The x-files

The last Nightmare I had before waking up from the last one was of agent scully Was autopsy in me alive. I guess this is what you get for having to ice cabs in a row but I was able to sleep. But it was it good because the first nightmare as well and Janice and the last one was about an evil version of agent scully During medical experiments and doing other horrible things to me like you're talking me alive because of my Asian heritage or a talking my children because their heritage. I do not like the idea of doctors because they cause more problems than I do with disease. I find the doctors are horrible people and I've got any problems I like fathers dream since I was in grade 8 were agent school he was part of the wheel live And I had to go I had to go to martial arts class just to say myself or so I thought and now the dreams are coming back and causing me to wake up early in the morning. I think this comes from the genocide dream I had last night or the nightmare I meant the prophetic nightmare and people don't start treating each other properly I'm not gonna be able to do anything about stopping stuff anyway the dream was it was I was the first want to go and I was being autopsied by Scully And held down by mulder As I struggled to get free but as I said I was being autopsy to live and the people were holding me down while Skooly was I talking me alive Mangala style it was not an I screamed and cried I thought with all my mind in this dream and tried my best to survive but condo in the dream they poison me to death after I was done with the autopsy. I don't even know why I want to talk to the medical examiner. Too bad I cannot take zoom courses on karate all taekwondo to help me with this situation I get rid of the dream the only way to get rid of the dream is to deal with it through the dream journal that I have set up here. I am also going to be mentioning good dreams but I do rarely show up as I have PTSD from Romania and have struggled with nightmares for the most in my life. It's a wander that I am not drinking the stupid sauce a.k.a alcohol. But I choose to do something else with my grief and my sorrow instead of drowning myself with chemicals I just saw that I do other things like art photography and writing on music and doing TickTock videos it was my way of dealing with my shit. The stream has been bothering me for sometime and I can't help but hate doctors now because of the lockdown but because of this project is removed I've had since childhood. It all started with a little brat and school showing off girls autopsy videos of drug attic's and alcoholics an anorexic women I don't know why he did it but to scare the shit out of us. Anyway I've never really liked Doctors r. After for that. You trying to see a brain of an alcoholic woman or the anorexic girl who are you seeing her meet you in Gordons well or in school it messes you up quite a bit and this was Catholic school so it was supposed to mess with you. I do not wish upon Catholic school on my worst enemy let alone a terrorist. Because these are the things that happened to people who go on the Catholic school. You got really bad nightmares fromthings other people do unto you. In fact I find doctors racist and evil.