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That gave me a heart attack. How? What? Jane is here. In Korea?. I mean so what if she is? Would i be glad? Well partly i guess i will but damn thinking she'll be closer to Cian well that thought is killing me. I'm just glad that Cian doesn't go to a same school with us. But Chloe here looks like she just saw a ghost.

"Hey? Chloe? you okay?" I asked her she seem so pre occupied. I don't know why she's acting like this since we are in the cafeteria earlier.

"H-huh? What?" See? I told you guys she's not okay.

"Never mind. What's wrong? Do you have something to tell me?" She really looks bothered and i'm beginning to be more curious.

"N-nothing's wrong. Why do you ask?" She said looking away.

"Don't lie to me Chloe. I know you" i said crossing my arms.

"It's nothing really.. i got to go to class now. See you later?" she said and left me alone in the hallway.

"She's being weird" i sighed.

So what now? I'm not really in the mood to go to class now. I groan.

I decided to go to my usual place, my favorite place.

I entered the room and wow i so miss this.

"It's been awhile pal" i chuckled.

Well it's my own dance room. My favorite place here in school. Inside has a lot of things i like, and upstairs there are books, Chloe's fridge that mostly all of the foods are for Her only, there are also some polaroid's that has been stick on the wall mostly Chloe's faces she's my sacrificial model anyway. I own this place but yeah sometimes i doubt it because of Chloe's things are all over the place.

I played some music and lay on the floor and stared at the ceiling. Yes i am in drama mode.

"Lonely Aria" i whispered to myself.

"Every time i'm beginning to fall for someone that's when everything started to go in the wrong way."

I changed the music.

I'll love you till it hurts like hell..

I started feeling the music and moves my body to the beat.

It's the only language i'm confident to speak.

To God breaks the spell..

I'm feeling so hurt to the person that doesn't even know me.

Am i stupid? This is ridiculous.

How can i bury this feeling?

When it's already been buried so deep.. so deep that it hurts.

I haven't even started yet..

I should be happy, i should be happy for your happiness. But your happiness is killing me.

You don't even have to try..

You say all the stakes are high..

I didn't even have the chance to tell you how i feel at least that would not make me regret everything.

Can you just let me?..

Let me love you just even from afar. As always?

When reality hits you.. it really hits you hard..

You are probably thinking of him when here i am thinking all about you. But honestly I'm glad you found him. I hope he will takes care of you and i know he will.

Possibilities all around me.. damn but that is all lost.

How will i even face you? I'm happy if you are here. But i don't think i could handle seeing you with him. I'm going crazy. This was just a simple crush that's all but why am i even feeling this way? I just feel blue. Because i like you.

I like you Jane.

I just hope there will be something to distract me from feeling this empty again.

I stopped dancing and just lay on the floor again.

"Shit.."

"This is so not me" i laughed at my pathetic self.

I'll just be your fan then, even before i'm just your fan watching and supporting you from afar without you even knowing i exist.

And liking you secretly.

I didn't attend the rest of my class and i decided to go to a salon. I know it's cliché it's like i am going through a break-up. I already decided to cut my hair off even before but i had my photoshoot so i still can't but now i think about it since i will not have a photoshoot for awhile. Why not do it today?

I want it short though. Not so short but just a shoulder length. How about the color? Hmm.. i am planning to have it just in my under hair. And make it Black again.

Just like my life, gloomy and black.

It's been awhile since i did this kind of hairstyle. I grew my hair longer because it was some sort off a promise i made to myself. But now i thought about it. I did well right? I mean Living.

I saw myself in a mirror. I smiled.

"It's been awhile.." I said to myself.

I kind of look like myself now.

"I see you.."

Before the meaning of love became Hatred to me. It is just all disappointment and despair.

But then that is when i saw her face.

She was shining.

Her smile is everything.

She is full of confidence.

Can you believe it? Experiencing something like you are in a movie? When things started to go slow motion?

Crazy. I was just sitting there from for away. A stranger among strangers. When our eyes met. It's like i forgot how to breathe.

I was just a shadow, but a light casted over my face.

Little did i know it was a light

Called.. YOU.