Why Can’t It Be Him?

Parental Guidance is recommended, this chapter includes heavy topics. Nsfw warning!!

I never forgive Oikawa for the way he touched Daichi. I wanted him, I want him to push against me and never stop. Is that selfish? I look into the mirror, and I see myself. How could anyone, love me? "Get over yourself Iwaizumi." Yells with anger. I see my hair and I think about how dark it is. I wondered what Oikawa saw that made him touch me like that. The way he topped, I can't forget about him. Not after that. I look into my green eyes and I grab my phone so fast and I jump on my bed. A text from Oikawa? I open it, Wanna hangout? He texts.. I smile, and my heart stops. Why don't I feel my heart, and I pass out. I don't feel myself, I dream about him marrying me, and the way he looked in his outfit. Even at our wedding he wore his same outfit, he would never wanna take it off. I remember, I had to fight him for it. His number one, I loved that number. Cause I knew that I loved him every day he would wear that number. I could barely open my eyes, I see lights. They were red and I could hear a siren. It was so loud, "I wanna marry him." I say softly in my sleep. He looks at me, and It was still fuzzy. I felt my hand, and someone was holding it. I woke up in the hospital, and I say him there. "Oikawa?" I start to cry, he got up to wipe my tears.

He touched my face, and he would touch my eyes softly. "Iwa-chan please don't cry. I was worried about you." He gets on me, and he pushes down. "Not her-" I gulp, trying to breathe for air. He grabs me, and he jumps out the window of the hospital. The window shatters, and I look how far up we are. I get terrified, he just holds me. Closes his eyes. I start to sweat, "Oikawa what are you thinking? we are gonna- WE ARE GONNA DIEE!" I yell and we are about to hit the ground. I feel a hand the side of me, and he is whispering to me. "Iwa-chan wake up." He looks at me as I open my eyes, thank goodness that was a dream. He looks at me in shock. "You got hit by a car, you were standing in front of it. Why did you try to kill yourself? Do you know how selfish you are?" He says holding me tightly. What? I was in my room, and my head started to hurt. "Oikawa what happened the last few hours?" I say startled, and he looks in my eyes. "You were fucking me remember, we were dancing in the road. The car came and you stood there." He says holding back tears. Did he forget about me going home? That wasn't a dream was it? I try to think back to yesterday, and my head starts to hurt. Did I actually pass into a parallel universe? He turns of the lights, "you need to sleep", he pushes me down. He puts the covers on me and he sits right next to me. My head pounds. I wake up, in my room the next morning. What is happening?