Unchangeable And Irreversible

(Evans POV)

Aaron didn't waste a second. One of his hands traveled down to my pants and started unzipping the zipper properly. All the way down. That gave him easier access to slip his hand in and let it go deeper down to my opening. I gasped again just like last time. I wasn't used to having things so close to that body part.

I bit my lip, a little uncomfortable by what is happening.

As much as I want to go through with this like a normal person and enjoy the process and just let it happen, I just can't. Maybe it's because of the fact that I know that after this, my body will be changed forever. Stained with something that I can never reverse.

Perhaps that is why I fear what is about to come. Perhaps I am not ready? Possibly. But I want to do this. For Aaron. And not only for him. But I feel that, if I never try to commit to it, get out of that state, I might never change and grow as a person. I feel like this might be my salvation... in a weird way.