CH 15|| Meeting Mr O'Neil

Chris' POV

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There is a time in your life when you would feel you've achieved something long waited and there is a time you know you haven't reached even half a destination.

The latter is the case with me. No amount of words can express my feelings. Truth is I don't really understand my feelings and I can't trust them.

My experience with the previous love I had has totally taught me better but also deprived me of trust. Not for my partner but for my heart.

I don't want what happened to me to repeat itself and besides I'm older than Eddy. She is too young and lacks experience from my point of view.

I don't want to hurt her, I can't hurt her, I mustn't hurt her.

But Eddy is surprisingly too mature in character than her looks. Okay that makes me a proud...err.. Spouse?

That seems weirder to say.

I wonder how I say it out loud when in front of people but not to myself or to Eddy. What can I call that?

I did the right thing breaking up with Amarachi right? Yeah I did. She doesn't have a place in my heart any longer. I didn't realize that until yesterday. I knew she didn't but I kept forcing myself that she did.

Love can cheat but not hate. If you hate someone, you are sure you hate that person but love is otherwise. It's as witty as a serpent but as honest as white.

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I looked at the traffic light ahead of me while driving. It suddenly changed red so I pushed down the brake pad beneath my foot, slowing the car to a halt.

I didn't turn off the ignition since I was like the first on the row. I glanced at the rear-view mirror, sighting a lot of cars moving forward behind me.

This state is kind of better than my birth place, the traffic level here is a lot better than there. One could spend hours on the road that's why there aren't lazy heads around there. If you know what is good for you, wake up early enough for work if not you lose it.

What's wrong with me?

All I think about right now is Eddy. How am I sure this is even a good feeling. I know it is human to feel this way but it is also human to make wrong choices.

Eddy is a good person and I can't understand why my selfish heart is drawing towards a good one, one I don't deserve. I'm not sure she feels the same way, I guess I'm alone.

We had a wonderful time together at the cafe. The one thing I hardly do with my ex.

I'm already calling her my ex, good start.

Throughout our relationship, what Amarachi and I did was mainly make out with each other or she made me buy a whole mall for her while she just shopped.

Wait, is that even a life!?

The only fun is....

Engines turned on as yellow light shone. As soon as the green emerged from its doll covering, I shifted my gear lever, stepping on the accelerator to start moving.

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After twenty-three minutes of driving, I reached the estate. The estate is beautiful but nothing compared to the one we lived in back at home. I know this is temporary anyways.

Few seconds of honking, the security guard opened the gate to the house - the one Eddy and I are supposed to share. Pftt.. We can't even share it.

I drove in, my eyebrows knitting together as I saw a red Range Rover parked at the car park under the large cover.

Whose car is that?

I don't recognize such a car belonging to anyone I know, except maybe it's a new car belonging to them. It could be since the car is new.

I parked properly, unbuckling the seatbelt around me. I got out of the car in a relaxed mode, my eyes still fixed on the car.

Originally there were only two cars here, so whose is this and BTW why didn't the security guard inform me about my new guest who got into my house without permission. How did he even get past security?!

I shoved my car keys into my pants after locking the car. My steps were pretty much relaxed than I thought they would.

Opening the main door, I sighted nobody. My mind raced now.

Who could it be?

I walked into the living room, no sign of life. I decided to be quiet, if it was an intruder then the security would have told me.

The tension on my shoulders lessened as the thought flickered. I moved upstairs to my room to see if I could see the person. Sometimes guests want to surprise you, you know.

I swiveled the door knob and lo and behold, there sat the person I last wanted to see - Amarachi.

She was sitting on my bed, her left foot rested on her thigh as she massaged it. She dressed all red, not casually. A red gown, covering half her thigh which even revealed most of it as she sat.

"Oh, I forgot to switch off the light" She said, a smile revealed on her caked face. Which I loved on her.

What in the name of... Why in my bedroom of all places.

Anger crossed my face as I turned my back and left the room.

"Chris- Chris wait! " She yelps as she runs after me.

I stomped down the stairs but she gripped on the leather band on my wrist soon enough.

"Chris please " She begs

I ignored her, still moving my way down.

"Chris listen to me! " She screamed, letting go of me once we arrived at the living room.

I turned hesitantly to her, anger boiling inside me. After everything she did, she still has the guts to come here, no shame?

"Chris please " she cries.

"Chris please, Chris please. " I mimicked her. " Chris please is all too easy to say. Haven't you any shame? After all the sh*t you did, you still have the guts to show your face? "

"I'm sorry, I realized I made a mistake"

"Point of correction 'mistakes' " I retorted immediately.

"Mistakes? Whatever I'm sorry, I'm really sorry Chris. Can you forgive me? " She clasps her palms together in a pleading pose.

"That can do, now please go" I motioned her to leave.

"Not just your forgiveness, I need you back Chris. I've realized I can't live without you. At first I thought that it was going to be easy but no it wasn't. I spent sleepless nights thinking about yo- "

"What do you classify that as? " I asked, cutting off her sentence.

"Love... "

"Good, now get out " I took her by the arm, dragging her to the door but she freed herself from my grip and walked back to the center of the room.

"I told you, I've spent sleepless nights thinking about you..."

"Sleepless nights? Wow, good drama, exaggeration steaming through your nerves. How beautiful to say that, my heart has melted by your words... I'm... "

"You've changed Chris, this is not the you I once knew. What has she done to you? You were always so gentle to me, loving and-and... "

".....Gullible. I was a stupid puppet and you were my intelligent puppeteer. Good news is I've graduated from that school. I was always so quiet even after everything you did to me, I never said much words because I was afraid to lose you. You used me, you used that to your advantage. Now I'm no longer under your spell anymore"

"You are now under hers right? That tiny thing has taken over you." she spat.

"Eddy is nothing like you, not even close. And Eddy doesn't control me. Thanks for your lessons, I learnt a lot throughout our years of lovely relationship." I flared

"You promised me...You promised that you would never leave me, you said you were going to find a way. That marriage you said was a mistake and you were going to divorce that girl. Chris you promised me that, you made me put my faith into it." She said, tears lingering in her eyes.

I don't like seeing women crying but this is not the time for that. I've forgiven her but I certainly can't go back to her.

"Not all promises are meant to be fulfilled, some are meant to be broken so destiny can take over. Amarachi, please for Christ sake leave. You're forgiven but No, No I can't get back with you."

"Why! You now have another better than me - Eddy isn't it?! That is why you broke up with me right? "

"Are you crazy Amarachi? How dare you put an innocent in the picture. Everything you did prompted me to delete you out of my life but I held back, I held it all back. And yes, I broke up with you because you hurt Eddy." I flared at her

"You broke up with me just for her?! How... " Her face was a vicious mask.

"Shut up!... She is my spouse, my wife, my Eddy. No one hurts my wife while I'm alive and goes away free. Her name is Eddy Chris O'Neill. That name holds me in it so you better stay clear from her because that single name can destroy you." I warned, pointing my index towards her.

"Now get out." I moved my index to the door, behaving as collected as I could.

Fright and anger was written all over her face. "Please Chris don't do this, don't throw me out of your life, I'll kill myself if you do, it's a foolhardy decision." she mumbles on my chest.

I lifted my chin, looking away from her as her arms were wrapped around me. For a second I thought I should rethink. No, I can't give her another chance, that will be a mistake.

Her body was trembling and her hair was messy from the struggle. "Are you done?" I asked, looking down at her.

"Huh? "

"I gave you much time for the hug so now leave. It's late and I want to rest, I had a long day." I tried to pry her away from me.

"No no please, please don't do this." She pleads as she falls on her knees, holding onto my leg.

"Look, I don't like a woman prostituting herself in front of me. Do yourself some favor and leave before I push you out myself."

"Please..... "

"Amarachi get out for Christ sake!" I screamed.

She used my legs for support as she crawled up my body, holding onto my shirt.

I freed myself and went to my bedroom, grabbing her handbag and cellphone. I gave them all to her and dragged her out of the house while she screeched No.

I slammed the door, locking it afterwards. She kept on banging on the door. "I'm sorry, no one hurts Eddy." I whispered, moving away from the door.

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