Realize

I woke up sweating like crazy, panting hard. I feel like there is no air and sucking the life out of me. I touched my face and realize i am crying.

I remember him again.

I saw his face again.

I suffered a lot because of him. And i am so done blaming everything on him.

I made some crazy and unforgivable things in the past and that is on me. I did it. My life was shitty and i let it get through me.

No more running. This is the real me now. I will not act as someone's shadow anymore. That was long gone. No more trying to be someone i am not.

I was in the dark for so long. But someone acted like a lighthouse for me. I saw her when i am in a storm. She saved me.