Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Brittany -

It was really nice to see her so open and honest about what she wanted.

I couldn't imagine she was one to allow herself to be so vulnerable very often, but I felt really special that she would care enough to talk to me like that.

I enjoyed blending in most of the time, but the boost to my self esteem since she even spoke to me in the bathroom had been insane.

She noticed me.

She approached me.

She emailed me.

Me.

Out of anyone she picked me.

Then, instead of having her fun and tossing me aside, she decided to show she cared more for me.

She said if we continued spending time together she would let me help with cooking, even if I only helped by sitting on her counter looking cute, but for now she just wanted me to relax in the living room.

She handed me a bowl and sat a plate with paper towels between us.

‘I love sausage links.’

Dani: ‘Good. Oatmeal is great, but I like something more solid with each meal. So, would you like to start with questions, or see how it goes?’

‘See how it goes. I'm not sure what to ask honestly.’

Dani: ‘So what do you know? And before you answer if you mention a number or shades of any color, I'm taking you home.’

She smiled and took a bite of oatmeal.

‘Well, after the umm, book phenomenon I looked into what it was supposed to be about a little. So I guess I just read over some basics. Someone on Top, someone on bottom. One in charge, one obeying...one hitting, one being hit. I read about some stuff people like to do to each other, but my roommate saw what I was looking at and teased me. We talked about it a little and she said she could see me submitting or serving someone, because I like to help others.’

Dani: ‘Well, let me tell you now helping others and enjoying it has nothing to do with Dominance or submission. I like to cook, so I do. I've brought you two meals here to the couch now. I'm hoping for more and maybe even some in bed at some point. I'm not submitting to you and I am not in service to you. I may be serving you the food, but it's because I enjoy it. I admit that I like to switch on very rare occasions. The bottom side is nice sometimes when you're giving up the control and just existing, but I'm a Dominant. I can bottom for play or sex, but not submit because it isn't who I am. That didn't change because I cooked for you. Does that make sense? I do it, because I like to, and I would be dumb not to just because some see it as a submissive trait.’

‘Yeah, actually. That makes a lot of sense. I guess it just clicked with me when she said it though. I have certain stuff I take charge on, but to be honest I liked the thought of maybe finding someone I could trust that much. To be in charge for me and take the burden of decision making away. Knowing their decisions will always be in my best interest. I guess I like the thought of that kind of security.’

I blushed and looked at my food.

‘Plus I can't say the thought of someone using my body for their enjoyment, isn't pretty appealing too.’

Dani: ‘Your body is a beautiful gift to offer someone. Don't hand it over lightly. I mean that.’

‘I don't offer anything easily if I'm being honest. I had a heart break or two that pretty much made me not want to bother with the whole relationship thing anymore.’

Dani: ‘I get that. I really do and I've had some rough ones myself, but I did find this community when I needed it most. There's a lot that most people don't understand that people do around here. Being around people who are like minded offers a lot. You're not an outsider, not an oddball, just another kinky person in a crowd of freaks. Oddly enough, the freaks seem more like the normal ones.’