Chapter 4

I was on my way to the Library when suddenly a guy caught my attention in the hallway..

He was holding a bunch of bouquet and on the other was a guitar.

His eyes met mine.

Hello? My name is Fedel Gracia.

I just want you to listen to me for a while, as he continued singing the song with a smile on that form lips like an angel.

I need to take a deep breathe! .

I can't control my feelings anymore, I feel like I am overwhelmed and excited with that cute face and a good looking statue, that scent coming from the flowers and a reflection of a beautiful soul, an angelic voice showing his love to a girl of his life.

I remain startled and looking back on how he effortlessly caught my attention.

I cannot stop my smile forming my lips sweetly lasts for a while and that song intimidates my heart flowing softly down to my spine and just could never imagine what I have just felt right now.

"I thought he was a nightmare"

But in the end.

He was a dream for every woman.

"My inner-self betrayed me from falling in love."

Hey? What are you looking at? Sarah interrogates me.

On the other way, she noticed me staring on the boy holding a guitar and a bunch of bouquets courting a girl exactly in the hallway.

Would you mind me asking?

Didn't you wish to feel special like that?

What ?! Asking her back.

I mean.. you are in the right age to experience that.

You were gorgeous, gifted and classy.

What? Is she telling me to date a guy now?

I'm smart yes? pretty? No way! and classy was just your addition to my true identity you know me exactly don't you?

"I replied".

Fedel?.

Sarah was calling Fedel which is near by us.

Why does he know Fedel? Asking my inner self.

And I was turning my back to her when she called me once again and I have no choice but to stay and just let her finished before setting in motion.

You were singing now? without hesitation bringing back her focus to Fedel now.

"What is it for? A new girl trend or a new victim? "

Sarah stop. he said..

I heard Sarah named that girl who was standing a little near us

-- as a victim or trend of Fedel?? --

What does she means about that?

A strange thought in my mind running about what Fedel's true color now.

Is he a playboy? isn't it so obvious the way he looks at every girls he victimized, Common!

I was just standing there clueless of what will happen next just until Sarah look at me on the other side and give me a sign convincing me to move to her direction.

He's my cousin- Fedel.

And Fedel my best friend Isabella.

She's actually declaring now that this Fedel I hate most in this school is her cousin.

Wow?! like I'm a bit confused.

How come they were cousins?

I mean Sarah was one of my closest friend in College since then I was studying here in this University and we're on the same dormitory, I've been through their house yet she didn't even mentioned me any of her relatives here except for the woman she calls her aunt who were in jail now.

yeah! exactly, her aunt is on the jail right now.

Ohh?? Okay nice to finally meet you?

He said with that cute puppy face.

He was trying to convince me to shake his hand on mine- back. He really was like an idiot who smirks like if he's hungry like a dog or what!.

No! I can't..

I remember that day he bumped on me.

What does he call me anyway?

wait.. I just smell something is going on Do you have something to say? or should I say for some reason.. .

Do you know each other?

Sarah was actually confused of how we both treat each other now, we're like best of enemies.

Yeaaaah! I got bumped into her when I was in a hurry one time. I think she might also in a hurry that time..

I had let him explain his side, but now I'm a little bit angrier because I feel like he's someone so proud!

I can't even read his reactions towards it. The fact that I just want to run away and leave this girl I call my best friend, If only I could.

Sarah? Can I excuse? Trying to exit myself from this sort of situation.

Where are you going?

My next class, this would be my perfect time to escape, I need to convince her to listen and let me go from this type of scenario.

Next class with?

She added.

Mr. De Castro is not around don't you remember? I know she knows how I feel so uncomfortable most especially now standing with this type of boy we have here.

At this moment I really do wanted to go to the Deans office, If only I had the power to do the things I want to do. Maybe I have let this guy in front of me to be suspended so that my life would be much more easier.

I was thinking of how I can stop this bastard of ruining my whole semester. He can't give me this thing to mess up my whole semester because I hate him that much that only I couldn't ran away...

I didn't even noticed I was making a scene, that unnecessary words at the back of my head revealing and I just shouted at him,

how this mouth of mine becomes so careless of being so much excessively hate this guy standing before me that my mind gets angrier and my mouth burst it out and yeah! I'm creating a scene to this place now!

I saw how Mrs. Rafaela- the Librarian came and I just keep my eyes continue rolling to the other side hoping she won't end up reprimanding me.

I actually forgot that we were on our few steps to the Library! Oh my!

How can I be so disrespectful?! It's all his fault!.

Mrs. Rafaela was standing infront of us, and I can see students who were looking on us earlier slowly running away to this certain scenario. We all knew how much Mrs. Rafaela becomes so terror when it comes to noisy people like me.

"Are you aware that Library is not for noisy people like you guys?"she told us.

Aside from that I hope you would keep your mouth shut if you were into a place like this."

Please be careful or else I will let and advised the DEAN for your actions.

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"What are you doing Isabella? Are you on drugs? Sarah was now facing me.

No! why would I do that?! I answered her sarcastically.

And why are you like that? she added.

I don't know! And I'm sorry I can't just give a damn space for my emotions earlier.

Oh? Isabella please wait.

Do you have something to tell me?

And I just nodded just as being my face was painted with a very big yes answer!

I don't like that man you call your cousin, he is someone who would mess my whole semester!

Oh my gosh!

"I'm sorry Isabella, whatever happens to both of you will remain only for both of you. I'll give you a privacy to it. Don't worry you'll be fine" Sarah.

After he forced me and almost pulled me to introduce myself to that man, he looks like a cute dog now while apologizing...

Well? .. . I can't give any reason not to forgive her. I am very grateful to her especially whenever I really need her.

She's probably my fallen' angel here on earth. Aside from being a pretty wonderful woman, she also has a good heart, that's why many boys on our school has a crush on her.

I just laughed at her with that idea and at the same time I put my arms around her telling her . .

"You're so cute, that's okay".

Next time don't force me to shake that man". . Okay?

"I will not do it again, I promise" she told me".

And her phone rungs, she take the phone call before asking a permission to leave.

"I'll go ahead, I'll go home first so I can practice later.

I'll call you later after practice okay? See you!!

I was alone again, looking at her who's now in a hurry leaving the hallway.

She's a type of girl who is responsible, very focused on what she wants in life and very resilient, she's one of the most strong woman I known in my whole life.

I'm out of the school campus when I remember what happened earlier, all was probably sinked in and I feel embarrassed everytime I remember it.

First important lesson today!

I shouldn't became so imaginative. Before that incident, I saw on my imaginations that man courted me. Like ewww!

Then second, I was suddenly shouted a word and that's also because of my imagination! ..

I feel so, so embarrassed. .

I shouldn't have done that, O my Gosh! that boy really mess my life and my career in this school, that angry face painted to Mrs. Rafaela's face is damn! threatening..

I don't care anymore if he saw all of my abnormalities, all I want to do now is to get him out of my mind and rest, just let things be.

Fast Forward **********

On my way to sleep, feeling comfortable with my soft comfy bed and comforter, I had decided to check on my social media accounts first, wanted to check if there's another update for tomorrows event, well'.. if happens this is the good time to check unto it, after a long day in school.

But something noisy I hear outside the dormitory.

If I'm not mistaken it was a noise sound coming from a can. I'm trying to fix my hair on my fingertips and immediately out from my room and had my way downstairs, checking if it's only my doormate Trexie.

And suddenly as I opened the door and had a few steps away from it.

A man just came in who is very drunk.

As I started calling him by name, and just stood in front of that handsome face like him..

"Isabella".

And I was slowly facing him now, the time and gaps between us slowly stopped by. I was a little shocked knowing the truth that the person who were very drunk and almost hugging me due to his drunkenness is no one but..

Fedel.

Why does he's so drunk?! I can smell that alcohol over his breathing.

Is something wrong with him? Does he have a problem anyway?

Asking my inner self realizing that this man I have now in my arms is someone I hated the most after then.

I was about to call Sarah from the other room yet I remember that I didn't noticed her entering her room since this afternoon .

Yeah! maybe she might have other nights out too. Tsk!.

It was too late to realized that maybe everyone was not there and I am the only person here on the dormitory. How I wished I just sleep and just let this man killed himself over his drunk body!

Aside that no one is answering me now, and for some reason no one could even help me with this idiot beside me!

I'm a little bit nervous because I didn't know how to help him out,

we're almost sitting on the grass which tends to be a playhouse of small insects, can't explain the things I experienced this past few weeks.

Where is Sarah??

He asked me with that funny face.

"She's not here".

I replied.

Oh I see, with a smiling face over it.

She's in the party?

He continue.

I don't know. Or should I say I have no idea, that's the only thing inside my mind.

If you're fine, go ahead and go back to your room. I commanded him that way!

Sorry for disturbing your sleep.

I know it might be a mess later on, that's how you hated me that much because you think I'm going to mess your life and career..

But I want you to ask this.

Do you hate me that much to simply just tell me where I should go? Fedel.

"No" I replied. But somehow that moment is something that really scares me,

I feel so weird knowing how on earth he knows those things. And I'm afraid that he is someone I don't want to mess with this time.

My life is not easy, and I am slowly realizing that I am more becoming that girl who's more disgusting than the characters on the stories I do.

While he make his steps away from me.

I was all scared to let him go.

I run towards his direction, closely stand by him and now facing him.

***Tonight, the stars are dazzling and my world stops, until he hugged me tight while saying***

I know you were coming back.

I wished that I'll see you again!

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I feel like I had this way before, it is something that I can't explain, even my heart feels something deeper, and it was all the feeling that seems so, so familiar.

I feel something greater than my fears. Something I'm afraid to lose again.

I'm sorry for not coming back. ---

And my tears started falling ...