Binibining A.

"Some think love is a gift, but it can be a curse as well. A voice calling to us from unfamiliar places. An echo of memories that will never die. No matter how hard we tried to kill them".

 It is not the future you were afraid of but it is the fear of the past repeating itself that haunts you.
 
  Senor Ferdinand to Isabella, either I choose to stay or leave. 
It's still gonna be the same pain in the end.

Even if the world changes, I will still love you

 I know he was expecting to be the man I would marry. After all, he did everything for my father, there were so many people had been sacrificed, because he have followed my fathers command, enable for him to have his blessings he need to do that for him. 


"I'm sorry' how I wished I stand for what is right". If only you knew everything. 


Everytime he remembers that I know he was haunt by his own conscience . . . 


And now he's holding my hand very tightly than it was. 


 We're almost there, and we can almost see the reactions of people coming infront of us. Something like they isn't agreed about. I saw how Senor Fedel bow his head and never refused or saying anything. I saw people talking behind our back and I know that they're just waiting for my father's reaction!.. 


Instead of letting me go, he still even hold my hand even tighter before facing my father. 


 I see those reactions on my father's face, I know at this very moment he was at risk. 


What does this mean?! While catching those reactions on the face of Senor Armando, but instead of making my father more angrier, he tried his best to be calm, I can hear those little fear on him, but he still manage to speak with sincerity, with an exchange, reciprocating him. 


"I love Isabella, and she's my life'. I can't live without her, you know that Sir,". Senor Armando told him. 


 Father continue started talking about deeper things, and suddenly just beat him!. I was shouting out of fear, it was my first time seeing him beating someone. And it was Senor Armando who gets him angrier this way.. . 


I asked Father to stop because the militaries was forcing Senor Armando to stand and they were all afraid of my father's power that he can do everything to hurt them. . 


 I cried harder for that was the moment I blame myself, I should have stopped Senor Armando from asking the blessings of the love we dream of, I love him but never ever seeing him sacrificing his life this way. 


 Father told my maids to never allow me to go outside the house, without his permission. 


 I was on my way to my room and my new servant Maria was with me, she stayed at me wherever I go. 


Before I stepped inside the house,Senor Armando- his eyes met mine, he's begging me to stay which I was afraid to do now because I know anytime father could've kill him. 


 However, I simply drop a letter which I made before my birthday. That was the letter I made before knowing about that fixed marriage and I wasn't wrong because they were planning it without me knowing. 


I want to left this place, nor this house, wanted to kill the sadness and cruelty of my father. 


 And most of all I want to leave the place where my heart doesn't belong anymore. I want to go with Senor Armando, and I know at this very moment he was reading my letter. 


 Everything will be fine, trust your love... 


I can't stop crying right now, I don't know what else I could do to change my father's decision. 


she just smiled back at me, a smile that was full of hope while saying.. . 


"I hope you'll find that love you dream to have Binibini" before going out. She closed the door and left me hanging there, she said I need some more time to think. And I keep believing that Senor Armando would find a way getting me out from here!.


Chapter 19