only Rin has that right".

she tightened her grip and pushed me harder against the tree.

"when will Rin return, or how do I get him back" she looked me dead in the eyes, it was kinda cute how mad she was mad, should I tell her, meh why not.

"in a few days, the time varys diffrently in that place, after all your kind knows that the best, at most it should be a few days to a month at most" she released him.

"so what do you want? what are toy after?" her tone was as if she was about to interigate or negotiate with someone, "everyone has a reason for something and since you hold control of Rin's body what are you going to do with him?"

did she not hear a word of what I said, im still Rin and while just not complete tho, I just lack most of all his emotions,feelings, and etc.

"I wanna adventure" "I mean what are you true goals wit-" I interupted, I lost my temper and the area froze and burned around me in a little area

"shut up! you have no idea how stressed I am because of this, I've been listening and comforting him every day in there and he has yet to stop hurting and crying, I can't live without my balance and I need him to be stable more than you think!" I fell to my knees and it got hoter and colder around me

"can't you see how hurt I am too, I miss my partner and it makes me sad to see him like this, I need my balance but I'm forced to take control or his instincts will and no good will come, all their will be is blood and death, and she can't take control because she's been with Rin this entire time tring to keep him calm as well as hurting too"

she backed up and felt a fluctuation in him, the most that was be produced was sadness, she wanted to confort him, but her instincts were screaming to run.

"I dont feel like playing today, sorry for yelling I just wanna be alone now" I said as the flames that scorched dirt and ice which former walls of spikes faded.

I got up and walked into the forest and headed back to camp, she followed me from a very fare distance.

as I was about a kilometer from the camp a voice appeared

"Rin Ito what a nasty little fight you had beforehand, but I have a few question for you" he said as he threw a chained up Sophia at me and broke a crystal summoning 50 goat-people around us.

I cought her and looked around "so I guess that this is the garu clan?"