Why am I like this?

Why am I like this? 

I'm always in my mind, giving depression a kiss. 

I'm always thinking. Going round and round like a disc. 

I can't focus. I'm always in the dark. 

I'm always doing something but not focusing on it.

I can't keep on going like this. 

I'm getting worried. 

I'm always doing it like I'm an addict. 

There's some things I can't accomplish. 

And I can't tell people about this

They might be thinking that I haven't tried and I'm useless. 

I try my best. 

I don't notice it. Just happens. 

I need pills that would help me focus. 

-@MellowSoul 🥀