Chapter 9:You're Me

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'D-Damn It' As Izach Cursed In His Thought. One Of His Arm formed a fist. While He Frowned.

"U-uncle??" A Voice of Young Girl Entered Izach's Ear. Her Voice was Filled With Worries As Just As Izach Looked at her Empty Face.

'What kind of Face Should I Use?' as Izach Think, He Was Afraid of What He Should Do. Fear of not Meeting a Childs Expectation a Fear of Failure a Fear of Being look Down Upon. Continuously Eat his Mind.

-'What'

-' How Should I Answer??'

-' N-no'

-' How can I Explain it to Lily?'

-'N-No!!'

-'H-hi-'

"Uncle!!" As Lily's Voice Entered Izach's Ear. Izach Snapped back to Reality Due to Lily's Voice.

"W-what is it lily?" As Izach Answered While Putting A Grin on His Face. ' I-I Shouldn't Be Spacing Out.' As Izach Reminded Himself.

"W-what Happened U-uncle?" Lily's Voice Was Filled With Concern For a Child Like Her Seeing an Adult Like Izach like This.

'D-Damn i-it, W-why A-are Making H-hear this...' As Izach Said To Himself as He Clicked His Tounge and His Expression Darken.

"A-are you Okay Uncle?"

"Y-Yeah L-Let's Go" As Izach Said. While He Gave a Short Glance as and Smiled. Then he looked at the Road Ahead Avoiding Lily's Empty Face.

As Izach And Lily precariously Search For Lily's Mother. Izach's Gazed Remain Infront as He Hold's Lily's Small Hands as They Both Walk At the Busy Streets of the Capital.

As Izach And Lily Walked At the Busy Streets of The Capital Izach's Heart Began To Race. As His Heart Beats faster and Louder As Each Step His Vision's Slowly Turned White.

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'This Again Huh?' Izach Said to Himself As he Gazed at the Door of His Bedroom.

[Young Master?] A Young Made Slowly Entered Into His Bedroom Delivering A Tray for Lunch. As The Maid Slowly Entered the Room She Saw A Young Child. The Maid let Out a Deep Sigh as She Gazed at the Young Lord.

[Here Is Your Favorite Lunch Young Say "Ahh"] As The Maid Slowly Spoonfed the here Young Lord.

'How thoughtful' As Izach Gazed at The Maid And His Younger Self. he Walked Slowly Looking and Waiting for the Young Maid to Finish Feeding His Empty Body. He Took a Closer look at His Younger Self.

Izach Clicked his Tounge As he looked at His younger-Self. 'I can't Even See my Handsome Face in this State? How unsightly?" as he Sneered at His Younger Self.

As he looked at his Younger Self he Let out a Sigh. 'Wasting my Childhood Moping Around? How Fun They Said?' As He Thought to Himself, he Regretted Wasting his 1 year of His Life Moping Locked in a room without even Flinching or Moving.

'If only That Accident didn't happen I Would've Been Happily Playing Around.' As he said to himself. As regret filled his mind but there was nothing he Can Do? time had passed by, There was no turning back. As he Slowly walked to the Couch he Always Sat on For The past Years.

Izach Comfily Sat down on His Couch staring at The Maid Feeding His Younger Self.

"*sigh This is boring." As Izach Said while As he Stares at the window behind him.

Few Minutes Past By. The Maid Finished Feeding the Young Izach.

[Then I'll Take My Leave Young Master] As The Young Maid Said as She Slowly Left the Room.

As The Door Closed Shut Izach Approached his Younger Self. As he Sneered his Younger Self.

"You Won't hear me nor You won't See" He Spoke in A Calm Manner

"........" Yet No One Answered.

"I Despise You" As Izach Spoke in A Cold Tone

"........"

"Your Really Won't Stand Up? You're Really Gonna lay at Your Bed Doing Nothing For A whole Year??"

"........"

"No Answer Huh?" Izach Sighed, As he Looked away at His Younger Self Gazing at The Window Near His Couch.

".........."

"Well, We Do have A lot in Common?" As He Returned his Gaze at His Young Self.

"..........

"*sigh, What Am I Doing? Talking to my Younger Self even Though I'm A Ghost and This is Only Part of memory?"

"........"

"*Sigh." Izach's Face Darkened As he Looked up At The Ceiling of His Bedroom as He Took A Deep Breath.

"........"

'It's Raining Huh?' Izach Said to himself. As his Gazed Landed Back At his Empty Husk of a body.

Izach Walked At his approached his Younger Self as he Layed down Beside his Young Body.

"You Know, The World Seem's Dark?"

".................."

"Sigh, What Am I Saying? I Already Know this Shell Won't hear me." As He Scratched his Head in irritation.

"You Know It isn't Bad To See a World With no Damn Faces? You see None Yet You Forget"

"....."

"But it's not Fun if The One That You Loved The Most Died"

"......"

"Even Though.Even if We/I can just See her Smile....."

"......."

"it's Stifling.......For you and me....how Much We Try to Remember Her Face...."

"........"

"You And I, Desire Something...Do you Know How Much We Try Our Best To Remember? How Many Tears Fell until we Fell asleep as the pain we feel reaches its peak as to how much we Mourn for her, Yet were Just Only A Child? Until This Day." As His Voice Cracked His pupils Watered Trying to Control Himself From Crying.

"...."

"We Cry We Laugh And We Love."

"....."

"We both Desire one Thing. Yet Why did God Give us This Damned Disability....." As Izach Cursed as he Sat Down as he looked at His Younger self.

"...."

"Stand up....." Izach Spoke, As his Fist Clench and His Gaze Sharpen. as He bit His Lower lip From Frustration.

"....."

"Are You Really Gonna Lying Down Doing Nothing???!!" Izach Voiced Rang Deep Inside the Room

As Lighting Roared Through the Stormy Night. As Light Flashed Inside Izach's Room As The Rain Fell Harder.

"........"

"Are You Looking Down On me??" As Izach faced Crumpled in Anger.

"........" Yet Silence was heard again and again.

Izach Lunged and tried To Grabbed his Younger Self's Neck. Yet to his Surprise he Can Strangle His Younger-Self? But Due to The Fact Anger Ate Izach's Reason To Think he Firmly Grabbed His Younger Self's Neck yet There was no resistance.

"A-Ack....." Only Cry's For Struggle Can be Heard.

"W-why Won't You Die!!!" Izach Shouted As His Grip on his Younger Self Firmed his eyes Filled With Agony and Anger. the Grip from Izach's Hand Tightened.

"Why you're just gonna keep Looking down On Me???!!!"

"Ukghh-Ughhk"

"You Don't Know How Much I Cried and Mourn!!"

<*Grip>

"Ack!!"

"Yet Here You Are.....You're Given A Chance to See her For One Last Time!!!!"

"Kuku.....If I-I K-Kill yo-you Now J-Just Maybe!!"

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His Heart Beat Raced Faster Than Ever, Fear And His Sanity Slowly Crumbled.

"Aghhhhhhhh!!!!!" His Voiced Ranged as His Eyes Was Cold No Life nor Restraint's Holding him Back, Any Form of Hesitation Didn't linger.

"Ack"

Slowly the Young Izach's Hand's Who was Trying to Resist, As He Tried Using All His strenght yet as Time Passes by. The Small Flame of the Young Izach's Will to Live Slowly withered as His strenght to Resist Grown Weaker and Weaker.

"Huff.....Huff......" As Izach Tried to Regain His Breath. He Gazed at His Younger self. Even Though he Can't See the Person's Face. he Knew.

There Was Only A Body Without A Soul And Warmth Felt.