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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

They always said that in this life you only had one love. That online as the person was the love of your life.

I found that very hard to believe. I had loved a lot of people in my life and I was not sure that was true.

I think that I e had one person who was the love of their life in one life but one person would leave in so many lives.

I thought that life was the most beautiful and pure thing. Being in love was one of the best feelings.

One had to experience it before dying. They said it was better to love someone and lose them than to have none of it.

Sometimes you would think that you did not deserve life but I think everyone did deserve it. No matter how wicked someone as they had someone who would love them.

In most cases, it always ended in two ways for them. It was either it was their weak spot or they would still be the same person and hurt their partner.

ALL TO BLAME