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As I went into a deep hole at such a young age my parents just grew further and further apart. We didn't even know what the word together meant. I had spent most of the time at Nanas house and I hated it because that's where Hayden and I basically grew up that's where we spent most of our time together and that's where I lost him and a part of me. I never thought I would climb the tree in Nana's front yard alone, I never thought I'd have to lay and look at the shape of clouds alone and I never thought that I'd be alone.

Things got worse and all I could do was watch as my whole life unraveled, it all felt like a nightmare but everytime I'd wake up I'd be living the very same nightmare. Mom and Dad couldn't stand each other anymore and they decided to separate and it affected me but not as it should have because I wasn't even there... Half of the time I was in a trance or either asleep.