"Being a teenager is tough...you're still trying to figure out who you are and where you fit in, it's all about self discovery Heather," My therapist says in a calm voice.  "We are here to help you honey but we can't help you if you don't help yourself," My mother says with a voice filled with pity.Everyone around Heather sees her as this unstable teenage girl who clearly needs help but they don't know for sure what's wrong with her and neither does she. In this book of self discovery, love, passion and daring friendship Heather tries to make sense of who she is and if she's really insane, everything falls in to place with "1000 ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀs ᴛᴏ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ." In my head I am sane but in theirs I am not...

1000 Letters to myself

After the phone call my mood had changed from "I've got this and I'm ready to face the world" to "Yip that's life for you." I close my eyes and tears start to roll down my cheeks and I can feel my heart begin to beat faster and faster and then I hear the little loud voice in my head saying, "They will always think of you as the insane dramatic teenager and that's because you are! It doesn't matter what you do or what you say everything will stay the same and everyone will always see you that way! You're stupid, worthless and nobody wants or needs you in their lives so just die already! 


Chapter four