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[ Suga POV ]

"Hey guys." Heidie said while joining us together.

"Heidie are you working for NASA? Or did you find any kind of job in Area-51?" Mingyu asked her.

"No. Why are you asking?" She asked him trying to hide her smile. She knows what is the answer of this weird question yet chooses to ask every time.

''Cause you are acting all mysterious." He replied while chuckling.

"Yah! Don't tease her. I bet she is on a bad mood. Don't make it worse." Alondra said to him while jokingly hit him.

"Guys I know I am a bad person. But believe me my situation is worse than that. Please don't make it more.'' A girl whispered.

I still remember how I met you Heidie. I can still hear your crying. I clearly remember every little suffering you went through Heidie. And now looking at you makes me feel so proud. So many emotions run through my body when I see you. How can a girl so sincere and so determine beg to be believed? I sometime ask myself how you felt when you had to throw your agony to beg them to trust you. Now looking at you is like trying to solve a riddle from far away. Yet being slowly captured in that puzzle without noticing.

"Suga don't make it so obvious!" Sage whispers to me.

"Huh! What?"

"Brother I know you like Heidie but don't stare at her like that."

"Like what?"

"Don't act all innocent. I am your brother and I grew up with you." He said rolling his eyes.

"So?"

"So, I know you well. Don't lie to me and don't pretend with me."

"Like I care?''

"Yes you should care."

''Suga." Here she is. Calling me. It sounds cheesy but I like how her those beautiful lips says my name.

"Yeah?" Ohh you make me feel so many things even without knowing Heidie.

"Why are you brothers ignoring the beauties?" Melina asked while pouting.

"Beauty? Where? Whom?" Sage asks looking around.

"Sage, Shut Up." Melina glared at her.

"Why? Do you consider yourself as a beauty Melina? Duh! Stop dreaming already." He roasted his own girlfriend while rolling eyes.

"Everybody is a beauty Sage. Don't comment on others appearance Sage." Heidie said with a dark expression. I know that she had Cacophobia. A phobia where people fear ugliness and unpleasant appearance. I always watched her being traumatized about her features. But seeing her talk back makes known feelings rise in my heart in a unfamiliar way. I know Heidie that in your heart you fear being ugly. You want to be pretty. And I want you to feel pretty. Even though you act like you don't care about how people think of you, you care about how people who are close to you think about you.

''Suga...Can I ask you something??"

"You can ask anything.."

"Am I Ugly?"

"What? Who said this rubbish to you? You are so beautiful Heidie. Don't have insecurities."

"Really? Are you speaking the truth?"

"Why do I need to lie to you? You are one of the campus beauty. A well known perfectionist. You know that better than me."

"Then why do I always feel I am ugly?''she mumbled.

"I know beauty is not the only thing. You don't have to act so serious about this matter. Just chill." Sage laughed while surrendering to Heidie.

"Yah! Does that mean Heidie things I am ugly, so she protected me?" Melina said while screaming. This girl really knows how to make fun of her ownself.

"Really? Heidie!! How could you? My sister got this awesome genes from me..not my parents. You indirectly called me ugly to. You heartless human." Mingyu said dramatically while wiping his not existed tears.

"Yes Heidie look at us...Our visuals are entheal beauty. Such beauty was created personally by the god. How can you think of us like that? Sage has eye problems. But You? You broke my heart dear.'' Alondra joined this melodrama.

''Guys you are the most beautiful and handsome people I have ever seen. Now forgive me." Heidie sighed while saying that.

"Okay but guys are we letting this day go just like this? Guys Our Lady Devil fought back today. We should celebrate." I wanna change this topic so damn much.

" And for calling me ugly, Heidie you will pay all of our bills today." Melina said.

"Obviously! We are celebrating because of her. It's natural for her to treat us." Mingyu agreed with his siblings.

"Yeah it will make her mood better. We should go." Alondra added. I like this girl for her thoughtfulness so much.

"Bro, Let's party!!" Sage pulled me to who knows where.

"Okay then." Heidie softly smiled before following us.

[ At Night; Heidie POV ]

I got better than before after spending time with them. Alondra is right. Spending time with friends reduces stress and anxiety. This weirdos are really making me believe in friendship again. They are a light of hope. A hope that helped me. This hope didn't push me toward destruction. This hope wasn't pitiful or filled with pain. This hope was so magically awesome. This hope is something special that happened to me.

Unknowingly a smile formed on. But it didn't last long.

"What are you doing here?" I asked with a frown.

"I just wanted to ask why?" He replied with a casual tone. Just as before. Just like how he didn't give a damn about others. That look. That same old look which makes my heart beat like it's gonna come out.

"What why?" I asked. You still make me go crazy about you Adryan. Even after all this shit, you make feel butterflies.

"Why did you attacked her this morning? I want a clear explanation." Those eyes are still so cold. After so many days, the way you look at me didn't changed at all. Even after knowing the truth, seeing you be this obvious, I feel bitter.

"Do you really want the explanation or apology???" The coldness in my voice is same as yours now. How do you feel Adryan? Do you even realize how you changed me??

"An apology. You can't hurt her." He said to me like he was giving me a warning.

Huh? Like I care Adryan. I might like you but you fucked me up a little bit too much. Why should I apologise to that whore?

"People apologize when they are wrong. But this time I was wronged." I answered. You disappointed me Adryan.

"Shut up. Who wronged you? Did you eat garbage? Oh I forgot you ARE a garbage." He rolled his eyes.

So just like she said, you think of me as a slut. Don't you? You have a image of me set in you mind. For you I am just a bitch. No matter how much I try or no matter what I do, you will never change your thoughts. Forget it. Now who cares about how you think of me anyway.

"I think you are describing yourself. Do you want me to say something?"

"You are annoying as always." He scoffed. Yes, I know you find me annoying. Congrats. I find me annoying too. Not that I care.

"And you are a joker. Do you suffer from brain injury?" I rolled my eyes.

"Forget it. Talking to you is like eating shit. No use at all." He said before walking away.

Just like back then, I am standing here watching you walk away from me. Even though I don't want you to go, it's better if you are not here. You can hurt me with just a simple action Adryan. You don't know how many things you make me feel. You son of a bitch! You hurt me so deeply again. Never knew that if you find me annoying, it will still matter to me.

I hate you. Just like you hate me. But this hate is kind of special. You are different. Even though I know what you are going to do, I still expect from you. I know there is nothing among us..but I hoped there was. Well not anymore. Just like you I also have so many changes now.