I wish I didn't feel pain anymore...

He was the last person I called before killing myself. Ironic, isn't it? He let me die, he knew I was not well, that I was in pain. But he didn't care, he was only interested in himself.

In fact he knew I loved him, but instead of rejecting me he pretended not to know it. And then he went out with a girl, and he left me alone, broken, devastated. I should have known that the two of us were wasted. Fortunately, time has allowed me to move forward and heal my wounds.

I now remember why when I saw Aaron I thought he was the one who protected me from the rain with his umbrella. But it was totally wrong. He just looked like him.

I look at him for a moment before leaving. He and I were over, we had nothing more to say to each other. Suddenly a force held back my arm-

- Wait, we have to talk to me said Lewis

- We have nothing to say, you let go of me I replied in an icy voice

- Let me explain it to you, please he said in despair

- I promise you that after that, if you really don't want to see me anymore then I will leave, he adds quickly

Eyes thoughtful, I end up telling her-

- Okay but don't get me wrong I accept so that you never come back to see me again

- A little further there is a food shop, we will discuss there, we will go in my car we will go faster he said to me

I nod my head. I didn't care where we were going anyway. So we went to his car and got in. The ride began in silence before I broke it to ask her-

- How did you know it was me? I asked her with cold eyes

- Your appearance has not changed despite being in another world he finally told me

- Oh I replied

Upon your arrival promptly at this shop. He parked the car, then we got out and headed for the store. We both had a hot drink and sat down on an empty table.

- So what did you want to tell me? I asked him with indifferent eyes

- You know Ruby I never meant to hurt you. It was your parents they told me that if I was too close to you they would hurt both of us and the people around us he said in a voice full of regret

- Let's imagine what you said was true, if you really thought of me as your friend you would have made sure to comfort me the times when you knew they could never know what we were doing. You are looking for excuses I tell him ironically

- I broke up with my girlfriend. I want the two of us to be together and if you don't want us to be friends again he said to me with his eyes a little red

- You know that reminds me of what my grandmother used to say to me: "It's when you really lose something, that you start by loving it". And in your case this sentence suits you very well I tell him in a tone that is always so ironic

- Please Ruby think about it, you know when you left, nothing was right. You are the most important person to me he begged me

- You don't know how long it took to forget you. And when I finally manage to forget you you want me to put you back into my life. All the pain, all the humiliations I had to endure because of you. All the tears shed for you. You didn't care, you didn't even care about my feelings. All you cared about was you. I'm sorry, but life is not a bag of crisps that you open and close when you want. I guess you already know that I killed myself because of you, I said indifferently

- O ... yes he finally told me, whispering

- You can go, a friend will come and get me, I said, not bothering to pay attention to him

He left, turning around a few times to look at me. I knew he bitterly regretted what he had done. But it was too late to want to be forgiven. He had what he deserved after all.

I took my phone and dialed Jeo-sung's phone number. Me and he had ended up reconciling and becoming the best friends in the world. It's hard to believe not true. I promise next time I'll tell you how we made up.

- Hallo?

- It's me Ruby

- What's the matter ?

- I am in a lost place, you can come and get me please

- You shouldn't be with Aaron he told me in a little weird voice.

- Yeah, but he had something urgent to fix

- I'm coming, I have to tell you something important, that's great

- Ok you will tell me when we see you, by the way, follow my geolocation to find me it will be much easier I said laughing

- Don't worry, I'm managing, he said to myself before hanging up

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Twenty minutes had passed before I saw him come to my table and sit down across from me.

- What's that head? I say laughing

- J..I Ruby he started to stutter

- What did I say frowning

- The person who has all the threatening letters in your locker he said looking me straight in the eye

- I know who it is he ends up adding tense

- Tell me I tell him still frowning

- Aaron he whispered to me

- Are you ... sure that I ended up telling him with difficulty

- Yes I saw him with my own eyes put this letter in your locker he said to me, handing me the letter

I take the letter that seemed so familiar to me. For several weeks I had found it in my locker. It was written threats as always and this time a date.

- I ran into Aaron… he told me

- Yeah I know ... he came home I told you I answered him

- Except that he did not go home, he was with his fiance in a restaurant, he confessed to me

- I put a sensor in his phone, you want us to listen to their conversation? He asked me hesitantly

- Yes I answer him without hesitation

He placed his phone in the middle of the table and handed me an earpiece.

Over time, I understand. Aaron had been involved in my harassment, I guess he didn't want me to ask, which is why he accepted all of his boyfriend's requests.

Her fiance, Chi-sun didn't like me at all since she asked him to put threat letters in my locker.

What surprised me the most is the fact that Bong-Chae who is my childhood friend participates with Aaron and Chi-sun in my bullying.

I don't remember how I managed to get home. Smile at my parents when this discovery hurt me. I had no idea how to react.