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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

"Guys I gotta run to the hospital it's an emergency",I say to my friends whose attention is now turned to me.

"What's wrong is anyone hurt",they ask

"It's my brother's wife she went into early labour",I say .

"Okay please keep us updated",they say .

I was so excited to start a family. I always wanted to have a big family ,kids running around everywhere. However, pregnancy had turned out to be terrific to say the least. I do not know if I would be very be willing to see Alexa go through all she was going through with this pregnancy. People often said that the first pregnancy was not an easy one and all I wanted was for it to end well and welcome our kid .

"Hey baby,what are you thinking?"asks Alexa as she emerges from our bedroom. We are going shopping and she has been looking for something to dress for the past hour and a half.

FEARS