I'm Fine

I can't believe it. It's Cian. What is he doing here? And with Jane?

Cian is.. he's Chloe's brother. I just don't get it.. he never mention to us that he has a girlfriend well.. we know that he's dating someone but i didn't expect it's going to be Jane or not? Fuck what if he's really dating Jane?

This is such a bummer..

I'm close with Cian. Since he's Chloe's brother he's like a brother to me too. What to do now? Ugh. Seems like i can't really go on with my plan now. It's over. She's dating Cian.

"W-what is my brother doing here?!" Chloe asked me.

"Don't ask me. He's your brother you should know.." i sighed.

"I'm a busy person Aria remember? It's not like i always know what my Brother's up to. But hey cheer up they may not be dating right? I think so?.." she said awkwardly smiling to me.

"I don't think so...just look at them" i said sadly.

That's when we saw Cian gave Jane a peck in the cheeks and hugs her.

Friends don't act like that isn't it? Maybe yes?

I can't look at them anymore.. i can't..

"I think we should go" i said looking down and turning my back to them.

"Oh Aria.. alright. Let's go" she said grabbing my hand after she left a money in the table.

We head out and this time Chloe drove the car.

"So.. what now?" She asked me. Breaking the silence.

"I don't know." I plainly said while looking at the car's window.

Honestly.. i don't really know.

My life's really sucks. I shouldn't have let my feelings for her grow. Knowing she won't notice me and like me. I knew that she's straight as fuck but that doesn't even stop me from liking her. I'm so stupid.

It was admiration at first, as i fan. And i liked her more and more. That feeling grows.

I haven't even done anything for her to be able to notice me,I cant, i always chickened out it's like i'm loosing a game i didn't even played yet.

I mean.. how can i even fight right? If she's the girlfriend of Cian, it's over now.

"It'll be alright Aria " She said looking at me. I know she's trying hard to cheers me up.

This hurts like hell. Fuck. This is embarrassing i shouldn't be feeling like this . But for the second time.. I'm a feeling like this way again. I hate this.

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We went back to Korea. But we haven't talk for awhile now after what happened in new York Last week.

I don't know i just needed some time to think and to be alone. Emo time yes. Way to go Aria.

But Chloe, I know she's worried and everyday she's calling me, sometimes she will go to my house but i'm not around i'll just know when i got home there's always food in the fridge and she's living some notes.

"Hey baby.. you here alone?" Someone approached me being so touchy.

Naughty hands. I just ignored her and drank another glass of rum.

"Can i sit here with you?" Seriously what's with her? I know she can tell that I'm ignoring her.

"Do whatever you want" i plainly said.

"So.. I'm , wait aren't you Aria Saee-lim? " she asked while she playfully touching my hand. As if she doesn't know and notice in the first place before she approach me. Typical.

"Maybe?" I said rubbing my head.. damn i feel dizzy.

" Do you want to join me and my friends? You know have some fun a little bit?" She's annoying but i admit she's hot what am i even saying?

I had too much drink i should go.

"Next time?. I should really go" i said drinking my last glass of rum.

"Please? I swear it's gonna be fun c'mon!" Before i can say anything else she already drag me with her.

Persistent bitch.

I'm kind of drunk already 'cause everything is becoming blurry not to mention the music is too loud fuck my head hurts.

"Hi.." someone said. I don't know i can't seem to see their faces clearly.

"Hi there.. we are Chloe's friend.. I'm Eevie by the way" the girl said.

"I'm Jade" another girl said.

"Paige here"

"Uhm.. h-hey" i said and waved back not wanting to be rude.

I'm currently seated beside this girl named Ashley i guess. I don't know what they are talking about and i don't care know i'm to drunk to bother.

Fuck.. they still handed me a drink..

"Now now Aria.. drink it up! It's your turn now!"

"Yeah!" The other two said.

"Cheers."

God they are so loud. I don't care anymore..

So i did. I drank it all up.

The fuck.. it's tequila.. I guess i'm not that drunk to still recognize a drink. Or maybe not?

I laughed.

Are they making me more drunk? Shit.. I should really go.

What is t-thiss? I can feel something caressing my legs..

Why did i even drink so much? I can't even sit properly anymore.

"You are so hot do you know that?" She said whispering to my ears..

"You seem so sad.. " she said caressing my face.

"I can make you happy if you want we could have fun, just the both us." she's now trying to un-button my top.

The hell is she doing? Normally i would like this. But this is not the right time. And I can't seem to move and stop her from doing it.. too fucking drunk.

"I have a place near from here.."

Shit.. her face is too close to me. Is she trying to kiss me???!!

"Move your ugly face from her.!" I moved my head a little bit just to see a girl who's looking hot wearing a one piece dress, wearing shades with her crossed arms.

"And who the hell are you to tell me what to do?" Ashley yelled back.

The girl walked a bit closer to us.. and then she removes her shades.

"Nah uh." She raised her index finger cutting off the girl beside me.

"Girls like you don't talk to a Girl like me in that way.." she said while smirking.

Ashley and her friends seems a bit shook 'cause they didn't even manage to utter some words.

"I guess you already know who am i so.. move and get the hell out of here." she said while walking towards me and grabbing my arm.

"Let's get you home" she plainly said

She helped me walk untill we are inside her car.

"I know you are hurt Aria but you got to stop this." She said facing me..

"I know you've been going out and drinking again! and you've completely ignored me!! Y-you got me so worried about you stupid!" She said and now she's crying..

Why am i so stupid?!

"I-i'm sorry Chloe.. " i said and she hugs me.

"Shhh.. I'm sorry. Please don't cry. " i said why rubbing her back.

"I hate you!" She said while slapping my shoulder a bit.

"Ouch."

"I said i'm sorry" I said touching my shoulder.

"I hate you because you let that slutty girl touch you!" She said pushing me a bit.

"I hate you 'cause you're so stupid! You let her do things to you because you are so drunk to even stop her!" She's overreacting.

"I hate you i hate you!! If i haven't got there early you must be having a make out session with that girl ughh!! "

I chuckled.

"Are you jealous?" I asked while grinning..

It's not like it's the first time i do things like this.

I don't know but she looks so cute right now.

"W-what? Me?! No way!" She said looking away.

"Oh really? " i teased her again.

"Shut up ! you drunk idiot let's just get you home" she said..

"I don't want to go home. Let me sleep at your place Jaehwa~?"

"I don't want to" she said with an annoyed face arms crossed to her chest.

"Please??? pretty please?" I pleaded.

"No.."

"Please? Kang Jaehwa~"

"Oh god stop.I said no." She still refusing huh..

"If you don't let me sleep at your place then..."

"What?" She asked

"I'll kiss you"

"You bet!" She said glaring at me..

And so i did..

I close my eyes and i close the gap between us and kissed her...

and then everything went black.