Chapter 20: A million redo

Love and romance are the two things I'd never thought I'll experience and have, because I was once just a pessimistic boy who loved tragedy and poems and never trusted anyone. Past experience would do that to you as well as lies and betrayal and etc. Life had thrown a lot in my plate. Along with this disorder that I still can't quite understand. That all I know gives me this weird mind that let's me recall everything which doesn't sound bad. But believe me if you spend a mile in my shoes it is. But still my life ain't that bad, because like everybody else I found love and romance. Yet getting here wasn't easy. Still it's filled with lessons and realizations that drove me to where I am now. Everything I loved, liked and experience helped me to get here.

Writing was my long time passion and with it I manage to get work and stay connected somehow to the person I love. Depression and tragedy was the first two things that lead me to her. My job help me reconnect and reach her. That's why in a way everything I did and had was connected. It also thought me that you can have retries in life not just in video games and in writing. Before I thought writing was better than life. Because you can write whatever you want then erase it if your not satisfied by it. You can always just delete everything and start from scratch. But in life it's not like that or so I thought. You see life in general can have retries as well writing. Sometimes you get bad ideas or no ideas at all. But all those bad ideas can sometimes cultivate a masterpiece. Like in life the past chapters in your life can lead to a better one. I realized that before I wasn't much of a writer but trial and error got me here. To the place that I wanted where all the emptiness was filled. And everything feels necessary.

After meeting with Ana's parents which was really awkward I manage to get their permission. First about our place Ana and I thought it was best for us to rent a place near my work so that if anything urgent or an emergency I can quickly be there for her. After moving in there we was happy but things didn't ended her. We kind of hit challenges sometimes such as Ana's mood swings and times where she can't accept that we are together, which was hard but something I was ready for. And as we went through those days I kept knowing more and more about her. My love for her gotten deeper as I gotten to know her better. On days she recognizes me we talk about simple stuff like about the book and tips she tells me that will please her and make it easy for her the next day. A year passed at this point I manage to save up money to create a proposal. Because at this point in my life I figured I should do it also as a surprise for her. I wanted to publish it. I want to publish our story. I also pitched it in with Ana and I'm kind of confused. On some days she agrees with me but some days not. Then again this story was kind of for that for people to know and be inform that people like us exist.

The next day I talked to my boss and asked her if he can refer me to some publishers he know that I can propose the idea for my book to. I was not surprised by my boss reaction. I think he was more surprise by mine because I thanked him.

"thanks boss for always believing in my ability ever since I was a college student"

"That's a surprise it's not usual for you to say things like this but any ways it was no problem you are kind of my wild card"

"What do you mean?"

"Because I took a bet on a college student who was clearly looking for himself, which I think you have found now right?"

"Yeah"

"That's good I'm proud of you and don't worry I'll call some people I know and give your contact details to them"

"Thanks boss"

"No we don't do thanks here give it here"

Then we hug which was kind of ok. Because over the year I manage to deal my social anxiety that's why speaking up is not that hard for me. After talking and meeting with some people I wasn't expecting much. Because first of all this was my first book. Only a brave publisher would invest. And yeah I have money to publish but I still need a somewhat known company to publish my book so that it would be out there and reach the people and crowd that I was hoping to reach. But I kind of have a problem about pitching this idea I don't have yet a title which was weird, because when you write a story usually the title was the first thing you think of. Yet I still don't have a clue. As well as with the ending, that's also the reason why I think no publisher has called me.

Days have passed and nothing happened Ana kind of caught on somehow because she asked me some days what's wrong but I don't tell her. Until today

"What's wrong?" Said Ana

"Well you see I've met with publishers the other day and sorry for not telling or putting it on your diary or memo pad but yeah I did"

"But why?"

"One reason I want to let the world knew that I love you. As well as there is this situation that I overthink about sometimes. It's a what if I was not around or what if there are others like you that needed people to love and understand them I want to make our story known so that maybe people with the same experiences would feel understood and people with no idea at all about short term memory would be at least curious about this from our story"

"That's sweet but what's the problem?"

"I think because my book doesn't have a title and an ending yet"

"Well I think not having the title is the reason why your conflcted. Because if we're talking about the ending that's something that we both don't know"

"What do you mean?"

"You silly obviously because we haven't gotten there yet nor we are in hurry because we are still writing are next chapters that's why the ending is yet unknown which the reason and maybe the thing you need to tell your publishers"

Woah I didn't see that nor realized that at first I was rushing to much to get my book published it made me lose sight about the most important thing. Which is her and our relationship which gave me an idea on what to do next. . After a couple of days I got another meeting with a publisher and asked Ana to come with me. Luckily she is in the mood and went with me. I pitch my idea along with her. I went like this.

"Good morning, here I am today to pitch an idea but first I want to introduce you to someone this is Ana my girlfriend. And you might be thinking why is she here with me and what's this all about. Ana has short term memory. Which means she is forgetful in a way that she can attain any new memory, every time she wakes up her mind becomes a clean slate."

I went on and on telling people about Ana which was what I should I have done in the first place because it was the purpose of me writing this book. It was to tell her and our story. Afterwards some of the publishers where touched by my story and when they come to ask the title I said it would be to follow because right now I still don't have any idea. Even so the publishers liked the idea and said to me that when you finally come up with the title come contact us and we'll set you up. I was finally relieved.

After some time I thought of with the title the publishers agreed with me and in a couple of months we published the book and I was supposed to speak on a press conference soon which I'm not kind of expecting because I forgot to do a background research on the company that signed with me and the funny thing is turns out the founder of that company and one of the people who was there was like me. He was once a writer of the same newspaper I worked with and my boss know him directly because of that. it was a funny coincidence because another thing from what happened to me is connected. Then there I was standing in front of people Ana beside me and I told them our story in a simple way through something that I've always done trough a poem

The ending

I once loved tragedy

I wasn't into romance and comedy

Sadness was my favorite melody

Until I met my remedy

A fateful encounter

With a lady who's so fair

That could make any boy stare

Her eyes has this beautiful glare

We met again and again

But her memories never remain

It caused me pain

Also happiness whom I thought in vain

We got separated I thought everything was over

That there was no chance for a forever

Or for us being together

But unto the next chapter

There we was another encounter

Suddenly the sadness was over

Again we were together

Towards the next chapter

My story

Whom I thought was a tragedy

Become a romantic comedy

Tomorrow is really a mystery

Things will always be changing

Times will always be passing

Even so keep on fighting

Because everything

Leads to somewhere amazing

Everything will start filling

Connecting

And have meaning

That's why never stop hoping

Because this is just the beginning

Of everything

There's no such thing as an ending

My life had been with ups and downs which makes it normal. Everything that happened to me up to now is because of this moment. To let you know about this wonderful girl named Ana. Who was forgetful yet amazing. She is my world. And this is kind of our story. Of our all over and over meet up and first meeting which I'll gladly do again and again because I love her. This is our story whom may get confusing and inconsistent. But we'll happily tell it because it is just our beginning and we'll do all what we can. And by the way the title of our book is this. I will do what ever takes even it takes "A million redo"

PS: sorry for the inconsistent contents but this was just my first book hoping to get support on my next as I try to get better even if it takes a million redo- BY BroKen Pen