S2 C43

Have you ever regretted the past, for everything you’ve done and regretted it for everything. You sit in a corner and look out the window, then you question yourself. Look in the mirror, but you can’t see yourself. Then you see the ground that you step on, but it feels like it’s going to collapse. You are lying on a comfortable bed but it feels like you are standing on the edge of a cliff and the cold ocean below is ready to devour you.

You are in a crowd and you see people around you laughing; you don’t understand what they are laughing about, but you choose to laugh. You keep laughing in front of others until they don’t see how devastated you are when you are alone. They are kind and caring for you, but you still feel broken inside. You don’t know why you’re just locked in your world and feeling broken. You just feel lonely without knowing the reason.

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