Chapter IV

Chapter IV

I cheered myself up trying to feel better. I cooked a steak and salad at the side, made a fruit (orange) juice, I once again sat the dining table hoping that they didn't forgot that they're supposed to be going home today. I waited for minutes to hours but in the end I gave up I know to myself that they're enjoying themselves with that man while leaving me here longing for their presence.

My whole body hurts like hell, even heart keeps aching. I have to prepare myself to let them go. I started to look for an apartment to live in once I leave this house. A small one will do it's not like I'll be able to live there for a long time.

My thoughts keep going in circles if I should tell them or not, if I did I know they'll try to make me stay and force themselves to be happy being with me and I don't want that. I want them to happy without trying to isolate themselves with someone their unhappy being with..

I woke early at the morning seeing the two of them by myside, it's hurting me to know what they did before going home. A tear started to crawl down from my eyes I wiped it and went to the bathroom to cough, a cough that has a blood in it. I stare at myself with the Mirror and I look so pale honestly I haven't eaten a proper meal for the whole week it's like I just don't care anymore.

Today I  planned to talk to them about the situation, I know it's going to be painful but I don't want them to hide things and betray me behind my back. I already message the landlord that I'll get the apartment.

Jake and Jacob are already awake they have their tops on not like the usual when they don't even like wearing shirt while sleeping. How painful can it be knowing  the loves of your life is already happy with someone else.

The two of them just greeted me with one tedious good morning without the usual good morning kiss. I think I'll burst into tears any moment it's more painful than the pain I'm feeling every time I try to get up in the morning with my body feeling so weak.

"Jacob"

"Yes?"

"Why did you came home late? It's been a week since I last saw the two of you"

" Do we really have to tell you everything. "

Staring at me like he's annoyed with my question

"sorry, I'll prepare your breakfast"

"No you don't have to, just go take a bath and we will discuss something "

Jacob is the bold one between them sometimes his words are quite harsh but I got used to it, Jake is the gentle and humble person. They never introduced me to anyone nor declare our relationship even though we've been together for years now maybe with their closest friends but with their family? They didn't.

Maybe they're ashamed of me