Chapter 21

Soul switching

I was sitting right next to my bed, I was looking back to the memories we had, before leaving me without any reason.

-Isabella

Are you okay?

Maria just noticed me holding the diary I left had the moment Senor Armando left me, he does the novel. And I feel how painful it was, but for me it is much more painful. I didn't understand why he needs to do this.

"You still haven't taking your medications" she was placing the two different labels of tablets and bottle of medicines, which I always take since then the doctor reveals my situation was currently under major depression.

The doctor told me he will be going to visit me atleast once a week for he doesn't know when I will be recovered.

I placed my head on the upper side of my bed, which I can only see a glimpse on the green curtain covering my window pane, and how exactly the birds coming in and out of my window. I lost the emotions I have during this time, which I known to be exactly me especially when it comes to people who's been already my life and most of the time I spend my whole life with, it was the same emotion I get when they left me.

"He will be going to Spain because he will be marrying someone". My father told me that one time, he always been the toughest person I know, he has a hard heart like rocks. He doesn't obtain emotions at all, nor mercy to people even if it is his family.

was it an absurd to know about how things seems so easy for him? yet I was the one who was suffering, I didn't even have the chance to tell Senor Armando how I felt since then.

I get back to Maria and ask her a glass of water. This time, I was hesitant and can't live my life any longer, My mother isn't here and the two people who cares for me had already left me.

I was pointing her the bottle of medicines, and before she had walked outside the room, she hand me a petal of flower while saying "If you need anything, just asked me". 'Please keep trying, don't be too hard on yourself".

How could be a young lady could just have told me how easy life was for her, she didn't even experienced these things.

I closed my eyes and keep reminiscing the memories. I'll be heading home safe, the next moment I dropped the glass of water and collapsed. I just remember the pain life brought me and the dosage was heading to poison me.

The people were coming in and out, at the sound of an emergency,

father was crying at the very side of the chariot were heading too, he said "he loves me , and that he will protect me".

I was there sitting beside him, forcing myself not to believe, I was wearing a white dress now, and I can feel how much peace that this situation brought me. Father is praying and suddenly hearing a little heartbeat on my heart hopelessly killing him inside.

"Keep fighting my precious daughter". He said I was precious, but how come he left me with no choice?

The next thing I remember I was sitting with great realizations thinking that maybe my dead body could be a way for change.

Senor Fedel I saw the one who drives the chariot heading us up to the hospital. But I was declared dead on arrival. I saw pieces of tears coming from his eyes, even that transparency of innocence I can felt his sincerity on me.

"She had committed suicide because she loves him, more than she loves herself".

Senor Fedel.

The last words I heard was someone who were calling me from afar, the person who's been my comfort- my mother.

I saw my mother was coming for me, she's smiling back at me and I can't refused to take her hand. When the door opens, I saw Senor Armando was coming in the hospital and was crying and that every step of the way Jeanna was with a teary-eye with him screaming for me to get back to life..

But how can I?

"Ysabella?? Aren't you're coming home? " That was mother just telling me to go back,

"It Isn't your time yet. Go back, get things done and be strong".

As she held me a petal of a red rose coming from somewhere, I get back to my senses and finally I was on my body, I scream for pain yet everyone was shockingly looking at me.

"She's alive".

But when I remember, there's nothing had change in me. I was still a ghost, a sad soul, and I was looking around who possibly took my body.

I saw her take a glance on me, while pretending to be me.

"She remain startled yet she's greeting me with a heavy face and emotion".

I'm back.

I remember everything. I was not into this world, I put my whole life to change the life which my grandmother must need to be done in appropriate. I committed suicide, I can't helplessly find my comfort when Senor Armando left, and now that I was trying to go back, but my body isn't welcoming me. There is someone who had took away my body and I know who she was and that was my great grandmother.

Isabella in the past (the same person who made my life this way) .. .

Greediness, selfishness and even jealousy put her inside my body. I tried to feel the warmth on it but my body was weak enough to welcome me, I committed suicide, and the only thing which would help me back there and finish my mission, is no one .. . but SENOR FEDEL which I known in the future I belong too.

I had forcely keep my scream into her presence but unfortunately I can't easily take her soul away from it.

Don't take my body, it isn't yours now.

You aren't living!! you're dead centuries ago... .

Instead screaming to my great grandmother, I was now screaming louder hoping that someone would have heard me, but then again, she comfronted me with anger and her eyes was slowly killing my existence, and with its glimpse she told me everything.

"You and me, I am you".

I could have live my life without anyone of you being born"

my great grandmother was a user, she didn't get me here to help her, but she wants a body for her to get back into life again!!!.