There are moments in a person's life when they know in their gut that their survival depends on immediate action. Their mind is screaming the signals to them. Say for example, when you are crossing the road and a car is speeding towards you. In that obvious moment, the natural reflex would be to step away as quickly as possible.
However, I was well aware that I fell in to the minor category of population who in that crucial deciding moment, became frozen on their spot. As if, waiting to be run over.
Such was this situation to me. I was asking to be wrecked.
Thinking about it now, I might've realised it when I caught the look in his eyes change; when he stalked towards me with the eyes of a predator. Or maybe, even before that, I had unconsciously started to piece together what I desperately wished to conceal. The truth which constantly pricked at my conscience but I pretended it didn't exist.