Thursday, April 16, 2020

It's April 16 now. I just got back from the mall with Annaliese. Tomorrow will be Zian's birthday and I'm very nervous. He still hasn't contacted me and I don't know what will happen. I'm very anxious and scared about what he might say.

Annaliese and mine's relationship didn't change at all. I guess because of the bond and the flow of the atmosphere? She greeted me normally and I did the same. The topic about zian was not even opened. It's not that we neglected it, instead, we casually forgot about it. We were so into with choosing a present for him and we were arguing the whole time as usual. Since it's her first gift as an obligatory, also as a peace offering, we don't really know what to choose. She then asked me what kind of things he likes so I told her. Hahaha. She even have the guts to laugh at me! Saying that I'm like a stalker who knows everything he likes! I was pissed and embarrassed! Yet she decided to go with something stupid though. She chose a simple pencil because I told her that Zian also draws when he feels like it. And oh my gosh! she was about to buy only one pencil!! Frustrated, I grabbed a pack and told her to get that instead!!

And the debate begun. She said that it won't be that important to him but I told her at least make it feel like a gift!! But her crazy mindset dared to fight me and shouted at me at the mall!!

"IT'S AN OBLIGATORY GIFT. WHY THE EFF SHOULD I BUY 10 PIECES OF PENCIL?"

I was mad!! I swear!! So I shouted back!!

"YOU STUPID IDIOT!! IT'S HIS BIRTHDAY!! DON'T BE TOO CHEAP!!"

In the end, she went and bought the 11 pencils. Oh my God. The one she picked and the pack I picked.

She asked me what I'm going to give and I said that it's a simple happy birthday on a notepad this time. Whenever I give him something, I'd always write a greeting on a paper or a notepad but since I thought that they'll be dating sooner or later, I decided to go with a note only. She told me that it'll be enough and patted my head. I was confused. I asked her if I should buy one too but she said to do not and stick with the note. So that's what I'll do.

That's all for now. Wish me luck tomorrow to still be alive.

Your friend,

TSM