I do not have time……

Shutting off your heart does not necessarily mean that you are being cruel. Sometimes we just shut ourselves from a part of our emotions, thoughts and expectations. We just shut a part of our self in a way that we ignore that part so that it cannot hurt us. We end up caring more about the other parts of our life. The ignore part becomes just like an abandoned child having a home but no one to care about. 7:12 pm On the corner of the Blues Café two figures were standing. One had a long black coat and head covered with a scarf. She was wearing an orange shade. The other had a blue hoodie and white jeans. She put on a black shade according to the instruction of Helea. Alya observed Helea top to bottom even going under cover as she claimed this girl managed to look good, “ Why do we look like someone who is going to kidnap someone.” Helea looked pissed at her , “ We can’t show that we are here to follow Megan.” She looked at the entry and signaled with her hand to follow. Alya followed her at a normal pace she felt sleepy. They took a table at a corner. Alya took off the shades, “ Are you sure she will be here? It’s the night when Fionn sings she will be here.” They ordered a plate of cheese puffs. A few minutes passed by Helea kept looking here and there and once in a while typing in the phone. She seemed pissed trying to ignore something in the phone yet looking at it after every few minutes. Alya bite on one of the puffs looking at her , “ Is everything alright?.” Helea, “ Yes everything is fine I am just looking for Megan.” Alya took another one and popped in her mouth she noticed Megan sitting in the front row close to the stage curtains, “ Uh Megan is right there.” She pointed Helea to the table. Helea wanted to jump up and see but she was stopped by Alya. Alya, “ Calm down she might see us. You do not look like nothing is wrong type you look agitated.” Helea sighed and sat down. “ It is nothing I just had a little fight with Aiden.” Alya made an ‘oh’ shape mouth, “ Want to talk about it?” Megan shook her head and dismissed it. Alya nodded she understood that it was wise to maintain silence. She looked away from her and focus on Megan. She was looking at the curtain with excitement in her eyes. Alya, “ This is a bit different. Um can we not just ask her? I mean she is right in front of her.” Helea shook her head, “No I do not want her to feel we are invading her personal space.” Alya felt confused, “ But we are invading anyway.” Helea shook her head. The light dimmed down, Fionn walked to the stage sat on a high stool took his guitar. “ This is a song I heard from my hometown please enjoy.” Alya enjoyed the song she looked around and observed the room. The guy has everyone’s attention , she nodded well he is talented. She closed her eyes leaned back and enjoyed the song. When it finally ended she opened her eye to look at Helea looking at her phone. Alya looked at her “do you think it is okay not to talk about it? It is clearly bothering you. If it is not me just talk to him.” Helea, “ You are right I am being silly this is nothing to be angry about. I should talk to him.” “Talk to me about what?” Aiden stood beside them. For a while they looked at each other. Then not caring about anyone else Helea hugged Aiden. Alya looked here and there then she just slide away she walked a few step and there they were another couple or maybe they will be Fionn was talking to Megan at the bottom of the stage. She took a few steps back and turned to see Aiden and Helea holding each other’s hand and talking about something they were smiling. The door was close to them. It made her sigh why am I stuck in the middle of this. She walked and sat at the only place where she can disappear in the café the bar. She pulled her hoodie up more to hide her face. “Is that Sarah I see?” Alya looked up to see Tom. Tom had the bag of news in the office you want information about someone he will give you detailed reports. “ Hi and I am not here okay?” The last thing she wanted was to be part of the gossip club subjects. Tom grinned “Sure you are not here and also Helea, Aiden and Megan none of you guys are here.” Alya slapped her forehead “You noticed everything didn’t you?” Tom looked like someone with a pointed nose “ Who did you think gave Helea the insight about Megan?” Alya sighed “ When will I be able to get out of here? I am so sleepy.” Tom, “ Why get out this seems good both of your friends.” Alya sneezed a bit , “ Yeah they are nice, but I wanted to sleep a bit tonight. What are you doing here? I did not see you here before like behind the desk” Tom, “ Cold? Let me get you something.” He bought a coffee with a whipped cream on top. Alya looked at the cup it had caramel syrup on it. She smiled and took a sip of it. “ Wow this tastes really good thank you.” She erased her upper lips to remove the line of foam that formed. The warm drink under the whipped cream felt really good for her throat. Tom smiled grinned at her. Alya looked around she could see both the couples still talking to each other. It made her shake her head and focus on the coffee instead. ‘ I might not be able to get out of here that fast.’ Tom, “I don’t work here I am just replacing my brother for the week. He is giving exams. They look so cute right? I wish everyone has a cue love story like that.” Alya, “ Mhmm I guess.” Tom looked at her with curiosity in his face, “ You do not like it?” Alya had thoughts trying to invade her head she moved them away, “ There is nothing to like or dislike in this. It depends on the people falling for each other.” Tom, “ I would like to fall in love like this nice story and chance meeting……” Alya looked at him moving around and explaining sceneries, “ That is a lot of criteria.” Tom looked at her with sparkling eyes, “ A guy can dream right?” She smiled at him “This is interesting you have anyone in mind?” Tom shook his head and sighed. Alya’s phone vibrated it was Helea. She must be searching for her. Alya looked at the phone again and avoided picking up the call. She looked back a little bit both Aiden and Helea was standing close to the door they look like they will get out the place. ‘This will not be the right time to get in between’ them she thought. She texted her she left the place and put her head down to be undetected in the place full of people. She did not need to if a person need to find anyone they need to stand up. Tom, “ Will it be a good thing to avoid them?” Alya, “ I do not want to be involved so much. They need their space.” She looked at the phone then looked at the door a bit. Tom nodded and smiled at her, “ Aren’t you considerate towards your friends? What do you think would you like a partner like that?” This time the memories before the memory came forward she got up and paid for the coffee. She looked at Tom the smile expression did not come to her face this time. “ I do not have time for this I am busy after all.” She bid farewell and left the place. This time she did not check if Megan was there or not. The surrounding sound became dim. Alya yawned a bit ‘Finally I might get some sleep. This couple matters are a big headache.’ The moon did not show this time in the night sky it is all cloudy. The wind started blowing again it might rain soon. ‘ Maybe I should sleep a bit more for tomorrow’