S2 C37

The biggest mistake I ever made was that I could not be honest with my feelings. Be honest with what I want, what I expect and I can't be honest with myself. I don't know if it's my ego or I'm too stupid to hurt you so badly. When I see your eyes staring at me with that disappointed look, I am unable to say anything as a defence and in the end, I lose you.

Spending time even breathing without you becomes very difficult. Until finally I realized that your loss is the worst suffering I've ever felt. It's ironic how we can only realize something when we have lost it. We are never grateful for something when we have it and maybe that's what humans call it.

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