Chapter 1

What is love? Google said to feel deep affection or sexual love for (someone). Why does Google make everything sound so easy? Fucking hell. But what does falling out of love mean? Falling out of love means you are at the point where you've just stopped caring. And that's something that should scare another person.

Well, holly shit now I am really scared. Why do we live in a world where people fall in love and then fall out of love? I don't know. That's a question I am going to ask God when I meet him in heaven...

Hi, I didn't introduce myself, I am the goddess of all humans.

Okay, lies I'm no. My name is Mariahlynn Anderson-Blake.

I am 17 years old and I am currently in year 12. Oh the fun all times, this is the most stressful year of my schooling life. But next year it's going to be even worse because a bitch is finally finishing school and becoming a stripper.

Yeah Cardi B I am following in your footsteps and hopefully, I can the go on Love and Hip pop and make a name for myself.

But all jokes aside I want to become a doctor and help other people even though I hate talking to people. I am not so sure how that is going to work but it will. I looked to my right and saw that it was 7 am and I needed to start getting ready for school. Nothing new, always going to school same old same old. Private schools aren't it, they are so boring. Nothing fun ever happens so I don't even know how or what I am still doing at this school. I need to see some action.

Kidding I hate people fighting. And everyone at this school all talk and no action so I'm not even pressed at all. I went out of my room and into the bathroom and started the shower as I looked for a song to start playing from my playlist.

Who doesn't love listening to music while they are showering?

"Bitches be mad when they see Cardi step in the spot (whoa)

Said that you 'bout it, we know that you not

I'ma pull up on bitches as soon as I drop" I sang as I pressed one of my favourite songs.

I don't know, is it me or anyone else but like Cardi B songs always popping, like shit, baby girl, if I was gay I would wanna hook up with you.

This bitch is a bad bitch for sure.

After that song finished playing another started playing and I had to change it because right now I was in a bad bitch mood and I got back into my shower. After showering I changed into my school uniform. Yes, you heard me, I have to wear a uniform, sometimes I wish I lived in America where I was able to wear normal clothes but then I realise that I would always compete with myself to see if my fit is dripping wet. I grabbed my books and phone and charger and went downstairs and found my siblings fighting over who is better in WWE and when the saw me walk in I turned the other way.

"Good morning mum." I kissed mt mums cheek.

"Morning." She said and started cooking God knows what, but I know it was going to be so good.

"Where are the others?" She asked and right on time, they came in bricking always.

"Can you guys shut up." I said looking at my phone.

"Whatever," my brother said rolling his eyes at me and I did the same.

We had breakfast and I was waiting outside for my best friend named Maren to come and pick me up.

"Hey, bitch." I said and climbed into her car.

"Heyo, you pumped for today?" She asked and she knew I wasn't because school started yesterday and I the school captain and I have to do a speech today.

"Nope, and what the hell are you listening to?" I asked and see One Direction playing and I roll my eyes and connect my Bluetooth and Famous Hoes started playing.

"Get a bitch and make her famous, next minute she blocked me (blocked me)

30 in this Perc, I need to slow down on the roxys (on the roxys)

Got a call my niggas died, I damn near skipped a heartbeat (skipped a heartbeat)

Lookin' for your love, bet your feelings is departin' (departin')

Pull up on the wrong street, you niggas getting blicked out"

We both sing on top of our lungs. And God knows that we both can't sing so like just imagine what that sounded like. And then the song finished. That song gets me in my feelings it's really sad. Like him and his girlfriend broke up and they were so cute together.

Bodak Yellow started playing and this was our jam, this is what our turn up song was, I mean if you and your bitch don't have one then wHaT tHe FuCk ArE yOu DoInG wItH lIfE?

"Girl I just love Cardi." I said. She agreed and she pulled into the school gate and I groaned, she parked the car and we started walking into school.

"So how is your boyfriend?" I asked my friend as we walked to her locker.

"Good, he's so cute. How is-." She said and then she started laughing like there was no tomorrow and I rolled my eyes and we reached her locker and then she got out her books and put her bag into her locker and then we walked to my locker and we did the same thing.

"Omg, why is today such a long day. Like a bitch got two double periods and one study like what the fuck is this type of treatment." I said and looked at my laptop which had my daily timetable presented on it.

"I don't know, why you asking me. Do I look like I hold all the answers to the universe? No bitch I fucking don'.t" She said. I gave her a birdie and she started laughing and started texting away on her phone.

"Whatever bumass your no help, the only thing your good at doing is sucking this dick." I said and she rolled her eyes and kept on texting.

"Bruh so basically my homework for legal studies was like studying-" I started saying and the bell went off.

"Ohh, look at that, the bell rang," she said as it went off and she was lucky that she was saved by it and I started chuckling and walking to my house, it sucked that we were not in the same one. Hey, that is just life, you win or you lose. I walked into homegroup and took my normal seat and started working on my assessment that is due in period 3. Maybe I should have done this at home and the day I got it, but Damon is Daddy and Stefan is Zaddy so they were the most important things in my life

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I'm actually writing this story with a broken heart and an aching heart. So like I thought why not turn my pain into something that people can read.

I don't know but I don't make sense at all but like be with me. I don't know when I will update but like yeah guys.

Hope you liked this chapter.