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Jakes POV

I shushed Callie gently, inwardly hoping she wouldn't wake y/n. Callie has started waking up in the night more, and I hated how much it consumed y/n. She was constantly exhausted but didn't complain once, so I was hoping she wouldn't wake up at Callie sniffles.

I bounced her gently, and soon enough she was quiet and becoming sleepy.

I kissed her head before tucking her back in under the blankets and she slowly dozed off.

Y/Ns POV

Callie wasn't the only one waking up during the night. I had started having horrible dreams, id never had before.

The day I met Jake, was traumatic, but I focused on Jake and how he made me feel that day, rather than dwelling on the situation I was put in. I mean it wasn't every day a gun was held to your head.

I had started regularly dreaming of the same situation, but Callie and Jake were in the distance shouting for me, Callie crying. It was like I couldn't get to them no matter how hard I tried, and I always felt the grip of the mans arm around my neck tightening until I woke up in a sweat, breathing heavily.

I considered telling Jake but that was stupid. Nightmares were childish and it felt so dumb making such a big deal of it when it wasn't real.

It felt very real, but I had to keep reminding myself it wasn't.

The dream was almost every night, sometimes multiple times a night and it was exhausting me.

Jake was concerned but thankfully he put it down to Callie's messed up sleep schedule.

Me and Jake were supposed to look after our baby Callie, and not my stupid imagination.

One night it was worse though.

This time it wasn't me being choked, it was Jake and Callie was standing next to him, screaming.

I felt the tight sensation on my neck even though it wasn't me getting choked in a headlock.

My screams came out silent as I tried to move towards him, but my movements were in slo-motion, even though my mind was racing 1000miles per hour.

I couldn't wake up no matter how hard I tried.

Jakes POV

I woke up, confused and saw y/n had a terrified look on her face. It took me a second longer to realise she was asleep, and shaking slightly.

I reached my hand to her face to try wake her up and realised she was covered in sweat. She must be having a really bad nightmare.

I gently shook her, "y/n, y/n wake up"

She jolted awake and looked at me in shock before her face switched to relief

This was really worrying

She quickly turned back around away from me and lay down,

"I'm fine Jake, goodnight" she said shakily as I sat in awe at what just happened.

I didn't want to annoy her so I lay back down and stared at the ceiling.

I suddenly heard a tiny whimper from y/n, and realised she was crying...

Y/Ns POV

I bit my lip hard as I tried not to let Jake hear me cry.

I couldn't put this stress on him, he probably thought I was insane.

Suddenly he sat up again and leaned over me to see my face. I quickly tried to cover it with the duvet, but he had already seen how upset I was. He softly pulled me up next to him and interlocked his fingers in mine

"Y/n, what happened?"

"Don't worry jake, its really nothing, I'm just being stupi-"

"No you're not." He cut me off firmly, "I just want to know so I can help, but it's okay if you don't wanna talk about it."

"No I do" I said quietly.

I looked down but Jake caught my eye, and held my gaze.

I swallowed, " well, I keep having these dreams, that are kinda similar to the day we met, except you and Callie are watching, but tonight you were in my place, and I was trying to help you and Callie but I couldn't and...I'm sorry it sounds so dumb now I say it out loud."

Jake sighed and looked me dead in the eye, "y/n, what happened that day was not okay, and it's amazing it's only coming back to you now and not way before. People develop serious issues from things like that, you've done so well. Maybe if it carries on you should see a therapist, just for closure but it's up to you."

I nodded through my tears and Jake pulled me close.  I realised I was getting his T-shirt all wet and tried to pull away, but he kept his arms tightly around me and stroked my hair.

I breathed in his familiar scent, relaxing into his arms.

I don't know how long we stayed like that but he refused to let go until I started yawning, ready to sleep.

Even then, after we lay back down, he wrapped his arms around me from behind and kissed my neck sweetly.

I felt so much better telling somebody, especially Jake. I was so lucky he was here for me.

Jakes POV

I felt awful, y/n had to go through that, I remember it so clearly, and I couldn't imagine how it felt for her.

When I heard her breathing slow, and deepen, I felt so relived. I wasn't going to let anything happen to her, and it was important she knew that aswel. I loved her too much.