SILENT TREATMENT

When Nikhil asked, "you would feed me first right?" I didn't know what to say, but I wanted to be honest with him, so I said, "No Nikhil, I'd feed you after feeding Veer. Even now, I was about to feed you after Veer,but you left."

Nikhil said, "Oh, I'm sorry, I left just like that. I thought you'd feed me first, but I was wrong, I forgot that you also have Veer in your life and you'd feed him first." I said, "Nikhil what's wrong? why are you talking like this?"

He said, "What? What did I say wrong? Being your boyfriend, is it wrong to expect you to feed me cake first instead of your best friend? Tell me" I said, "No, it's not wrong. But try to understand Nikhil. Veer is family, After my parents it has always been Veer for me. Now that I have you in my life, I cannot throw him away right?"

He replied, "I did not ask you to throw him away Dhrithi. I just said, you should give me more importance." I said, "Yes, you have your importance in my life. I came out with you for lunch without even informing Veer. Every year on my birthday, we would spend time together. Even today he didn't go to hospital, so that he can spend his day with me. Still I came out with you, because I love you. And I'll always give you your importance."

He said, "So, you're saying that I should be happy that you came out for Lunch with me." He said, "Nikhil it's not like that. You're getting it wrong totally. All I'm trying to say is that, everyone has their known importance in my life and I'll act accordingly."

He said, "You know what, just leave it. You go in, I'll come back in 2 minutes." I said, "Nikhil, why are you getting angry? You know about Veer from starting, you also know how important he is to me. Then, now why are you behaving like this."

He said, "I know about Veer from the first, but then you were just my friend. But now you're my girl friend. You won't understand, just leave it. I don't want to fight with you. I'm going in, you come whenever you want to" and walked inside. I stood there, what should I do? That's when I remembered my father's words, "You cannot make everyone happy and at the same time you cannot hurt either. So, you have to think before doing anything."

Then I stood there and thought for a while, then I understood that it was not wrong on Nikhil's part. Like every other he was expecting his girl friend to give him priority. But I couldn't do that. I don't want to change anything because now I have Nikhil in my life. I want everthing to be like, how it was earlier and there I'm wrong. Since, I've hurt Veer in the afternoon, I didn't want to do anything to hurt him. But things do change, when a person enters your life. So, I should also change a little. I should have fed Nikhil first, after all he's my boy friend.

For me, both are important, and I ended up hurting both of them. I went in, everyone were having Dinner. Slowly guests started going, I looked around for Nikhil, he was going upstairs. I slowly went upstairs after Nikhil has gone. I was searching for him in all rooms, and lastly I went to my room to see if he was there.

I found him coming out from washroom. I immediately locked the door and that's when he noticed me. He said, "What happened Dhrithi? Why did you close the door like that? Anyone might come in."

I smiled and said, "I wanted to spend sometime with my boy friend who is apparently angry with me." He said, "Dhrithi it's not the correct time for all these things. Guests are there downstairs. It wouldn't be nice" walking past through me. I held his hand, turned towards him and pulled him to me. I wound my arms around his neck and said, "Don't worry about guests, they are leaving anyway. Right now you should concentrate on your girlfriend."

He said, "Yeah right" and removed my hands around his neck and was about to move, but I didn't let him. I kissed on his right cheek and said, "I'm sorry" I then kissed on his left cheek and said, "I understood that I was wrong" I then kissed on his forehead and said, "I try not to hurt, but always end up hurting one of you." I then kissed on his right eye and said, "All this is new for me, give me some time" I then kissed on his left eye and said, "I'll try my best" I said, "I'm sorry" against his lips and placed my lips on his. But did not kiss him, he started kissing me. We broke apart after a toe-curling kiss. I kept my forehead on his and was breathing heavily that's when he said, "It's okay baby. Don't get so worked up, I understand" After standing for a while, he said, "I think, we should go down" I nodded my head and then we went downstairs. By the time we reached, everyone left. Only Veer, Raj uncle were left. Nikhil bid bye to everyone and went. Then Papa said, "Come, let's have dinner." We all moved towards the dining table and sat on it. We had dinner together. Everyone were talking, but Veer sat there silently. I decided to talk to him after dinner.

After dinner, Raj uncle and Veer was about to leave, I turned towards uncle and said, "Uncle, please let Veer to stay here for today" He said, "From when did you start asking me? You guys decide and inform me" and looked at Veer. Veer without looking at me, said, "No, Papa let's go home. I'm very tired today." I turned towards him and said, "Please Veer" He said, "No Misti, I'm very tired today. Also I've to go to hospital tomorrow early in the morning" and I didn't say anything to him, what can I say infront of everyone. So, I kept silent and he left.

Next day, whole day I couldn't concentrate on my work. I was only thinking about Veer. From Raj uncle, I got to know that he has a surgery today. And he'll be free only after 3 pm. I wanted to ask him, if I can leave early today, but I guess he understood it. He said if you want to leave early, you can but finish your work before leaving. So, I started doing my work. And it was 2.45 pm, I wrapped up everything and left to his hospital. By the time, I reached his hospital, he was leaving already. I called him, but he didn't hear me. So, I followed him till his home.

I directly went inside, Veer was not there in the hall. I asked the helper about Veer, he said that Veer has gone to his room and he'll be down within 10 minutes. I wanted to talk to Veer so badly. From yesterday night he isn't talking to me properly and he didn't even reply to my messages. I went to kitchen and made coffee for him. And then I went to his room and knocked his door. He said come in and I went in. He was shocked seeing me. He said, "Misti what are you doing here? You should be in office right" I said, "I came here because I wanted to talk to you." He said, "Sorry Misti, but I'm very busy today. I just came home to have eat something. I have to go back again." I said, "But uncle said, you'll free now."

He replied, "No, papa don't know my schedule. I really have to go. Let's talk later if it's not important, I'm really very hungry." I said, "Ok, you have your coffee first, I'll go down and see if there's something for you to eat."

He said, "No, I don't want coffee now, I asked kaka to prepare something for me. He must have made something. I'll eat that." I said, "Ok, as you wish" because I know he's angry with me, that's why he's not having my coffee.

We went down, he started eating. But didn't utter even a single word and I didn't say anything because he was looking really tired. He ate it and then said, "Misti, I'm going to hospital. Even you go home or go out with Nikhil" and went away. I stood there and watched him going away. And don't know what to do? How to convince him. This time he's really hurt, because he can never be angry with me for this long. He's avoiding me from yesterday. He's not even looking at my eyes. He's talking just plainly and not even showing his angry. If he shows me anger, then I would have been happy, but this silent treatment is too much to handle for me.