kill me now

"ok Mr Kim I am so sorry for this but we couldn't make this wait any longer the entrance exams are coming up next year and am sure you want your daughter to make good grades and all but she just cannot afford to make this school look bad she is drowning with d's and C's and if she can't move up to a b I am sorry but she will have to stay an extra year" the principal informs my dad hastily with no emotions at all 'ok I understand which is why I want to move her to the dorms for the remainder of her stay here , I was thinking maybe she was too distracted at home and didn't really have time to study so you can monitor her better she stays here" he says with an indifferent look on his face "this can't be happening I just , wha....I "I say speechless and kind of disappointed in my dad "shush young child you have no say in the matter you have been sheilded for too long and I am not going to take any of it any more you choose science and you are going to study here and be a good child for crying out loud I am done with your bullshit ." he says in an angry voice like I have never seen before like he was disappointed in me ,like he wasn't my father " we are done here and there is nothing left to discuss your things will be transported to the school dorm and I will visit once a month " he says with a stern face and voice " is this how you plan to get rid of me cause if it is you sure are not doing that." I scream back with all the anger of losing my mom and how it was weighing on me. "why do you have to be such a disappointment

." he says and just storms of and I look at the principal but she is also as shocked as me , I get my bag and just storm right back to class I am done with this and I sure just can't stand it anymore " hey where are you going Kim Liang get back to class right this instant" the teacher barks at me like a dog " you know what who cares about class anyway every day we study just to please our parents"I say while laughing and crying with a mix of emotions " Kim ,Kim ,Kim" senior kan liwan shouts for me to come back without a second thought I just leave and just I don't know am just gonna calm down for a second

later that afternoon at Central Park

"hey Liang how you been." he says with a very nice smile "ooh I have been good you " is say forcing a smile from my face with nothing but hatred and pain but who gives a care in the world "fine" he replies "ok want me to hit you up with some alcohol." he says with a questionable look is he trying to take advantage of me " no thanks I think I should be leaving good bye " with my last resort of trying to escape the awkward conversation goodbye I say and then return to campus , to see that my dorm was already set up and I had 2 roommates Liang Liang and ye wan wan "hi guys " I say as I lay on my bed "Liang I think Kim thinks she is too good for this school who does she think she is she even has the guts to get seniors attention" ye wan wan says in a whisper thinking I wouldn't hear her "don't mind her , her story is too sad to be true maybe she made it up but I don't blame senior he was just being nice to a sad case but who cares . She is nothing to special ok."Liang Liang replies in a louder tone " who is awake " screams the dorm master , they quickly shut their lips and pretend to be asleep

next morning

"Kim ooh you look really pale this morning wanna borrow the new cream my mum got me from America" she says with a dashing smile and a really cute baby voice " no thanks I will pass , see you at breakfast" i say trying to cut the story short I get my bag and start my morning study as expected of those who live in the dorm we have 2 hours of study before breakfast "evaporation, convection, conduction."I say trying to cram the words by heart "Liang why did you leave in a hurry yesterday I was really worried about you?" liwan says with a sad look and a very quiet voice " ooh me , nothing I just had to quickly visit someone sorry to worry you with my problems, with that I think I should be on my way" I say as I speed walk to class In a haste like no other " ok class open to section 4 of your books and do review 1-60 class monitor please make sure everyone does their work" he says particularly Glearing at me " don't you think senior liwan is so cute I heard his dad is the 2nd master of the li group , if we got married our force would be unstoppable" a few girls chattered at the back in giggly voices " Father said I won't need to lift a finger to get him he would make sure we got married " she says with a big smile like she just scored 1st on the rank board " hello students" the teacher speaks sternly " turn in your reviews please" he says with a questionable tone I was barely done with the questions and then he just grabbed the paper of my desk " ok guys fighting " he says while lifting his fist .

lunch time

"the lunch here is trash ooh and we are sneaking out for lee we we's party wanna come " they say in a hush tone " why not " the shallow girl answers with a grin . I just focus on eating my lunch while studying " hey Kim Liang mind if I sit hear " senior liwan says politely " I don't know why a smart guy like liwan would wanna seat with her " I hear in scattered voices in the cafeteria " yeah she is not really the brightest nor the most beautiful girl in the school so why is the school hunk after her maybe a love potion ." the girl says in a way as if expecting me to hear " if you wanna say anything say it to my face" I tell in rage " you know what liwan I am full I am gonna go back and study" I say " you better study so you don't influence liwan with your stupid ways " a girl screams " this is the last time am gonna say it "if you have anything to say , say it to my face if you truly have the guts" I say about to punch something but instead I just walk away with my last thread of dignity.