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When the warm water of the shower splashes on my body I feel relieved and relaxed.All the muscles in my body loosens and my soar sculp relaxes.I look down at my arms that are filled with scars and marks. Scars that I caused, scars that helps me and scars that made me forget of the pain for a while. I lightly stroke them and they begin to burn... They feel raw and soar.I grab the soap and start to wash all the sweat off my body and when I finially feel clean I start washing my hair and this makes me feel fresh.When I'm done I climb out of the shower and drape a towel around my body. I start drying my hair and stand infront of the mirror. Fog has gathered on the mirror and I slowly wipe it away still having a problem with looking at my reflection... Looking at myself. When I can see myself in the mirror I try to look at myself for more than five minutes but I can't so I just grab my tooth brush and start to brush my teeth. When I'm done I head to my room and start to moisturize my body making sure I don't touch the scars on my arms with the lotion. I put on my pajamas and brush out my tangled hair making one long braid and also making sure all my hair is neatly put to the back out of my face. My stomach growls and I sigh standing up, going to the kitchen to prepare me something to eat. The house is quiet without my mom here because she's the one that makes the most noise in the house. She's the one that watches television, I don't... I prefer to read and it's much more interesting and enjoyable.She says I'm like and old lady all cooped up in my room and my own world. I guess she's right I just wish she would come out of hers and pay more attention to me and my needs. I wish she would act like a real mother because I really need one right now but I guess I'll never know will I?